The madman grinned bitterly after hearing this, and then continued to look at the goldfish in a daze, while Yaping looked at him in a daze, so the madman was helpless, looking at everything in front of him, looking at the goldfish on the table in front of him, and then took out a cigarette, lit it numbly, took a few puffs, and then said: "You have changed recently." ”

Yaping didn't continue to speak, so the madman had to pick up his pen and start writing a diary, in fact, today's diary is strictly speaking, this clearly means that there are a lot of things that need to be recorded, such as the morning surveillance, and the fact that the man on the construction site came to the Internet café, of course, there is also the matter of meeting that special girl.

So the madman wrote numbly for a long time, then stopped the pen in his hand, and then continued to look at everything on the desk in a daze, in fact, these things are strictly speaking, this is nothing to look at at all, right? Anyway, everything is like this, but, I don't know why, I just don't like to be so bound by Yaping, I really don't like this feeling.

So continue to be in a daze, after a moment of being in a daze, this picked up the phone and looked at the time, and it seems that more time is spent writing a diary today than before? After all, it's written very seriously, and it's not a good feeling in my heart?

But at present, Yaping picked up the notebook and began to check, this is an on-the-spot inspection, she was not like this in the past, anyway, today's Yaping is very strange, and she feels very unaccustomed.

Yaping looked at it for a long time before she spoke: "Your handwriting is indeed very neat, but the pen is not like words at all, have you carefully practiced the calligraphy I bought for you?" ”

Copybook? Hehe, in fact, when he first got those copybooks, he thought it was very funny, and another one is, that is Wang Xizhi's font, who is Wang Xizhi? That's a book saint that shakes the past and the present! His book is also known as the first in the world, so his interest at that time was very high, but slowly, I don't know why, this is no longer interested, just like copying a book, slowly and slowly I don't want to copy, and it's like writing a diary.

That's right, everything seems to be like this, as long as you do too much, you will immediately feel bored, anyway, you just don't want to continue to do it, and where are those postings now? In fact, to put it bluntly, isn't it in the big tattered cardboard box on the second floor of the Internet café? Anyway, I don't want to describe it anymore.

So when the madman thinks of this, this is another question: "It's not interesting to write and write, so I don't write anymore, I really don't know what the meaning of writing is?" No matter how well it is written, what can it be? ”

Yaping smiled, and said in a tone that seemed to care very much but didn't care very much: "Do you know how much money the old lady spent when she bought those copybooks? That one only has a dozen pages, but it costs more than twenty dollars, so each page is more than two dollars. ”

The madman was suddenly stunned, because he didn't expect that those calligraphy books were so valuable, he thought that those things were only a few yuan at most, but yes, the calligraphy that Yaping bought for himself was not a defective product at all, it was a boutique in the real sense, so how could it be a bargain?

So the madman was stupid, and once again looked at all this on his desk, and in fact, all of this, which item was the bargain? Is it a pen holder that costs thousands of dollars? No, no, no, it's not cheap, is it still the fountain pen currently lying in the pen holder? No, it's not cheaper, and it's not even a measurable existence that can be measured in money at all, so are there still goldfish in these flowers and plants? No, it's not cheap, these things are poured into Yaping's expectations of herself.

Then he turned his head and looked at the bookcase next to him, every book on this bookcase, strictly speaking, this is not a cheap product, this is Yaping bought it all in full, what is the price behind these books, it is how much is a book.

Yes, at this moment, it was really at this moment that I realized how high Yaping's expectations were for herself, Yaping herself has never been reluctant to buy cosmetics, reluctant to eat and drink, and even more reluctant to buy jewelry for herself, or an expensive piece of clothing, Yaping pinned all her expectations on herself, and what are she doing now?

No, is it because I'm too boring, or do I think Yaping isn't good enough? No, no, no, Yaping is definitely the best girl in the world, at least for herself, because Yaping has given everything she has for herself, even without any reservations.

