By the time I opened my eyes, I found myself in a hospital bed. Snow-white sheets, life-sustaining equipment that I can't name. There is also the familiar smell of disinfectant water in hospitals. I'm back to reality.

I sat up and saw myself still lying in a hospital bed like a dead dog. Now I hate myself so much. I slapped myself in the face, and as before, I beat myself to the point of nothingness, and then regrouped again. In this disconnected world, I can't hate it at all. Everything around me is so powerless, in fact, in the end, I am powerless.

Calm down, I reminisce about all the things that happened after the time travel to the Ming Dynasty. It's still relatively clear, it's like having a dream, waking up immediately, and the memory of that dream is still fresh. Then I started to wonder if it was going to be a dream. I'm out of my body, and I can still sleep and dream. I just didn't know if I wanted to eat or not, because I didn't have time to feel hungry when I was in this state.

It should be a dream, and such a thing as an out-of-body soul is probably not delayed in dreaming. Otherwise, I wouldn't have to wake up from my hospital bed.

The feeling of being in a room with yourself is so depressing, especially in a hospital. I decided to leave, after looking at the display of the oscilloscope that showed the heartbeat for five minutes. Those fluctuations that represent my heartbeat just mean that I still have signs of life. But there is no consciousness, there is no thought. All consciousness and thoughts have been stripped out and followed me as I am.

And I can only go with my feelings. Out of the hospital, I wandered around, and the street lights outside were strange. And to me, the light seemed to have something tangible and could shoot through my body. I dodged the lights, and finally there was an invisible gravitational pull that pulled me outside the house I rented with Lu Jia.

I don't have a key on me, and there's no need to knock on the door. The room is still the same, but the lights have been turned off a long time ago. The house is so big, a bedroom with a bathroom and a kitchen, a thousand yuan a month, which is already a luxury.

Lu Jia was lying on the bed and sleeping deeply, I could see her eyes moving, she should be dreaming. I tried to touch her cheek, but my hand reached out and retracted halfway through.

It's like a beautiful picture reflected in the water, I can only look at it from the side, and if I try to reach for it, it will only fall apart.

"Lu Jia......" I whispered her name.

It's just a subconscious action, and I didn't intend to wake her up, maybe not at all. But I saw her move a little. I must have misread it, and I screamed again.

She woke up, really woke up. I could see the horror in her eyes, then the astonishment, and then the tears. When she got up from the bed and threw herself on top of me, I looked at her lying on the bed and froze.

It's not a contradiction, it's like I can be in the same room as me while I'm still in the hospital maintaining my basic vital signs. If I hadn't seen Lu Jia still sleeping on the bed, I would have been ecstatic at this moment. Because I could really feel the suffocation of her arms around my neck.

"I thought you'd never wake up again. Lu Jia choked, and I could feel the temperature of her tears on my shoulder.

The woman is an animal, why doesn't she want to think about me, although I am not dead, but after all, there are several fractures on my body. Even if you do wake up, you can't go home by yourself right away, and it's still in the middle of the night. How could I be so cruel as to tell her that I was actually in her dream.

Maybe I'm drinking to quench my thirst. Lu Jia's real touch in my arms also made me reluctant to admit my etherealness.

"Why did you come back alone? or in the middle of the night?" After the excitement calmed down, she began to come to her senses. She let go of my neck and looked at me with teary eyes.

"I didn't come back, I didn't wake up, you were dreaming...... the truth is that she is not stupid, she will always know the truth, even if she doesn't know in the dream, when she wakes up, it will be even more painful.

Lu Jia didn't speak for a while, as if she had lost her soul. Coldly, she slapped me in the face. The pain was as real as hers, and I felt like the left side of my face was hot. I don't know if Lu Jia felt pain, but after beating me, I saw that she was still so confused.

She looked back at the bed, trying to see herself. She must have been disappointed in the results, and she couldn't see the sleeping woman I could see. If I had to explain, it would be that dreams are not the same as out-of-body experiences.

