Chapter 203: I Want to Live
He walked barefoot on the barren moon.
There are no moon palace fairies, no fragrant laurel trees, and no immortals who cut down trees, and the scenery in front of him is so cold and bitter, the ground is covered with dust that has been frozen into rocks by hundreds of millions of years of frost, and walking on it barefoot, bursts of stinging pain penetrate through the soul.
The field of vision was completely gray, and he floated endlessly, wandering in the endless illusion, and when he looked up, he could see the black night, and the stars were being extinguished in an orderly manner.
"Where the hell is this, and who am I?" he looked down, and found that his hands and feet were cruelly transparent.
"Where is this, you already know the Tao, who you are, you have always known the Tao, you just refuse to admit the answer. ”
Voices came from all directions, and he spun his body in a daze, looking around, seeing nothing, finding nothing.
"As you said, I already know who I am, but I don't know who you are!
He shouted loudly, the stars had all been extinguished, the darkness had completely descended, and his whole body seemed to dissolve into the darkness, leaving only his consciousness to emphasize his existence with difficulty.
A sudden fear crossed my heart.
“...... Who am I and who are you...... Are you really going to trap me here forever and take my body!"
As he spoke, the darkness made some kind of pact with him, and the first fear receded like a tidal wave, and the familiar warmth enveloped him,
Even the darkness began to twist, condensing into a watery suppleness, and he could feel the fluidity of the liquid flowing through his body, and the sound of blisters bursting one after another rang in his ears.
He was in the water, he thought with great clarity.
A light broke through the darkness, and he raised his head and swam past the angle of the light, revealing a water mirror.
On the other side of the mirror there is a face, a familiar and unfamiliar face.
"Who are you?" he asked.
"I'm you. On the other side of the mirror, the face proclaimed, and the mirror fluctuated with water, and it was he in the mirror who reached out and picked him up in the water.
Yes, pick up.
Following the flow of light, his body has become a child at some point, a child who is no more than five or six years old.
The wide robe was wrapped around his body, and most of it fell to the ground.
"I am Li Yeyin, the son of the Southern Tang Dynasty. He affirmed.
"But you are also a part of my body, you are the twin brother I made for myself. ”
Moon Shenjun, who was holding the smaller Li Yeyin, declared so, wrapped him in his arms, hugged him to a large bed behind him, and carefully placed it, while he sat sideways on the edge of the bed, looked at him, and said affectionately.
"Everything about you comes from me, your roots, your talents, your achievements, they are all mine. ”
"No, I'm not you, even if everything I do comes from you, I'm still not you!"
Li Yeyin said solemnly, his mind was not confused by this series of changes, he still remembered everything that happened before he was locked into nothingness, and he also remembered the origin of all this.
"I have nothing to do with you, I'm Li Yeyin, I'm ...... It has nothing to do with you!"
He said it over and over again, the bed was soft, and the face that was close to him was full of tenderness, but he always felt that the face would crumble like candle oil in the next moment, and turn into a terrible nightmare.
Looking at Li Yeyin, who was still unwilling to accept his fate even if he became smaller, Moon Shenjun suddenly stretched out his hand and flicked his nose.
"I was born to be proud, and I don't have anything I can't get. Even my noble father was obedient to me. "But I'm not happy, I have no friends, and all people approach me with their own purposes, whether admiration or greed or longing." For a long time, I've wondered what it's like to have a younger brother or sister and watch him or her sleep. ”
"I'm sorry, I'm not interested in playing pretend games with you, and my childhood never had time to lament the betrayal of my cronies and the estrangement of my loved ones. Li Yeyin said with a cold face, waving his arms that had become fat and short, and slapped away the hand that Moon God Jun had landed on his face.
"You're such a boring being. Moon Shenjun said with little interest, sitting up straight, his flowing black hair flowing on the sheets, whirlpooling.
"Let's get down to business," he said, "and I can fully understand that you, as a fake, can't accept my existence." ”
"I'm another person who has nothing to do with you!" Li Yeyin reiterated as calmly as possible, "You are dead, dead for thousands of years!
"I know. Moon Shenjun said softly, his eyes were like glass, and he could see that Li Yeyin's heart was also up and down.
"But even if you repeatedly deny your relationship with me, you must admit that everything about you is inextricably linked to me. ”
"Your proud talent, your ruthless style, and your cultivation of the Dharma...... All of this is self-contained. ”
"Even ...... It is also because of me that the few evil forces took you in and spared no effort to cultivate you. ”
He said lightly, and Li Yeyin didn't refute a word.
When they met for the first time, he knew that no one would be good to the people they met for the first time for no reason, especially Shaoxi, a strong man who has been in a high position for a long time and has already seen through the fickleness of people's hearts.
Every one of his givings is to get the due reward one day in the future.
"I thank you for giving birth to me, and I thank you for the many benefits you have bequeathed to me, but...... All of this is not something I asked for, and you've been rewarded somewhat, I ...... I'm not happy at all, and I don't like the fact that even existence is completely denied...... I ......"
Li Yeyin said helplessly, since he was a child, he knew that he was different from others, and he lived in the expectations and conspiracies of countless people when he was a child, playing different roles. His enemies attack him ruthlessly, keen to manipulate people's hearts, and sometimes even deny his own existence, but how do he know the way, only in this way can he temporarily forget the fear of another self hidden in his body. It was an enemy that Li Yeyin could never defeat, a most primitive fear.
After three years of immersion in the black water, he struggled with this fear all the time, and he was afraid that when his body opened his eyes one morning, the consciousness that dominated the body would no longer be himself.
But fear can't change reality, and Yuanmo's aggressive pursuit forces him to face up to the essence of the matter.
"I thank you for giving me life, but one thing must be clarified, the owner of the body is me, not you. Although you have scolded me for being ungrateful and ruthless, I have heard a scolding ten thousand times sharper than this. ”
It can be seen from the soul vision that the soul of the Moon God Monarch is constantly weakening, and it is as fragile as a candle in the wind, but this fragility is only relative to the power of other Tribulation Periods. Just like the comparison of their sizes, as long as the Moon God Jun wants, he can kill Li Yeyin with one finger at any time.
Even so, Li Yeyin still chose to persevere.
"I am the master of the body," he said, "I will not give you the control of the body, I will live and exist as the master of the body." ”