Thinking of this, the madman pursed his lips and gritted his teeth, wanting to grin and sneer, but for some reason, he couldn't grin and sneer, so he just gritted his teeth, and at every moment that had passed, as long as his mood had such a huge fluctuation, it would definitely be accompanied by cigarettes and liquor, but now? So I subconsciously reached out and looked for liquor under the desk, but I didn't find the liquor, right, I don't seem to have been drinking much recently?

There is no liquor, so I can only smoke a cigarette, and look at everything on the desk again, all of which is Yaping's mind, so I look at the expensive books in the bookcase, and even turn around a little, looking at Yaping who is holding a notebook behind her and staring at herself, and the worn-out laptop behind her.

That's right, everything in this room, including Yaping, seems to exist because of herself, or to put it simply, all exist for herself, but she is still not satisfied with such happiness, and she is still depraved like mud every day.

Therefore, the madman directly took another puff of cigarette, and then spoke: "You have done so much for me, is it worth it?" ”

Yaping said indifferently: "I don't know if it's worth it or not, I just understand, you are my boyfriend, I will marry you, in fact, I am already married to you, isn't it?" ”

Oh, so? It turns out that Yaping thinks so? No, this is not what Yaping imagined, in fact, this is a fact that cannot be argued at all, so the madman feels that his heart is a little painful at this moment, and he doesn't know how long it has been, and his heart has such an inexplicable feeling again.

And now the madman does he need cigarettes? Need narcotic narcotics for nicotine in cigarettes? Perhaps? Maybe not, but the madman just continued to smoke a cigarette and said indifferently, "Tomorrow, I will try." ”

"Tomorrow? Is it tomorrow's tomorrow's tomorrow? When will you be able to wait for the tomorrow you are talking about? ”

The madman was stupid immediately, in fact, Yaping was not wrong at all, when will he be able to wait for his so-called tomorrow? Anyway, I always say that I will work hard tomorrow, and in this process, I really don't know how many tomorrows have passed, and in how many tomorrows have passed, haven't I been numb and degenerate?

So now, looking at everything in front of me again, he gritted his teeth, and then made a final decision, even if it was the so-called acting, this should also be played for Yaping? That's right, at least respond to Yaping's expectations, right? After all, Yaping gave everything she had, which was all she had without reservation.

So the madman will say, "Get up, I'm going to renew the book." ”

That's right, Yaping quickly left the computer, and then the madman numbly began to update the book on the computer, in fact, it was just a little check, to see if there were any typos, and grammatical errors and the like, in fact, these words were in the past, I don't know how many times I checked it, so far it can be said that there are really few mistakes.

So this is updated several chapters, anyway, now I am acting for Yaping to see, no, it's not acting, it's working hard, no, it's not working hard, it's just responding to Yaping's expectations of herself, anyway, I don't have any direction in my life at all, and I don't know what I'm going to do, so at this moment, I'm doing what Yaping said, anyway, there's a direction, know what I should do every day?

After updating the books, I originally wanted to go to bed directly, but Yaping said that she should read the books for a while, but what kind of books do you want to read now? There are really a lot of books in the bookcase, and they are all ridiculously expensive, so I picked up the "Four Books" casually, but why pick up this book, just because the "Four Books" is boring?

I don't know, I really don't know, anyway, I just read the books for a long time, and at this time, Yaping said: "Go wash up, let's sleep, tomorrow night, you have to do the same." ”

The madman didn't speak, just put the book back in the bookcase, then picked up his mobile phone, saw that the time on it was: 23:15, and thought, I have never slept so late in the past recently, anyway, I don't know what I'm doing every day, so why don't I sleep?

Thinking of this, I couldn't help but laugh out loud again, and then I went out to wash, of course, Yaping also washed together, and then the two of them went to sleep, but now the madman is actually strictly speaking, he really has a lot of thoughts, as if for a moment, this is back to the past, every moment of every day, as if he was thinking about some strange things.

……

The next day, after dawn, it seemed like the beginning of another boring day, but it didn't seem to be, so something didn't seem right? But I can't say anything, anyway, I'm in the office on the second floor of the Internet café again, brewing tea, and then sitting on the chair, as if I'm in a daze again, thinking about last night's events in my heart.