August 210 BC

When I was a child in Xianyang Palace, I once saw a concubine who died in the cold palace with the big dancer.

At that time, I was rushing to a concubine with the big dancer to deliver clothes, and when I passed through the cold palace, I happened to see two little eunuchs carrying a person out, and the white cloth on his face was lifted by the wind, and the big dancer and I knew that it was a dead man.

The concubine committed suicide by taking poison, bleeding from the seven orifices, and her death was very miserable. The disheveled and withered appearance was like a ghost, and I was so frightened that I vomited it directly.

The big dancer told me at that time: For the concubine who was beaten into the cold palace, it is better to live than to die.

But now I think that not only those concubines who have been beaten into the cold palace, but for many concubines who enter the palace, no matter how beautiful they are in front of them, there is no difference between living and dying.

I helped Xiao Xu change into the best clothes, snow-white light yarn, flowing shawl, lining her delicate but pale face, revealing a trace of the smell of fireworks in the world, and her black hair was neatly combed, some were scattered on the couch, and some were softly hanging on her chest, which was her favorite style.

I knelt gently beside her, carefully painting her eyebrows, drawing her eyes, and applying rouge, the whole process was serious and meticulous, as if I was treating the most fragile treasure in the world.

Finally, I took out the piece of white yarn that she had treasured in the box and gently covered her.

I don't know what this white veil, which looks like a curtain, means to her, but since she treasured it here, it must be something she is reluctant to leave in this world.

"Xiao Xu, you have to wait for me. I took the oil lamp in my hand and said softly to the face hidden under the white veil, "I know that if I go with you now, you will be angry and accuse me, and in that case I will stay a little longer." Xiao Xu, we said okay, when I have left my thoughts in this world, I will go to you, and we will enjoy the flowers, dance, and fly kites together, okay?"

Gently throwing out the oil lamp in his hand, the flame, which was originally only the size of a bean, fell on the white yarn, as if growing, gradually expanding and brightening, and finally, swallowing a qiē.

I turned around and went out, holding only a jade bracelet that Xiao Xu had carried on his body since he was a child. This jade bracelet was the only thing Fei Xue Ji left her, but now it has become the only thought she left me.

The heavy rain had not stopped, and I stood in the courtyard and looked back at the black smoke of the Flying Snow Pavilion, only to feel that there was a place in my heart that had left forever with the person lying in the room.

"Xiao Xu, how can I let you stay in the cage after death? You are the most colorful butterfly in the world, you should fly with the wind to every land you yearn for, you finally ...... Finally free. I smiled wryly, "It's ironic...... But I am ...... for you The only thing that can be done. ”

"It's on fire!" The guards outside suddenly rushed in, and when they saw the burning dormitory, they rushed out in a panic, and kept shouting: "Come on!

While they were away looking for someone to put out the fire, I sneaked out of the Flying Snow Pavilion, but before I could run far, the sharp voice of the guard who had just collected my gold leaf suddenly came from behind me: "Catch her!

A small group of soldiers who had heard the news immediately chased after me, and ordered me to stand still as they pursued.

Naturally, I didn't stand still, but I ran faster and ran for my life. The carriage stopped at the gate of the palace, and now the palace is in chaos, the iron cavalry and guards have been transferred elsewhere, and there are only some eunuchs and small infantry in the harem, so as long as I get in the carriage, I should be able to escape.

My shoes kicked heavily because they were full of water, so I simply took them off and threw them at the two guards closest to me, running barefoot. The ground was slippery, and I nearly fell, but the pursuers behind me saw the right time to throw their swords. The sword was menacing, and although I managed to dodge it with difficulty, I was stabbed in the shoulder.

I was almost dizzy from the pain in my heart, and the blood that ran from my shoulders dripped to the ground, and was soon washed away by the majestic raindrops. I fell to the ground, and I felt a feeling of despair begin to creep through my heart.

"Are you going to die?" I laughed to myself, "but how...... I don't want to die yet......"

A dark shadow suddenly rushed from a distance, and he picked me up, then wiped the neck of the pursuers with his sword.

"Your Highness!" the black shadow nervously carried me and ran towards the carriage, and I realized that it was the coachman who had rushed to my rescue.

"Who are you?" I asked with difficulty, "Why did you save me?"

"The slave is ordered by Concubine Xu to protect you at all times. The coachman gritted his teeth: "My name is Zheng Qin, I was originally a guard, I unintentionally bumped into His Majesty the First Emperor, and it was Concubine Xu Niangniang who saved me from the knife." I owe her my life, and I willingly do whatever she asks me to do. ”

Zheng Qin raised his palm to split the soldiers who wanted to stop him, jumped into the carriage with me in his arms, and then kicked the horse's buttocks, shouting: "Drive!"

The horse was in pain, and ran away with its hooves, so that I almost fell off the carriage. Zheng Qin set me up in the carriage and went out to catch the carriage.

I shuddered and shivered, and the sound of teeth clashing with each other reached my ears, and I only felt a sense of sorrow in my heart.

"Damn!" Zheng Qin turned his head to look at it, and couldn't help but curse: "I even chased after him!"

Zheng ...... ......"I was so angry in pain that I finally made a sound: "Don't ...... Leave me alone...... You...... Walk...... Let's go......"

"If you let Concubine Xu hear this, she will definitely be unhappy. Zheng Qin chuckled, he got into the carriage, took out a small porcelain bottle from his arms, poured out a pill and stuffed it into my mouth, and said, "This is a farewell gift, if Your Highness can afford me, you will accept it." ”

I swallowed the pill with difficulty, and it was only with great difficulty that I managed to squeeze out a grateful smile.

"I was supposed to be a dead soul under the knife, it was Concubine Xu Niangniang who let me live until now, and my life is hers. Zheng Qin's eyes were wandering, looking a little dazed, and he said to himself: "I thought I could watch her for the rest of my life." ”

"You ......"

"But God didn't open his eyes, he didn't even give me this opportunity. I know she's gone, I should know...... But she's gone, and who am I living for...... I'm afraid I won't be able to find it in my life...... Your Highness, she is desperate to protect you...... So, even if it's for her, you have to live...... Zheng Qin...... Don't leave it at that......" Zheng Qin lifted the curtain and stepped out of the carriage, and then jumped down in my shocked gaze.

"No......" I watched the figure disappear in disbelief, shaking my head desperately, repeating in my mouth: "No...... Not ......"

But it was still late, and I could hear the sound of fighting mixed with the sound of rain...... Zheng Qin groaned in pain.

The horse galloped at a gallop, and the voice grew farther and farther away from me, but no matter how faint it became, I only felt that the voice kept echoing in my head, poking at my heart like a needle.

I have never forgotten that sad voice for the rest of my life.