460. 【460】Confusion
The words that Mu Ang said to Si Jianyu were all imprinted in her mind word by word.
If Cancan didn't love Si Jianyu so much, then Mu Ang would definitely not give up Cancan, and there would be nothing wrong with her.
The sweetness of last night and this morning has now all turned into a hint of bitterness.
She desperately told herself that Mu Ang loved her, and that people like Mu Ang, since they said love, it must be true, and it will not be a lie.
He didn't have to lie to her at all, did he?
But...... Even though she kept thinking like this in her heart and wanted to hypnotize herself, the scene just now made her almost unable to deceive.
Her eyes were getting hotter and hotter, and she kept sniffing and telling herself, don't cry, don't cry out.
When Mu Ang walked to the front of the ward, he only saw Su Ai squatting on the ground, burying his face tightly, like a little beast that had been injured, shrinking in the corner and licking his wounds silently.
Her shoulders twitched, and his brow frowned, was she crying?
And he didn't want to see her cry.
As he lifted his steps to approach her, she abruptly looked up and looked at him. Her dark and clear eyes were red and moist at the moment, but there were no tears on her face.
He couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief. Then he found that he was nervous just now, afraid that she would cry, afraid that he would not know what to do!
She stared at him steadily, and I don't know how long it took, before she muttered, asking in a voice that was not much louder than a mosquito, "Muang, you love me, don't you?"
At this moment, she shouted his full name, not just his name, as if invisibly, a little distance between each other.
He didn't like it, as if she was going to stay away from him.
"Hmm. He answered.
"Will you tell me again, then?" her voice was still soft, soft, with a hint of ethereal uncertainty.
His brows furrowed again, she was always easy to understand in front of him, her face couldn't hide anything, so often when he looked at her expression, he would know what she was thinking, but at this moment, he felt that he couldn't see through what she was thinking at the moment.
"What's wrong with you?" he asked, "if it's because I lied to you about it, then I can explain it." ”
She lowered her head, and the corners of her lips pulled out a slight self-deprecating smile, so much she wanted to hear him say that he loved her again, but it turned out to be so difficult.
Shaking her head, she took a deep breath, and when she raised her head again, her expression was the same as usual, and even her voice was not as soft and ethereal as just now, "No need to explain anything, really, it's okay." "Because what she wants, it's never an explanation. All she wants is his love, she just wants to know who the person he really loves in her heart is.
And now, she has the answer in her heart.
"I went to the ward to see Cancan, I don't feel at ease when she looks like this. Su Ai said, stood up, knocked on the door twice, and then pushed open the door of the ward and walked in.
He watched a little stunned as she walked into the ward, but his mind was numb.
Shouldn't he be happy that she doesn't make noise, doesn't make trouble, and even says that it's okay if she says it okay......? Why did he feel empty, and the feeling of helplessness was becoming stronger and stronger.
Si Jianyu and Mu Ang were in Guan Cancan's hospital room, and there was no further conflict, and of course, there was no communication.
Basically, in the ward, the people who talk are Lu Lifang, as if in order to deliberately adjust the depression in the ward, Lu Lifang will say some lighter topics.
Su Ai sat on the sofa on the side of the ward, but she didn't notice what Lu Lifang was saying, she just quietly looked at her pale friend lying on the hospital bed.
Cancan can be safe this time, she is very lucky, and now, she just wants to keep Cancan awake.
Thinking about all these years, she has watched her friends fall in love, watched her friends leave, and then watched her friends return, and she has been watching the sweetness and pain all the way.
She knows the sweetness and bitterness of Cancan's relationship.
Once, she felt that this kind of love was too bitter, she just wanted an ordinary love, which could flow for a long time, but there was no need to storm the waves.
But now, she is envious of Cancan, envy her best friend, and at least get the true love of two men.
This kind of sincerity is more precious than anything else.
Although what Cancan wants is only Si Jianyu's sincerity, Mu Ang's sincerity may not be what Cancan wants, but it is what she has been wanting.
Thinking of this, Su Ai's eyelashes trembled suddenly, in fact, Mu Ang was not sincere to her, didn't she? She always knew that Mu Ang was also taking their relationship seriously, but what he gave her was not the kind of love she wanted.
