Chapter 108: Hesitation, Difficult Self-Determination
"You, do you know the truth?" In the sea of consciousness, a familiar but extremely unfamiliar voice slowly sounded, and the voice carried a touch of coldness, and even faintly evil. Mu Yunxin clearly knew that it was a voice that did not belong to him.
However, at this moment, she was calm as usual, she crossed her hands behind her head, her closed eyes opened again, and a touch of sadness flashed in Qingming's eyes, but she instantly regained her original agility. She squinted at Ling'er, who was sitting not far away, closed her eyes again, and said secretly in her heart: "Well, you have become my business, and I have 'seen' everything Shen Ya said." ”
Now that she thinks about it, she still feels like she was in a dream, obviously she was unconscious, obviously she had no consciousness, but she could see her other self get up from the bed, look at Shen Ya indifferently, and ridicule each other. The only difference was that the man's hair was a dead gray, and even Hitomi was lifeless, and even faintly exuded a sinister aura.
If it weren't for the fact that she had seen the red calyx and Mu Yiling who were exactly the same as her in her dream, but the hair color and eyes were different, she would have been terrified, and even thought that it was because of the sudden change in the demonic qi in her body that she had become like this. However, at the thought of living in his body with another "self", Mu Yunxin couldn't help but feel a little difficult to accept. And this is also the reason why she has been extremely bored for nearly two days and can only rely on that guqin to vent.
In the sea of consciousness, Mu Yiling was silent for a long time, so long that Mu Yunxin thought that what she had just heard was just her own hallucination, and from beginning to end, Mu Yiling did not exist.
Finally, when Mu Yunxin thought that the other party would no longer appear, the man spoke, but the voice sounded slightly bitter: "When did you know the Dao......?" I'm hiding inside you?"
"That day in a dream, after you and the red calyx appeared at the same time. Mu Yunxin said silently, in fact, she was just skeptical at that time, and it wasn't until yesterday, after she saw it with her own eyes, that she was really sure. But what she never expected was that the eldest princess Su Yao was also in her body, and she might even occupy her body at any time.
The more she thought about it, the more irritated Mu Yunxin became, and the conversation between the two still lingered in her mind: her life was in the hands of Su Yao, who was sober at any time, and she even had to let Mu Yiling maintain her sanity, and she couldn't even control her own life and death, so she could only rely on the ridiculous "anytime". This inexplicable sense of grievance made her extremely hateful, but there was nothing she could do. As Mu Yiling said, the only way is to become a demon, become a demon!
"Demons, they all deserve to die!" In an instant, Ling'er's disgusted eyes suddenly appeared in Mu Yunxin's mind, but the impulse in her heart was instantly dispersed. She slowly opened her eyes, turned her face sideways and glanced at Ling'er again, but saw that the other party was holding her chin with both hands, and she didn't know what she was thinking.
At this moment, Mu Yunxin couldn't help but think of how the eagle ghost who was a demon in the ice cave was not treated well by everyone, whether it was the demon clan headed by Mu Qiong or the four gods led by Shen Ya, they all regarded him as a rat crossing the street, and they couldn't wait to kill him with one palm. She still remembered that when she faced Mu Yiling last night, the undisguised disgust and hatred in Shen Ya's eyes, that gaze seemed to shoot straight towards her through Mu Yiling.
All of this made her feel afraid: if one day, she really became a demon, would that person also look at her with such disgust? Will they attack her mercilessly? Even those people she cared about no longer regarded her as "Mu Yunxin", but regarded her as a despicable and cold demon?
"Mu Yiling, what kind of thing do you say, what kind of thing is the demon race, why is everyone so disgusted to mention it?" Inexplicably, Mu Yunxin couldn't help but sympathize with those demons who could only hide in the dark, maybe they didn't do anything wrong, but because of their race, they were discriminated against and hurt. Sometimes, even the clan cannot understand, what kind of hardship should they endure?
Seeing her mention the Demon Clan, Mu Yiling couldn't help but be surprised, even if that person never showed it, but she knew how much Mu Yunxin resented the Demon Clan, and even because of what the Eagle Ghost did, this disgust did not decrease but increased. But now, why did she suddenly change her attitude?
Even though he was puzzled in his heart, Mu Yiling still spoke: "In the Three Realms, whether it is a human being a god, a demon or a demon, most of them all have their own desires, and the demon clan is just showing these desires more directly! They don't have the so-called hypocrisy, they take what they want, although they are arrogant, they are also true." ”
Saying that, Mu Yiling secretly observed Mu Yunxin's reaction, and secretly groped for the bottom line of that person's existence in her heart, if she really reached the point where there was no solution, and let her become a demon, then how would she react?
"Real, is it?" unconsciously, Mu Yunxin looked thoughtfully at the railing on the bed and muttered to himself: If she really becomes a demon, can she still maintain her true heart and maintain her original sanity?
"Miss, what are you talking about?" In a hazy moment, Mu Yunxin's faint words were listened to by the bell on the side, and the person who was in a daze looked at himself with a flustered face at the moment, his eyes were constantly flickering everywhere, and his weak heart was even more obvious.