"Let's go, I don't want such a dream......" Lu Jia muttered to herself, "I have to go to the hospital tomorrow." ”

"Lu Jia, listen to me. "Some things have to be made clear," I've become like that, and you want to wait for me to wake up? ”

Lu Jia's tears never dried, she just shook her head vigorously, I don't know if she was denying my words, or if she didn't believe that it was just a dream.

"I mean, you're going to be discharged tomorrow...... Do my parents know about this?"

"I didn't dare to tell them," Lu Jia shook his head, "The current medical expenses are paid by the family of the person who hit you." ”

I thought to myself, if that kid pays for the medical bills, then I'll just stay in the hospital, and I'll wake up one day. And I don't know, if I give up my life and I'm completely dead, will my soul still wandering around still be able to stay. Isn't there black and white impermanence in mythological stories that will pull people into the six realms of reincarnation?

But on second thought, I just died in the hospital, and I was tormented by Lu Jia and my parents. They may think that they would rather have 1% hope than to maintain it. And I don't want them to be physically and mentally exhausted because of me.

"Look at me lying in a hospital bed, I might as well be a dead man. I shook Lu Jia's arm, "Don't let me die in vain, okay, knock on their bamboo pole, and you will be able to live a better life in the future." ”

I really think so, don't say I'm not moral. When he hit me, he was moral? At least I took my life. Sometimes I don't understand why they can't think as realistically as I do. Now that the matter has come to this point, the most practical and promising solution is good for everyone.

"Don't put any moral or emotional pressure, I think so, what you can't think of. It may be important that I didn't make it clear before the accident. But who would have thought that one moment they were still in the library, and the next moment they would be in a vegetative state in the hospital. ”

"Don't say it, don't say it......"

Lu Jia had a hard time accepting what I said for a while. Indeed, I am now a bystander. Even looking at one's body lying in a hospital bed can have thoughts of schadenfreude. How could I force her to accept such an "irresponsible" idea.

Then the two of us were silent in Lu Jia's dream without saying a word, until she couldn't help it.

"Are you really out of your body?" her curiosity began to revive. It's okay to talk to her about some weird things so that she won't be too sad when she wakes up.

"It shouldn't be called a soul, at least not in our Oriental myths. I deliberately let my words match my expression to make the atmosphere more relaxed, "We call it soul or soul." ”

"Where have you been for the past three days?Can you fly, do you have spells, can you pass through walls, can you see ghosts......" Question after question, without giving me time to answer.

"I'll tell you little by little, don't worry. "The two of us forgot the cruel reality outside our dreams for a while, and immersed ourselves in the warmth of the two of us.

"No, I'm afraid I won't be able to see you when I wake up. ”

"Good. I said, "I can't fly, I can go through walls, I don't have spells, and I don't see any ghosts." ”

Then I told her about my time traveling to the Ming Dynasty, but I didn't expect that the time I spent in the Ming Dynasty was the same as reality. What I encountered in these three days was really amazing. However, Lu Jia laughed when she heard it. I asked her what was wrong, and she said you can really make it up.

A person who likes to write nonsense must have some mess in his head. He also likes to share his mess with the people around him. Lu Jia is used to listening to my nonsense, and at this time he still regarded what I said as a story I made up.

"How can you believe it?" I shook my head with a wry smile. In fact, believe it or not, what is it, you can see that she is happy, what is the difference between those who are real and fake.

"En......" Lu Jia thought for a moment, "Didn't you say that you were poked with a gun several holes in your body before you came back, and I will see if there are any." ”

What kind of logic is this? I'm back to reality, I'm still wearing the same clothes I wore when the accident happened, and it's normal that there are no wounds on my body. It doesn't explain the problem at all.

However, I still lifted the T-shirt to match her.

There were three faint red marks on his stomach, as if the wound had healed. As soon as I looked up, I saw Lu Jia stunned there. To be honest, I was shocked too. Treat it as a wound, the location is no different from the place where the soldiers of the Southern Army poked when they traveled to the Ming Dynasty.

"Do you believe it now?";