Maybe she shouldn't have fallen like this in the first place, she was afraid that if she went on like this, would she be angry after her repeated efforts had become futile? Will she turn from envy to jealousy? Will she even distort this friendship?
If that's the case, then it's better to ......
And Muang...... It's not her who really loves. She has always known that emotional matters do not mean that you can work hard.
Her efforts can't drag Mu Ang out of the mud of that feeling, maybe there will be another woman in the future who will free him from this mud.
But that person, she knew it wouldn't be her.
Thinking of this, Su Ai's heart ached again. She has a lot of words that she wants to say to Cancan, but at this moment, she can only say it in her heart.
Cancan, do you know? I used to think that I could face this relationship very chicly, and when I found that Mu Ang really couldn't fall in love with myself, I could stop being entangled in a chic way, but now I know that as long as I am really involved in the relationship, it is impossible to be truly chic.
Cancan, you know? When Mu Ang said he loved me yesterday, I was really happy, so happy that I even got a little carried away, but today, it was like being poured a basin of cold water on my head, very cold, very bone-chilling, but it also made me understand something.
Su Ai looked at Guan Cancan like this, praying that her friend would wake up sooner.
It wasn't until the evening that Guan Cancan finally woke up, but he was obviously still very weak.
When he saw Su Ai in front of the hospital bed, Guan Cancan was slightly stunned, "Xiao Ai, why are you here......"
"It's a long story, I'll tell you later, you have to pay more attention to rest now, and the doctor will come back to check you later. Su Ai said.
Guan Cancan suddenly fell silent, her hands moved slowly to her abdomen, as if she was feeling something, and after a while, her gaze swept over Mu Ang, Su Ai, Si Jianyu, and finally stopped on Lu Lifang's face.
"The child in the belly, is it no longer there?" Guan Cancan asked word by word, every word seemed so difficult to spit out from his mouth.
Lu Lifang looked at Guan Cancan, and then looked at Si Jianyu, who had a bad face beside him, before nodding.
Guan Cancan closed his eyes, and tears couldn't help but flow. It's gone, the child is really gone. Although this child was destined not to be born from the beginning, although she came to the hospital to remove the child, when the child really left her, she still felt unbearable pain.
Guan Cancan cried bitterly, and Si Jianyu took a step forward, grabbed her hand tightly, and took her into his arms, as if he wanted to protect her with all his strength.
He didn't think that the child would leave because of one of his mistakes, he originally just wanted to come to the hospital and let Cancan keep the child, but he didn't want to make an irreparable mistake because of this.
Su Ai looked at Si Jianyu and Guan Cancan, who were embracing each other, and knew that the person who might really be able to heal this scar in his friend's heart now should be Si Jianyu.
So Su Ai silently stepped back, picked up her bag, and walked gently towards the outside of the ward.
Lu Lifang on the side only saw that when Su Ai walked out of the ward, Mu Ang also followed out of the ward.
"Are you leaving?" said Muang as soon as he left the room.
"Well, seeing Cancan wake up, I'm somewhat relieved, and I think what Cancan really needs now is Si Jianyu's comfort, even if I stay, it's useless. "It's better to wait for tomorrow's bright love xù steady dìng order, and then come to see her.
"Then I'll send you back. Muang said.
She was slightly stunned, didn't he plan to stay, but then she said, "No, I can go back by myself." With that, she turned around and was about to leave.
But the next moment, his hand suddenly grabbed her wrist, "I'll send you back." He insisted, only that he couldn't let her go alone.
But he couldn't send her back forever. This sentence was stuck in Su Ai's throat, and she rolled but didn't say it after all. Half-down, she watched him hold her hand steadily, and after a long time she said, "That's good." ”
After saying these two words, she was silent, let him take her hand, and walked to the parking lot.
She quietly got into the car, quietly fastened her seatbelt, and quietly looked like a lifeless doll.
"Are you hungry, where do you want to eat?" he asked, seemingly casually, with an anxious nervousness in his heart. The way she looked was something he had never faced.
He didn't know what to do to make her keep chattering to him as she usually did, with a smile on her face, instead of the suffocating silence of the moment.