Mu Yunxin got up slightly, and glanced at Ling'er suspiciously, but she didn't plan to ask anything, at this moment, she couldn't even sort out her own affairs, where did she have the mind to care about other people's affairs?
She suddenly lost her sleepiness, so she simply got up and walked to Ling'er, and said lightly: "I'm going to go to Lingyuan Valley to practice the piano now, if I don't have anything to do, I will not leave me again." Otherwise, don't say that you want Shen Ya to make a move on you, Miss Ben will be the first to catch you up!" Saying that, Mu Yunxin shook his head and left directly, without even looking at Ling'er, and his attitude changed so quickly!
"Don't you treat her as a sister, why did you suddenly become so ruthless?" In her mind, Mu Yiling's teasing voice slowly sounded, and the other party finally sensed her existence, which made her inexplicably more happy, and she gradually became unscrupulous towards Mu Yunxin.
Listening to that teasing, Mu Yunxin snorted softly angrily, this guy knew that she could hear what the other "self" said, so he secretly told all the things about Ling'er, but now she said that she was ruthless?
It turned out that the culprit of all this was actually the effect of the bottle of water. But now, she no longer feels her blind obsession with Shen Ya, but when she thinks of that man, her heart is inexplicably sour, even if the effect of seeking fate water has disappeared, but she has fallen in love with him unconsciously.
She knew what kind of tenderness was hidden under the indifference of Lu Dao, and she also knew what kind of complex emotions were mixed in Lu Dao's seemingly calm eyes. Since she "met" Shen Ya last night and listened to his explanation, she was relieved of many things, she did not regret falling in love with him, but she didn't want to believe that the initial emotion was because of the effect of a bottle of medicine. She was angry with herself who had no consciousness at the time, and she was just angry with Ling'er!
Thinking like this, the more uncomfortable Mu Yunxin's heart was, she strode forward resentfully, and her body subconsciously stepped on the bluestone road under her feet, and the appearance of wanting to vent was as if those bluestone roads had great hatred with her.
"Haven't you always hated playing the piano? That person didn't ask you to learn the piano anymore, why did you go to see that again? Could it be that you like him?" Xu felt that Mu Yunxin was not angry enough at this moment, and Mu Yiling spoke again with a wicked taste, and the tone seemed to be teasing and tentative, making people unpredictable.
Mu Yunxin, who couldn't bear it, stopped suddenly, she rolled her eyes to the sky with displeasure, and there was a little weakness in her irritated eyes: that person was in her body, she couldn't touch or catch it at all, and all her attacks were like hitting cotton, weak and powerless. But if this sulking is not vented, she feels aggrieved in her heart.
Finally, someone standing in the same place seemed to be crazy, and roared to the sky: "Am I happy? Why are you talking so much nonsense, please let me be quiet?"
This exclamation frightened the passing immortals, and they all looked at Mu Yunxin with very strange eyes, a woman from the mortal world, standing alone on the bluestone road, shouting like crazy, but they didn't know who was scolding.
Looking at the strange and surprised eyes of the fairy maids, Mu Yunxin reacted that Mu Yiling was in her sea of consciousness, and only she could detect the existence of that person. Now even if she yells at that **, in the eyes of others, she can only talk to herself like a crazy woman, and she will be regarded as a fool by them if she doesn't say it well.
Thinking like this, Mu Yunxin lowered his head inexplicably, and couldn't help but speed up the pace of his feet, his speed was so fast, as if there was a wolf and tiger chasing after him, extremely embarrassed.
Seeing Mu Yunxin's ashamed appearance, Mu Yiling couldn't help but feel funny, she used to look at everything Mu Yunxin, but she couldn't interfere and join her life. Now that she was finally able to communicate with herself, her existence was known to the man, it was as if the man had acknowledged her participation, which gave her a joy that she had never felt before.
It's just that Mu Yunxin's place where she is going can't help but worry her. After being silent for a while, Mu Yiling spoke quietly, and the gloomy and dull voice was extremely serious: "Actually, the Lingyuan Valley is not suitable for you to go, the immortal qi there is the purest, and the Su Yao in your body is very likely to wake up because of the immortal qi there." ”
At the mention that Su Yao was about to wake up, Mu Yunxin couldn't help frowning, the anxiety in her heart became more and more intense, she felt that Su Yao had become a shackle, handcuffing her firmly, no matter what she did, she had to worry about that person's awakening, whether she would be taken away, and worried that she would disappear......
She felt as if she had lost all her freedom, she couldn't have her own consciousness, she couldn't have her own actions, and she couldn't even be influenced by others! How could she be like that Mu Yunxin who was not afraid of heaven and earth? What exactly did she have to do to get rid of this kind of shackles!
Suddenly, the more Mu Yunxin thought about it, the more bored she became, at this moment, she urgently needed a quiet place, a place where she could calmly examine and make decisions, and Lingyuan Valley was the place she was looking for, where there was the sound of Xiao that made her completely relaxed. She hates the feeling of being bound, and she hates the helplessness and sadness of losing her self-control.