How did I toss and turn at night to fall asleep? How did I wake up in the morning?

How do I move between falling asleep and waking up? I don't know much about it, but I have a deeper understanding of life: I wake up from ignorance, I fall asleep from fatigue, and death, for me, means that I can no longer be powerless to wake up to time, to wake up to space.

In the early morning, there were a few bird calls outside the window, and there were a few faint touches of golden sunlight shining in the walkway between the trees, surrounded by green and tall trees, which I thought was beautiful.

Whenever such a moment comes, my heart is always exceptionally soft and meek, and I always reciprocate with great tolerance and compassion for everything, and at this time I am without me, I am free and unrestrained, although such moments are very short, very few, but they are enough to give my ordinary life a great, short pleasure.

To this day, I feel that I feel extremely fortunate in my occasional life, that is, I suddenly feel that I am a very lucky person, from the time I began to record myself to this day, I have written down all the events that have been profound and important to my life, and I recall all kinds of faint people and stories between me and them.

I know that these events are insignificant to others, and the people in these memories are not important, because this is my life.

I have never known where I came from and where I saw myself as clearly as I do today. Transcripts are different from photographs and audio, because they can form a better picture in my brain than photographs, and melodies that are more beautiful than audio.

I have never regretted that I chose to use words as my way of recording, or that words chose me, so that I can face my own truth so directly, and the truth is the only thing I can bring to others.

This world may be a little too fake, most of the people who mainly live in this world are too fake, there are many people who put on their faces during the day and show a grimace at night, half human and half ghost when they don't see people, and pretend to be ghosts when they see people.

Of course, there is some irresponsibility in the world, but if this world only refers to the surroundings of most people's lives, it is almost the same, people who are born on earth are trying to be human beings, and people who want to go to heaven are working hard to be inappropriate people.

But I'm not afraid, I firmly believe that as long as I'm real enough and keep being real, I'll win! Even if I will be deceived by many people in this process, I will be deceived a lot, I will shed a lot of tears, I will suffer a lot, I will suffer a lot of sin, but the only thing I can say to my heart: You are an upright person!

"The world is getting old, I need to change it", a long time ago I thought it was a lie written by a young and frivolous person, but it is not until today that I realize that this is my heart, and I think it is the voice of our generation of young people.

In reading "Strange People in the World", Mr. Feng Jicai said,

"Writers are temperamental." This is true for me, and I dare not say anything else, but I can guarantee that if I become a writer, I will be a writer with a conscience and morality, and as an intellectual with the ability to think independently, I feel that every sentence I write must be worthy of what I know and learn.

It's not very difficult for me to do, because I don't have to put all my hopes on writing to make a living, I just write because I love to write, that's all.