Li Jiajia's last sentence clearly told me the final ending, but she couldn't wait to return to her residence, sat on the sofa in the living room and opened the letter, and the familiar and delicate font came to her face.

Cheng Zhutao:

"I've thought about it for a long time, don't be too cruel to you, but I don't have the courage to face you, and I can't give you the answer you want, maybe this letter is the best connection. I know you have a lot of questions, please be patient and listen to this story. ”

"Two close-knit families, one boy and one girl. Due to the friendship between the parents for many years, the two friends have often played together since they were young. As they grow older, like many film and television dramas, the parents of both sides not only did not hinder the contact between the two, but instead contributed to the relationship between the two parties. But in the girl's heart, she always just felt that there was an extra brother who was not related by blood. I don't know if it's an adolescent impulse, but the boy confessed to the girl who was still in the second year of junior high school in the third year of junior high school. The girl also rejected the boy's sudden confession at the time, and revealed that she only regarded him as an older brother. Perhaps it was just a temptation, the boy did not stalk after being rejected, but generously said that he would respect the girl's decision and wait until he grew up. ”

A few years later, when the girl was in her second year of high school, the boy, who was already in the critical period of the college entrance examination, suddenly expressed his feelings to the girl again. In order not to affect the boy's grades, the girl duplicity agreed, and agreed to let the boy wait for her to go to the meeting after being admitted to the ideal university. Unexpectedly, the temporary compromise did not stimulate the boy's enthusiasm for learning, but made him burst out of undeserved thoughts. After rejecting the boy's invitation many times, the girl finally agreed to the date request because she couldn't bear to see the boy's disappointed expression again. I didn't expect this to be the turning point in the girl's life. On that weekend night, the two went to a secluded park without telling their parents. Here, the weak girl loses her first time under the compulsion of the boy. ”

Seeing the change in the handwriting on the letter paper from shallow to deep, I realized the drastic change in Wu Hui's mood when she wrote this. Gently stroking the tears that seemed to be dry on the letterhead, and understood that this story was Wu Hui's emotional experience, two lines of tears welled up.

Afterwards, the angry but weak girl gave up the idea of pursuing the matter under the boy's sweet words and apologetic reassurance. I didn't expect this kind of forgiveness to be conniving. The boy who tasted the sweetness intensified after the college entrance examination and once again took possession of her in the girl's house. Maybe it's because of the relationship between the two families, or maybe it's because of the trust in this brother since childhood, the girl slowly accepted the reality under the boy's care and care, and confirmed the relationship between the two parties in her heart. ”

"With the release of the college entrance examination results, the boy also has to go to a distant place to study. The girl spends her days dreaming of meeting her boyfriend on the college campus. Due to the difficulty of communication, the two parties can only occasionally get to know each other after the girl secretly finds a phone to contact the boy. The girl in love and happiness does not perceive the boy's gradual indifference and perfunctory. Just over a month after the boy left, the girl received a request to break up. The reason is so ridiculous, because the boy met someone else in college, found out that he was more of a brother and sister to the girl, and realized that his actions were just the impulse of desire. After hearing the news, the girl felt her world crumble. But the weak girl is still ready to silently accept the reality after the pain. ”

"I didn't expect the nightmare to wake up, and something more desperate came. After noticing something strange in her body, the girl secretly went to the pharmacy to buy test strips and found out that she was pregnant. Frightened and helpless, she had to call the number she had vowed to never contact again. Unexpectedly, after the boy heard the news, he didn't panic, but calmly said that he couldn't go back for the time being, and asked the girl to wait first. The girl was still receiving this answer after a month of panic. ”

Later, the girl learned that the boy was in love at that time, and there was no time or money to take care of her. After a long delay in getting a response from the boy, the girl who had nothing to do confessed everything to her parents. Naturally, it was dark for a while. Lying on the bed, remembering the boy's insincere apology and perfunctory attitude after being brought by his parents, and the smile he showed when he took out his phone and looked at the screen from time to time, the girl felt that this was clearly laughing at her own stupidity. The parents transferred the girl to a school in the hope that she would forget it all in her new environment. The girl's smile deceived her parents, but she couldn't change her dead heart. The sudden blow made her college entrance examination scores plummet. Faced with her family's request to repeat her studies, the girl went against her family's wishes and just wanted to leave the city as soon as possible. ”

"When the girl goes to college, she still feels that there is no possibility of rekindling her dead heart. It wasn't until his sophomore year that another boy broke into the girl's world. When the boy texted the girl for the first time, the girl deleted it without reading it, but vaguely remembered the boy's name - Cheng Zhutao. Time passed slowly, and when the girl had forgotten the name of the text message, the two met in a night of self-study. The boy's clumsy and ridiculous performance did not touch the girl's heart in the slightest, and in her opinion it was just a self-performance of the suitor, and whatever he did had nothing to do with him. Two months passed in a blink of an eye, and on the girl's birthday, a friend said that she was in a bad mood and wanted to go to the playground. When she saw the boy again in the playground, the girl understood why, and at that moment she suddenly felt that everything should be stopped. ”

As the two walked through the playground, the girl discovered for the first time that the boy was not annoying, shy and cute, and even gave herself a warm feeling. I don't know if I want to find someone to break the shackles that bind my heart or if I want to have that feeling of warmth for a long time, the girl agreed to the boy. However, when the girl saw the gift given to her by the boy, she couldn't help but think of the bracelet that she broke and threw into the lake in her third year of high school. In the following days, the boy continued to revive the girl's frozen heart with his unintelligent love skills, and the girl's feelings slowly began to thaw, and even she didn't know that the boy had slowly squeezed into her heart and was cleaning up the filthy memories before. ”

