I know, recently everyone has a lot of opinions on my update speed, and I rarely show up to communicate with you, I am deeply sorry, but also for my own decadence is not motivated, I feel a little ashamed, today I am in the inn in Lijiang, tossing and turning, difficult to sleep, just get up to talk to you about me, but also let me know myself clearly.

Many readers think I'm very old, but I'm just a young man in my early 20s, and I'm carrying a lot more than my peers.

I always show myself very strong in front of everyone, and then keep holding on, no one knows how many hardships there are, just like when I was in elementary school, a talent, I obviously practiced in advance for a short time, before learning it well, but at the beginning of the class, the teacher said, but I was able to perform it very well, which made many people look at me with admiration, think I am talented, all the teachers in the primary school have always commented on me is that this child is too smart, and I take special care of me。

When I was studying, I was CS every day, Heroes Invincible, Yu-Gi-Oh cards, four-wheel drive, Xiaobawang game consoles, in the eyes of everyone, I was playing, but my grades were always better than them, that's just because I have a few teachers in my family, in them are doing the first grade of primary school questions, I already know the questions of the fourth grade of primary school, naturally, I began to become a particularly conceited person, I feel that I don't have to do anything by myself, as long as others are stronger than myself, I have to be stronger than others, secretly to compete, one life immortal Contra Douluo passes, ninety-seven boxing king a copper with any character does not die once, you can clear the level, all kinds of details, vividly, has always been like this, back and forth, making people think that I am a genius, no matter what I do, I can be better than others, absorb faster than others, their eyes, let my vanity get great satisfaction.

Yes, yes, when others are still very ignorant and don't care much about these things, I am pretending to be very hard, and I am working hard, others will never see it, and I will not be seen by others to look like I am particularly vegetable, I will only have a bullish side.

Maybe it's because of the family environment, I can't get anyone's approval, my family has always been strict with me, weishenme is 99, not 100 points, because I often take 100, so even if I take 100, they feel that this is what it should be, in addition to some other reasons, which led to my disgust with going to school, from here, everyone should be able to see what kind of person I am, this is 21 years, my life.

When I encounter something extremely unfair, extremely depressed, and extremely aggrieved, I can't cry, because no one will listen, and I don't want people to know, anyone, including parents, for many years, I have forgotten what it feels like to cry, and in the face of all the denial, I will only hold my head high, not to argue anything, and use my own actions to prove everything, some successes, some failures.

I have a lot of flaws, I keep improving myself, keep improving, writing novels is also one of the means for me to hone my character, it can make me have extreme stamina, so that I will be full of patience in everything I do in the future, because life is a long-distance race, it never stops, many things are done, you have to learn to persevere, this is what I mentioned three times and twice in the book.

To be honest, the recent life is not very satisfactory, two years of long-distance emotional running, across the Pacific Ocean, far away in a foreign country, so that I have to code words every day until the night, so that I can also accompany her, I have always been a person who is very good at insisting on himself, and later, insisted on insisting, for various reasons, it was dispersed, so, the night in China, the day in the United States, such a reciprocating cycle, let you wait until so late to update, I'm sorry.

I've been working hard to fight for everything, but what Zuihou got was not what I wanted, and what I lost, like my own soul, I had no sense of direction, maybe many people find it difficult to understand my feelings.

Until now, I still can't figure out what I want, maybe many people will think that I am very unproductive, but it is true, I myself will start to learn to let go slowly, people are growing up step by step, and emotions are also a part.

During this period, I kept looking for things to do during the day, or reading books, or looking at goods, running around, every night, I would always look forward to the vibration of the mobile phone, and my heart felt particularly empty, because at this time in the past, my heart was full of liliang, marking the direction of my efforts, and now I can only use countless things to stuff myself, so that I can only fall asleep until I am extremely tired, running five kilometers every day, not to exercise, just to make myself more tired, in this way, it may be better to fall asleep at night, all kinds of torture, I don't know how I endured it。

That's how I'm at this stage of my life.

These days,Some readers' messages,Let me be very moved,Although every time I always just said a faint word xiexie,But the joy in my heart at that time,Beyond all,I found,Even if I lose everything,And you,Thank you for your unwavering support,Due to this stage,Devouring the firmament update speed is not strong,Resulting in decadent results,I hope you can understand,Those who are disappointed in me,Or go to the post bar,Or go to see piracy,Or whatever,I hope you can all come back,17K,Put the results of devouring the sky back,Don't let me even zuihou of you,Lost too, at least let me know that with your existence, I need to work harder not to let myself be decadent.