Chapter 165: How can you let go

When Song You and the others said goodbye and left the palace, Bai An stayed alone, and he begged Ling Li: "Niangniang is like this now, the minister is really a little worried, can you let me stay in the palace to serve closely?" ”

"You want to be a court doctor?" Ling Li was a little surprised.

"The minister's life was saved by the mother, and the minister just wants to repay the mother."

Ling Li was silent for a long time, shook his head and said, "With Guo Gan and them guarding, you don't have to worry." As I said just now, if she still wants to leave the palace after her illness is cured, I will let her go. Why are you in a hurry to repay your favor here? ”

Bai An had no choice but to hang his head and leave.

Ling Li instructed Man Fu to go back to Funing Palace, move his daily clothes and supplies back to Jiqing Palace, and accompany Shu Mei before she woke up.

The knife used to cut her wrists was the sharp knife she used to make the 12 zodiac scraping bamboo strips, and Ling Li felt poked when she saw the row of unfinished bamboo skeletons on the table in front of the window. He ordered them all to be moved to the backyard miscellaneous store.

Thinking that the weather was going to be warmer, she liked to raise insect pets, so she asked people to go everywhere to collect cricket jars, cicada cages, and cricket clay pots, as well as the clay pots of the imperial kiln for fighting gnats, and filled the table.

She couldn't wake up, except for going to court and reviewing the slash during the day, he spent the rest of his time in front of her, personally serving the decoction, bathing, and sleeping with her in his arms at night. As soon as she moved slightly, he would get up to see if the wound on her wrist was bandaged and if the quilt had been kicked open.

He cherished such an opportunity very much, and if she left the Yongnian Palace in the future, he would never have a chance to compensate her. He owes her, and he fears he will not be able to pay it all.

In her sleep, she is still as well-behaved as ever. He looked at her, and she wouldn't dodge; He put his arms around her, and she wouldn't kick or hit; He kissed her softly on the lips, and she took it well.

"Ah Mei, you don't even know how much I like you." Ling Li hugged her warm body, pressed his lips to the center of her eyebrows, and muttered.

"Brother Ling Li, brother ......"

"Ah Mei, I'm here." It's been a long time since I've heard her call him like this, and this "Brother Ling Li" made his whole heart tremble.

"You are not allowed to go, you are not allowed to leave me ——!"

Ling Li was stunned when he heard this. He looked at her, but she was still asleep, tense, frowning, and crying urgently.

"I'm not leaving, Amei, I'm not leaving." He stroked her brow gently.

"Brother Ling Li, please don't leave me, the rain is so heavy, the sky is so dark, I'm afraid of ......" In the dream, Shu Mei actually cried.

Ling Li was stunned. The rain is so heavy and the sky is so dark, did she dream of the night of Xiangji Temple?

She, a weak woman, how did she take away her unconscious self on such a night?!

"Brother Ling Li, promise me not to leave me alone......"

Ling Li's eyes were wet, and he hugged her tightly into his arms, "Ah Mei, I won't leave you, no." ”

His embrace gave her a leg up when she was in a comatose nightmare. She wrapped her arms around him, buried her face in his arms, sniffed at his familiar breath, and finally fell asleep.

No matter how determined she was when she was awake, deep down in her heart, he was always there, he was still her Ling Li brother. Why did he want to let go? His fate and her fate have long been deeply entangled, how can he let go?!

After waking up, Shu Mei found himself hugging Ling Li tightly.

At that moment, she panicked. She obviously hated him, but she even took the initiative to throw a hug to him.

She still remembers the scene in her dream vividly. At the moment of falling off the cliff, he held her tightly in his arms and protected her with his own body. Even if he thought she was Shen Chan at that time, the dependence and emotion in her heart on him was real, she was so eager to be loved and protected by him......

"Ah Mei, I'm sorry, I was so sleepy that I guarded you last night, and somehow I fell asleep on the bed."

Ling Li saw the emotional changes in her eyes clearly, saw her embarrassment, and hurriedly opened his mouth to relieve her.

Shu Mei pursed his lips and turned his head.

She was not angry. Ling Li was a little surprised: maybe she hadn't forgotten what she felt in her dream?

"Ah Mei, you've been asleep for a few days, Juanjuan, Bai An, and Yuyao have all come to see you, do you want to meet them today?"

"I don't want to. You go out. Shu Mei closed his eyes.

She still rejected him. But the tone of this sentence is completely different from the involuntary determination of the past.

"Okay, you lie down and rest for a while, and I'll come back to see you." Ling Li got up and got out of bed.

After Ling Li left, he looked at the embroidered gold curtain with his eyebrows, stunned.

She wanted to leave the Yongnian Palace, leave him, just because she felt ashamed and embarrassed. She fell in love with the enemy by mistake? If she didn't leave him, how could she be worthy of her parents under the spring? The better he treated him, the more she felt guilty. Every moment he was there, she was chopped by the love in his eyes.

It's been fourteen years, and her liking for him has become a habit. How many years does it take to quit this liking?

"Aunt Qiu." After thinking for a long time, Shu Mei opened his mouth to summon Qiu Hibiscus.

"The slave is here. What's the matter with the mother? ”

"Please go and bring my grandma to the palace."

"Okay."

Although Qiu Jin was stunned for a moment, she remembered Ling Li's previous advice and responded first. Then she trotted to the Hanging Arch Temple.

Not long after Ling Li went to court, Qiu Jin was afraid that Shu Mei had waited for a long time, so he dared to let Man Fu hand a note in, asking for instructions on how to deal with it. A moment later, Ling Li actually walked out of the side door.

"Slaves and maids disturbing Your Majesty's handling of state affairs deserve death." Qiu Hibiscus knelt down in panic.

"You're doing a great job." Ling Li motioned for her to get up, "Since Concubine Mu wants to see Mrs. Shu, you can go and take her into the palace." ”

"But, last time His Majesty didn't allow Mrs. Shu to enter the palace......"

"After all, things can't be covered. Let it be. Ling Li said, turned around and returned to the Vertical Arch Hall. He has also figured it out these days, as long as Shu Mei lives, nothing else matters. Is he still afraid that one more person will hate him?!

After Liang entered the palace, when he saw Shu Mei who was lying on the bed and had lost his appearance, he cried so much that his eyes were dizzy.

"Grandma, I'm fine, don't cry."

"Ah Mei, why are you so stupid?! The last time you entered the palace, I told you that the murderer of your parents was the West Plough thief. Ling Zhao used this matter to instigate you, just to take revenge on Ling Li and let you not fall for him, but you still fell for him......"

"Grandma, Ling Li admitted it."

Liang hated iron and said: "He is the king of a country, if he doesn't treat you sincerely, why would he admit it?!! ”

Shu Mei was stunned for a moment, "But even if he treats me sincerely, Daddy and Auntie can't die in vain?" ”

"Your father and aunt died a well-deserved death! If it weren't for your grandfather's greed for stability in the court, and he blocked the Western Expedition several times, why would the Western Plough thieves be so arrogant?! After the tragic death of your father and aunt, your grandfather learned from the pain and wrote a letter of 10,000 words asking for the formation of the Zhenxi Army......"

"Grandma, ...... you" Shu Mei never expected that Grandma would help Ling Li speak, and she was speechless for a while.