178. 【178】You're Really Selfish
Si Jianyu's pupils shrank suddenly, as if he understood something, and a happy smile burst out on his face, "Cancan, you still have mine in your heart, don't you?"
She didn't answer, just sat down on the bed, opened the book, and began to read the story. This story was read the same time when she spent the night in this bedroom before, but her state of mind at that time was completely different from the one she was at this moment.
And he, as before, hugged her. Only unlike before, he didn't close his eyes, but stared at her fixedly.
When she finished reading the first story, his eyes still didn't close, and she couldn't help asking, "Aren't you sleeping?"
"Do you want me to sleep?" he asked rhetorically, the black and blue under his eyes, which blended with the shadows of his eyelids under the reflection of the bedside lamp, were so obvious.
His insomnia...... The pain of his inability to sleep...... Thinking of this was like a needle stinging somewhere in her heart.
"I think you can sleep. Guan Cancan said frankly what he was thinking at the moment. On the other hand, she was forced to stay here like this, at least she could let him sleep.
"Okay, I'll sleep. He smiled, like an innocent child, and got the care he wanted, so he closed his eyes with peace of mind.
She continued to read it, for I don't know how long, until her mouth was a little dry, and then she stopped.
The silence of a room.
When she stopped studying, all that was left in the room was the barely audible breathing of each other.
Guan Cancan lowered his head and looked at Si Jianyu. Come to think of it, he should be asleep, he hasn't slept well these days, can he really sleep well now?
Closing the book in her hand, she raised her hand and gently stroked the black blue under his eyes. This man, what should she do to him? When she thinks she knows him, she immediately realizes that she still doesn't really know him.
How could she have seen him with her own eyes when he was really ruthless?
In the video that Mu Ang showed her, the words spoken by the man named Meng Yishan were deeply engraved in her mind, especially Meng Yishan's repeated shouting at the end, "Si Jian Yu...... It's the Tsushima Imperial ...... He is the one behind the scenes, and he sent someone to instruct us to do this!"
At that time, she was so grateful to him as much as her mother and grandparents, but she didn't know that he was the one who started it. And at that time, what was he thinking in his heart?
He could treat her with all the water, and if it weren't for Mu Ang suing her, would she not know about it for the rest of her life?
And is there anything else going on besides that?
The kind of honest love she has always longed for was shattered under his lies.
"Should I continue to love you again?" Guan Cancan muttered almost silently.
It's just that he can't give this answer now, and she can't answer either.
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Su Ai rushed to the GK Group in a hurry, indicating that she wanted to find Si Jianyu. Naturally, it is not easy for an ordinary person to meet the president of GK Group, so just as Su Ai and the security guard in front of the building were pulling and pulling, it happened that Si Jianyu's car stopped in front of GK.
When Si Mi Yu got out of the car, Su Ai immediately shifted his target and rushed towards Si Mi Yu.
However, before anyone rushed to Si Jianyu, she was stopped by the quick-eyed security guard.
"Mr. Si, this woman has been clamoring to see you, but she hasn't made an appointment. The security guard explained.
"I know her, it's fine. Si Jianyu glanced at Su Ai and said lightly.
This sentence was like a holy decree, and suddenly those security guards let go of Su Ai and retreated to both sides.
Su Ai ran to Si Jianyu at this time, and asked, "What happened to Cancan, why can't I contact her?" I didn't see Cancan come to the studio. I thought that maybe my friend was in a bad mood and wanted to take a break for a few days, so she wasn't too anxious. After all, at the closing banquet that day, when she saw Cancan for the last time, Cancan's eyes were red and her eyes were wet.
But it wasn't until today, when there was a class at school, and Su Ai waited for a long time, and didn't see Guan Cancan appear, she felt that something was wrong.
With a brilliant personality, no matter what, you won't miss class!
And if something really happens to Cancan, then Cheng Dù, who cares about his friend, will definitely be the first to arrive.
It is precisely because of this that Su Ai will return to Si Jianyu.
"Cancan didn't do anything. Si Miyu replied.
"Then why cancan't Cancan's phone call, and she hasn't come to the studio for the past few days, and she hasn't gone to school again today?" asked Su Ai.
Si Jianyu looked at Su Ai coldly.
Su Ai suddenly felt a cold sweat on her back.
