Tick tock!!tick !! tick!!!

The water drips from the faucet and the room is very quiet.

Feng Chenyu was lying on his bed, a melancholy leaking from his eyebrows, and he didn't know what he was thinking about now.

Outside the window, the moon appeared in the sky white and round, and the cold moonlight illuminated the dark night.

However, looking at the beautiful moon, Feng Chenyu felt very disgusted.

"Looking at this moon, it's like a hole has opened in my heart, it's so uncomfortable!!"

Feng Chenyu jumped out of bed suddenly, and angrily pulled the curtains, blocking the moon in the sky.

Feng Chenyu fell on the bed, looking at the pillow, and the jade pendant left by Nangong Yimin was in a daze.

In the dark room, the jade pendant that Feng Chenyu wears around his neck every day lies quietly on the bed.

Feng Chenyu's pupils stared at him quietly, and he didn't speak for a long time.

As long as you look at the beautiful jade, you will love it, he is carved into the shape of a phoenix, lifelike, even the feathers on the top can be seen clearly.

The room was pitch black, but this jade was like a bright lamp, shining in the dark night.

For others, this is a priceless piece of jade, but for Feng Chenyu, it is a curse.

Looking at the beautiful jade, Feng Chenyu didn't say anything for a long time, just sighed, took her anew, and lay on the cold bed.

The long night, for him, every minute and every second is torment, the lost memory makes him feel as if there is a hole in his chest, nothingness, that feeling, can you imagine?

Looking at the ceiling, Feng Chenyu's eyes gradually became distracted, and his palms gradually rose and appeared in his line of sight.

The nine-colored ring on his thumb stayed on his hand as always, without any reaction or vision.

Looking at the ring, Feng Chenyu frowned, he really wanted to pull this ring off and slam it on the ground, because the root of everything was because of him.

After going through so much, since he was conscious, since the abbot replied to him, Feng Chenyu was faintly aware that the root of all the problems was the ring on his hand.

"I'm really... It's like chopping off my own fingers to get rid of this abominable ring!!"

Feng Chenyu has an indescribable disgust for this ring, because everything is because of him, because he has become like this, he has thought more than once, whether to chop off his fingers and get rid of this ring, but this is just an impulse after all, and when he calms down, he will no longer think so.

"By the way, what about my picture?"

When he went home just now, Feng Chenyu still wanted to show Gao Zilan the photo of himself, but he couldn't find it all over his body, so he thought he should have put it at home.

Feng Chenyu jumped out of bed and began to rummage through boxes and cabinets, and finally found the photo in a corner.

Holding a yellowed photo in his hand, the photo is a pair of golden boys and girls, the little girl is very cute, he shows his little tiger teeth to the camera and compares scissor hands.

In contrast, the little boy was very shy, he was held by the little girl under his armpit, and his face was a little shy to face everything in front of him.

The little girl is extremely cute, although his facial features are not exquisite, but when combined, they are simply perfect.

With small pigtails, showing small tiger teeth, and happily comparing scissor hands to the camera, that smile really touches the softest place of people like a spring breeze.

Looking at that photo, Feng Chenyu's eyes couldn't help but flash a touch of complicated feelings, for the little girl who took a photo with him, he didn't have any memory in his head, as if it appeared out of thin air.

And in the photo, next to this little girl, is himself.

The little boy is very handsome, sunny and cute, and what is even more peculiar is that as long as you add long hair to him, he looks a little like a little girl.

It almost exists like a demon, which makes everyone feel helpless, how can anyone in this world look like this.

Looking at himself and the little girl in the photo, Feng Chenyu stared blankly, and didn't speak for a long time, just motionless, as if time stood still, staring at the photo in a daze.

"Tell me!!Tell me!!Who am I?"

Feng Chenyu rubbed his temples vigorously, the photo was like a dispensable thing to him, and the girl in the photo did have a sense of déjà vu when he said it to him, as if he had seen it yesterday and didn't remember it today.

He shook his head, put the photo away, and said to himself: "Don't look at it! Out of sight and out of mind, the provincial deity is uncomfortable!!"

No matter what happened in the past or what the future is, Feng Chenyu is helpless, all he can do is to go with the flow, this feeling is like a little ant caught in the wind, you want to break free desperately, but you have no energy, that feeling is really not something that can be expressed in words.

Feng Chenyu walked into the toilet and washed his face fiercely, raised his head, and couldn't help but be startled when he saw himself in the mirror.

"!!The deity knows why others are afraid of me!!!I have to cry when I see this ghost!!"

The self in the mirror is extremely obscene, if you have a tight face, it is better, at least you can see it, but as long as you grin, your face jumps in an instant, and it looks like a failed plastic surgery.

With a hideous smile, a lewd look, and a terrifying face, if he were in the joint photo, it would be like two people.

This is also exactly what Gao Zilan said, "I really can't imagine what you have suffered all these years?"

Feng Chenyu sighed and said to himself: "Hurry up and grow your beard, if it goes on like this, I can go to make horror movies!!"

took the knife, and his personality unconsciously underwent subtle changes, from the original shy and cute little Zhengtai swished into a funny and conceited big devil, although you may not feel the specifics, but from the point of view of words and deeds, you will find that the gap is still quite large.