Even though more than a year has passed, the girl still remembers that summer. After learning that the boy had come to work with her, the girl braved the heat to check the boy's work attitude on a whim the next day. While the girl was still sweating in the shade of the parasol, the boy stood in the street in the scorching sun without any protection, smiling and handing out leaflets to passers-by. Every time he encountered rejection, the hint of embarrassment on the boy's face deeply pierced the girl's heart. She didn't dare to look at it for too long and was afraid that walking in front of him would embarrass the boy, so she silently turned around and went to buy sunscreen. The girl told the boy in her heart that I can only do this for you now, and one day I will give you everything I have. ”

"In the evening, when the girl saw the boy's dark skin. The girl forced herself to ask if she was too unfair to the boy. The boy's hard working life is over. The night before leaving, the girl finally mustered up the courage to take the boy into the school she never wanted to face again. The girl wants to face the past in the company of the boy. On campus, the demons that had disappeared poured out from all directions, but this time the difference was that the girl felt that she had the courage to face it, because the warm sun was dispelling the biting cold for herself. At that moment, the girl once again believed in love. ”

In the days that followed, the girl gradually changed herself, and her fragile heart gradually opened up to the boy. Another birthday is approaching, and when the boy shyly offers to hang out with her, the girl already understands his intentions. The girl felt that she should try to accept everything from the boy, and agreed. At the top of the mountain, under the breeze, the girl felt more relaxed and comfortable than ever, especially after the boy lifted himself, and the girl found that happiness had come to her. Kneeling in front of the Buddha, the girl made a wish, begging God to have mercy on her, not to deprive herself of happiness again, and to let this boy named Cheng Zhutao always be by her side. When the girl and the boy are in the same room, feeling the boy's body temperature, the girl wants to give her all to the boy, but every time she wants to work hard, the memories of the past come back to her mind, and she fails again and again. In the middle of the night, when the boy stupidly helped the girl put on the ring, he didn't know that the girl had been moved to tears by happiness. At that moment, the idea of marrying a boy came to the girl's heart for the first time, and it also made the boy feel happy for the first time. But when the boy didn't bother to ask the question the next day, the girl suddenly became confused, and she didn't dare to confess to the boy. Because at this moment, she was afraid that if she said it all, she would lose everything she had now. ”

Seeing this, I once again remembered that night clearly, but the happiness of that time was so bitter now.

"Why did the heavens treat the girl like this, didn't you hear her make a wish in front of the Buddha? The girl's parents finally forgave the bastard who hurt their daughter. The parents told their daughter that with the help of the other family, they had found an internship unit for her, and the people they didn't want to face in this life were also in the same unit. The girl protested, but the stubborn parents ignored their daughter's opinion and only informed the girl to go to the internship according to the arrangement after the winter vacation. The girl was desperate, thinking of leaving the bondage of her parents, leaving everything now, and even leaving this desperate world. ”

"Once again, while strolling around the schoolyard with the boys, the girl's melancholy exposed her heart. When the boy persuaded her to obey her parents' arrangement, the girl almost blurted out that she wanted to tell the boy the truth and ask him to take her away, but in the end she backed down. During the winter vacation, looking at the white hair with a huge difference between her parents and her memory, the girl cried, she finally gave up all resistance, and gave up the reluctance in her heart for the boy named Cheng Zhutao. Faced with another boy who came without telling her, the girl made a painful decision. After leaving, the girl was reluctant and worried about the boy, quietly watching the boy's every move in the dark, and waited until his figure disappeared into the eyes that had been blurred, and said goodbye to the boy forever in her heart. ”

The girl was like a marionette, accompanied by her parents, and saw the person who hurt her fiercely, numbly obeyed all the arrangements of her parents, walked with him in the strange and familiar streets and alleys, and began boring work in an unfamiliar environment, and her heart was full of bitter tears. When it was time to go back to school, the girl suddenly felt very frightened, afraid of seeing people and things in the university, afraid of the boy's concern or questioning, and even more afraid of seeing the memories she had worked hard to seal, so she took the initiative to ask her parents to accompany her to go back to school early to go through the formalities. Looking at their emaciated daughter, the parents agreed, but notified the person to go with them. Looking at the actions of her parents, the girl did not refuse. The heart is dead, and the love is difficult to move, so let your desperation bury the love between the two. ”

"My story is over, and all my questions have been answered. Heaven has sent you to me after hurting me; But when I had hope again, it knocked me back to square one. Maybe that's providence. ”

"I thought about it, and finally decided to tell you: I was already married to him when you got this letter. Thank you for tolerating my willfulness and my selfishness for so long. I healed my wounds with you, but left a wound in your heart. I'm sorry, and thank you for being with me, so that I still have good memories before entering the marriage hall. ”

"I hope you will burn it after reading this letter, and erase my traces in your heart forever, as a tribute to our feelings. Goodbye, the one I once loved dearly! Goodbye, my love! Goodbye, my youth! I'll forget you. ”

Wu Hui, who once loved you

After reading this letter, my tears also dried up. The long-standing question was perfectly answered, but the already scarred heart was also broken at this moment.

As a few flames were extinguished, I knew that my youthful years were over, and that only a beautiful shadow occasionally lingered in my lonely mind.