For a long time, because she was Cancan's friend, Si Jianyu had never looked at her with such a cold gaze. Therefore, although Su Ai knew about the rumors about Si Jianyu, it was the first time that she began to experience it a little.
The back was cold, as if the cotton T was sticking to the back, but Rao was like this, Su Ai still mustered up the courage and said, "I want to see Cancan, you let me see her." ”
Si Jianyu said lightly, "She won't see you for the time being." ”
"That'...... Then how do I know if she's okay now?" Su Ai said worriedly. Although there is a division to see the royal presence, Su Ai feels that if her friend is like this, there will be no danger, but the current situation is strange, after all, she has to meet to make her feel at ease.
Si Jianyu took out his mobile phone and dialed a certain number, "Let Cancan answer the phone." He looked at the man on the other end of the phone.
After a while, Si Jianyu handed the phone to Su Ai, "You can talk to Cancan yourself." ”
Su Ai took the phone suspiciously, "Cancan, is that you?"
"Hmm. Guan Cancan's voice came from the mobile phone.
"What's the matter with you, why haven't you seen anyone in the past few days? No one answered your mobile phone, if something happens, even if I can't help much, but I can help you relieve it." Su Ai crackled and said.
"It's nothing, I just happened to be inspired, so I went to a place to retreat and write music, and I was afraid of being disturbed, so I turned off my phone...... I'll get back to you when I'm done. ”
"Is that so? But your voice seems a little weird. ”
"It's probably because I've stayed up late these days, so my throat is a little uncomfortable, by the way, Xiaoai, I just had a little inspiration again, I won't tell you first, I'll hang up first, don't worry, I'm really fine!"
The call ended in a hurry, even if he talked to his friend on the phone, Su Ai still had an indescribable strangeness, but after thinking about it, with a character like Si Jianyu to protect him, what else could happen to his friend.
So, Su Ai returned the phone to Si Jianyu, "Thank you, at least I'm at ease." ”
Si Jianyu put away his mobile phone, and when he crossed Su Ai, he dropped a sentence, "It's good that Cancan has a friend like you." ”
Su Ai blinked dumbfounded, and couldn't come back to her senses for a while, President Si Da is ...... Are you praising her?
On the other side, after Guan Cancan handed back the phone in his hand to the housekeeper, he squatted on the ground with his hands on his knees, his eyes were already slightly wet, Xiao Ai was worried about her, but she couldn't tell Xiao Ai the truth.
How long is she going to stay here?!
And in the evening, when Guan Cancan asked Si Jianyu like this, his answer was, "Stay until you sue me, you can forgive me and be willing to continue to be with me." ”
She pursed her lips, "And what if I don't forgive?"
"Will you?" he replied.
Guan Cancan himself also wanted to ask himself whether she would or not, but this answer has not yet come out.
She turned around and walked to the coffee table on the side, on the coffee table, there was still the music score she had written in the past few days, and only when she wrote the music these days, she would feel more relaxed and not think about what to do.
Si Jianyu walked to Guan Cancan's side, bent his knees and half-squatted in front of her, tilted his chin slightly, and looked up at her, "Cancan, didn't you promise that no matter what I did wrong in the future, you would forgive me." ”
Her body stiffened, was it that at that time, he was already paving the way for this matter?
"Yes, I did. Guan Cancan said, "Yu, the person I care about the most, besides you, is my family." In the past, my mother was the only family member, but later, there were more grandparents and grandmothers. I can forgive you if you did something wrong to me, but why...... You're ...... to my family," she choked up, looking at him with wide eyes, "and, it's because of me that I'm going to do that." ”
Even, in the end, she didn't know whether to blame him or herself.
If it weren't for her, then my grandfather wouldn't have suffered that lawsuit!
"As long as you are by my side, I can swear that I will never do anything bad to your family again. I can also make them live well, and I can do whatever you want me to do with them. He said, in a earnest voice, one might even say that his posture was extremely low.
Traditionally, in front of him, only others lowered their posture, but now, he is whispering like she is making a guarantee.
"Then what if I'm not by your side, will you still shoot at my family?" Guan Cancan asked rhetorically.
Si Jianyu didn't answer, but his expression was already silently telling her to answer.
Guan Cancan smiled bitterly, "Yu, you are really selfish." ”
"yes, I'm selfish. He pulled her hand down and kissed her fingertips almost reverently, and then extended from the fingertips to her palms, "If I don't love you so much, then maybe I'll be a little less selfish." ”
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