Now Feng Chenyu only hopes that his beard can grow faster, and when the beard grows a little, I hope that at that time it will not be as obscene as it is now.

Otherwise, with the way he looks now, he can make horror movies, and he doesn't need props or makeup, just without makeup.

Back in the bedroom, Feng Chenyu lay down and began to think about what he had done today.

In the small noodle restaurant, that trick of the dragon claw made Feng Chenyu unforgettable.

"What a tall girl, although it's a little smaller than my sister, but....it feels good!!"

Feng Chenyu showed a lewd smile, and his heart couldn't help but feel refreshed, and he kept recalling how he felt when he touched his chest.

However, before he could think for a few seconds, Feng Chenyu suddenly woke up, returned to his usual appearance, and said to himself: "I think like this, wouldn't I become a despicable and obscene guy!!!

Feng Chenyu shook his head vigorously, trying not to think about today's things anymore, but as soon as he closed his eyes, his eyes were full of Gao Zilan's figure.

The picture in his head couldn't help but stay at Gao Zilan's temptation to meet him, over and over again, over and over again, like a videotape, repeating and repeating.

At this time, Feng Chenyu was not in the mood to sleep, he sat up suddenly, patted his head, and scolded secretly: "What's wrong with me? Could it be that I am emotionally attracted to Xiaolan?"

For a while, Feng Chenyu had mixed grains in his heart, he was also a man, it was impossible not to react to Gao Zilan at all, coupled with Gao Zilan's behavior today, Feng Chenyu almost couldn't help but think about him.

As soon as he closed his eyes, his eyes were full of Gao Zilan's figure, recalling the act of touching his chest today, although he thought he was not colored, but the corners of his mouth couldn't help but raise and betrayed him.

"Damn!!The deity won't really be tempted by Comrade Xiaolan, right?"

The signs just now made Feng Chenyu panic, he was at a loss, and his expression was nervous, as if he had encountered something crucial.

This situation is undoubtedly very strange, theoretically speaking, Feng Chenyu is a normal man, he has neither a girlfriend nor any other worries, it is normal to fall in love with Gao Zilan, and it is definitely not an unspeakable thing.

But now, he behaved really strangely, as if he had encountered something life-threatening.

"No!!No!!I must not be tempted by Gao Zilan, from now on, I will keep my distance from him!!"

Feng Chenyu was extremely crazy, kneeling on the ground, staring at the floor with his eyes, and yelled, in the eyes of outsiders, it was simply too strange, like a woman, to a man, normal can no longer be normal, and now this behavior is not like inferiority and feels unworthy of her, but more like worry.

"I can't implicate you!!You should know that I'm too young to give you enough to rely on, and finding a rich and handsome person to speak to you is your future!!"

Feng Chenyu's mood gradually stabilized, and he slumped on the floor, because he knew that he was really interested in Gao Zilan, after so many days of getting along, you can really see that their personalities are very compatible, Feng Chenyu's temper is just hot, and Gao Zilan is very calm.

If these two people are combined, they are really a good match, if you want to talk about appearance, if Feng Chenyu shaves off his beard, he is fully qualified to match him.

"But, I can't, I don't even know my own future, what else can I talk about taking care of others!!"

Feng Chenyu slumped weakly on the floor, a flash of disappointment flashed in his eyes, in the final analysis, he was really attracted to Gao Zilan, but what could he do like this?

He can't even protect himself, how to rely on others, give others a sense of security, if he insists on going like this, anyone will be hurt.

In the dark room, Feng Chenyu squatted in the corner, which gave him a great sense of security, and his eyes looked even more eerie in the dark night.

Slowly raised his right hand, and bit down hard with his teeth, so as to remind himself at all times and relieve the pressure.

"From now on, I want to keep my distance from Gao Zilan... No, I still have to keep my distance from anyone around me, I have to learn to close my heart to protect myself, so that others will not get hurt, and I myself will not be hurt!!"

Feng Chenyu slowly got on the bed, closed his eyes and fell asleep, for him, feelings are too luxurious, and he is destined to be lonely for a lifetime.

No family, no loved ones, no friends, no lovers.

Gao Zilan's appearance can be said to have broken this deadlock for the time being, as long as Feng Chenyu is willing, he can gain a lover, but he can't, because this is only temporary.

Losing is often more painful than not having it, and it is better to never have it than to have it, so that there is no problem.

Feng Chenyu, who was lying on the bed, fell asleep deeply, even if he was asleep, you could still see that his brows had been lowered, and he couldn't breathe at all because of too much pressure on his body.

Even the humblest life may not even be under his control, can you imagine such pressure?

He didn't even dare to open his heart because he was afraid of getting hurt, his body was already scarred, and he couldn't bear the slightest bit of hurt anymore.

Moreover, fate seemed to play a joke on him, and God gave him a responsible character, so that he did not dare to live up to anyone.

He is undoubtedly going to stay in the city for a year, how much time can he spend with Gao Zilan? Since he can't rely on him, then don't start this and don't bother him.

PS: Dry, there are still four chapters left, I'm about to vomit blood!!Hurry up every day!!Hurry up every day!!Hurry up every day!!