"I didn't bring a textbook to my back desk this afternoon, he borrowed it from me, I didn't want to borrow it, I was afraid that the teacher would beat me, I thought about it for a long time, and finally thought of a way to get the best of both worlds, and asked my table mate to lend him books. But when I went back and told him, I found that the political teacher was behind me, thought I was talking, and beat me up, and I was sad. (Crying emoji)"

Occasionally, when I was bored with sorting out old things, I turned out the diary I kept in elementary school, and a huge diary was discarded after only a day or two, but I could already see the timid me when I was a child from only one or two lines. I'm timid, I always want to take everyone's feelings into account, I always think that my good way can solve all problems, but I don't express my feelings. As soon as I finished reading it, I really saw the past me and looked at me out of nowhere. I couldn't help but feel sour in my heart.

I really want to tell my past self that please really stop being afraid of contact and be bold enough to express your legitimate needs to others. This way you will not allow yourself to be irritated for no reason, shed tears, make others feel difficult to get along with, and be alienated and abandoned by others. In this way, I will not complain about your cowardice or cowardice. Trapping all your faults in cowardice seems to free you from it. Ridiculous! If you never get it, how can you lose it!

In the past, I liked fairy tales, in a world where good and evil are distinct, the good will be rewarded and happy; The evil man will fail and end tragically. I don't remember the beautiful description very clearly, but I am secretly vigilant because the good and evil in it will be rewarded. However, many times I always think that I am an ugly duckling, no matter how much bullying I am subjected to, I will eventually become a beautiful white swan, and I am free and happy to make the ducklings envious.

In the present moment, I don't believe in fairy tales. The world in fairy tales can't stand scrutiny, and once you study it carefully, it will be shattered immediately. On the contrary, I feel that it is impossible to use unreasonable divine power to forcibly seek a happy ending with external forces, which is so false. What's more, in reality, it is always difficult to distinguish between good and evil, it is difficult to distinguish between truth and falsehood, and even more excessive situations are that good people will die and bad people will live a long life. Is the theory of good and evil valid? The good and evil in this will change with the change of the object's position. Good and evil are unknown, truth and falsehood are not obvious, everyone is just for their own goals, how can it be right or wrong! On the way forward, there are not too many noble and wicked people, and many people fall into mediocre and trivial life. I knew that the reason why the ugly duckling became a white swan was because it was originally a swan, so my dream was shattered, where was it broken? I don't know, maybe it wasn't in the first place!

In the future, I still want to believe in fairy tales. Fairy tales are never judged by logic, standard. Its beauty lies in its dreaminess, its toughness, and its lack of logic. The fairy tale itself is a rebellion against reality, there is nothing to be done in reality, and what can be done can be realized, how much like a dream that will never wake up! In this beautiful dream, everything has to be as I want, all can't, don't, can't be negotiable, so tough but illogical. Because dreams can't be controlled, how can it be logical. Dreams have good dreams and nightmares, and fairy tales are always good dreams! Who would refuse a good dream, a sweet dream? As long as there is imperfection in the world, that perfection will always attract; As long as there are flaws in the world, the consummation will always be tempting.

Whether it was past, present, or future, I will always believe that there will always be someone who will make you want to turn reality into a fairy tale. Is that person you? Or is it him? Only God knows.