When Shen Youyi sat up, he found himself lying on the sofa, with a box of alprazolam tablets (Valium) on the coffee table, the book "Dinner at the Homesick Restaurant" that he bought yesterday fell to the ground, and the small fresh European-style café stick figure on the cover of the book and the contour line of the dark wooden floor on the side formed a strong contrast, making people feel a little dizzy.

Shen Youyi bent down to pick up the book, looked at the waist seal under the cover, and wrote in red letters: "Family members sitting at the same dining table are often separated by a long distance, and the Sijia Bistro will help you find your long-lost family affection." ”

The orange eaves on the cover are very beautiful, like a match in the dark, this brilliant color ignited a certain part of Shen Youyi's memory, she stared at this sentence for a moment, trying to remember something, but she couldn't remember what she saw when she read this book yesterday, what kind of appearance she saw, her memory seemed to have disappeared.

However, Shen Youyi was not surprised by this, this situation was not the first time, this situation had lasted for several years, and she had already gotten used to it.

Shen Youyi was not doing useless work, put the book on the coffee table, picked up the mobile phone that was about to run out of power, saw that it was not early, and quickly connected the mobile phone to the charger, and then went to the bathroom to wash his face and brush his teeth......

In fact, this kind of temporary loss of memory appeared when she was in high school, but it was not frequent, and it did not affect her life too much, she always thought that it was the effect of drugs, but Shen Youyi didn't remember when she occasionally needed to use drugs to fall asleep, especially when it was raining.

After Shen Youyi finished washing, he casually beat an egg, stirred it into an egg liquid with milk, fried two slices of egg toast, sandwiched some jam, and served it with a cup of yogurt to complete a fairly exquisite breakfast.

When she walked out of the house, Shen Youyi couldn't help but look back at Cheng Mo's secret base, last Thursday was really a bad experience for her, and she was embarrassed to call Cheng Mo on Saturday and ask him to come to her house to discuss things.

Not only that, whenever she thought of what happened at noon that day, Shen Youyi's face was a little red, so that her eyes would subconsciously avoid Cheng Mo when she was in class.

Shen Youyi felt a little strange about herself, although some accidents that happened later that day were really embarrassing, but Cheng Mo was his own student, not to mention, he was still a very rational and intelligent child, although his body had some changes, but it was normal, she could also clearly feel Cheng Mo's restraint and sense of proportion, he was trying his best to avoid contact with her, so she shouldn't care too much.

However, every time she recalls that sunny noon, she remembers the feeling of watching "Norwegian Wood" for the first time in junior high school.

At that time, "Norwegian Wood" was a forbidden yellow book for junior high school students, but "Norwegian Wood" was too famous, so she secretly bought a copy, but she didn't dare to take it home, and after thinking for a long time, she could only hide it in the mezzanine of her schoolbag, wrap it in school with the cover of the language book, throw the language book in the desk, and then deliberately mix "Norwegian Wood" disguised as a Chinese textbook in the middle of the textbook and the workbook.

She didn't sleep well that night, and stayed up until twelve o'clock when her parents also entered the room, and then she tiptoed out the book "Norwegian Wood" with a "language" cover from her schoolbag, and hid in the bed and secretly read it with a flashlight.

Shen Youyi remembered that when she saw Watanabe and Naoko's XX description, she was sweating like pulp, maybe it was because of the heat, maybe it was because the bed was not ventilated, and it probably didn't matter what the reason was, all in all, she held her breath and read word by word, her heart was frightened, her face was red, and the slightest wind and grass outside was like thunder.....

After reading that paragraph, she seemed to collapse, turned off the flashlight, hid the book under the pillow, closed her eyes and tried to fall asleep, but her mind turned over and over again the picture that Haruki Murakami had drawn with words, a dark room, a wet and rainy night......

and some cold soothing.....

After that, she read more and more books, "Lady Chatterley's Lover", "Snow Country", "One Hundred Years of Solitude" and "Paradise Lost", which are even more naked than "Norwegian Wood", but she did not feel the slightest heat in her body, but felt a little cold in her emotions.

Later, she watched "Waste Capital" and "Golden Age", and the Chinese male writers wrote these fragments more directly, and the actions sometimes exceeded the details, and they were often read as yellow books by boys, but she felt sad when she watched them, which made people completely unable to have longing, and the feeling of body and soul tremor that she first watched "Norwegian Wood" can no longer be found.

Until noon that day.

This made Shen Youyi feel ashamed and ashamed, so she decided to pay attention to keeping her distance from Cheng Mo, even if she was sure that something could not happen to the two of them.

When Shen Youyi arrived at the school, it was almost seven o'clock, she drove her little mini along the main road slowly towards the parking lot, when she walked to the uphill next to the playground, and was about to reach the teaching building, suddenly a huge graffiti filled her eyes like the morning sun jumping out of the horizon.

The difference is that the sun uses extremely dazzling light, while this graffiti uses brilliant colors......

At this moment, Shen Youyi was a little distracted, and stepped on the brakes fiercely, although she drove very slowly in school, and wore a seat belt, she still shook in the car, but she didn't care at all, just stared at the huge graffiti with a little distraction.

She couldn't describe the shock in words.

No matter what kind of wall it is, whether it is the wall of a teaching building, the wall of an office building, or the wall of a factory, the wall is a wall, and thousands of walls will not leave any memory points, but when other things are added to this wall, such as murals, sculptures, inscriptions, and graffiti, it will immediately sublimate, no longer a simple wall, as a carrier of artwork, it is endowed with a deeper meaning.

Right now, this gigantic graffiti is unbelievably colourful under the hazy sky, like ....... Given life......

Shen Youyi forgot to continue driving forward, her mini stopped in the middle of the ramp, and in her field of vision was a **woman, this ** is not the upper body and the lower body, but the left and right, the body on the right is not ** is composed of skeletons, but the gaps in the skeleton bones are filled with butterflies of various colors, Shen Youyi seems to be able to see the overwhelming butterflies rising from her body, forming a tornado in mid-air, breaking through a hole in the gloomy sky.

Shen Youyi couldn't help but think of the painting she hadn't seen last week, although she hadn't seen it, but she had heard Cheng silently describe it, it seemed to be the same composition, but the other half was a rotten fish.

Today's half is a skeleton, and the skeleton is not surprising, but the butterfly that fills the gap between the bones is amazing, like a beautifully imagined text depicting lust, which is conflicting, contradictory, estrus and disgusting - just like lust itself.

When Shen Youyi saw this huge graffiti, he felt a little headache, as if he was recalling a very important thing, but no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't remember the pain and entanglement.

"Why should I go back to Changya to teach?" Shen Youyi was a little puzzled, when she was in college, the counselor seemed to have persuaded her to take the postgraduate entrance examination and then strive to stay in school, but she refused, but why did she refuse....

Shen Youyi searched hard in her memory, but she issued that there were many doors in her mind, she walked to the door, some doors could be opened, some doors could not be opened, she lacked a key key, Shen Youyi rubbed her temples, wanting to forcibly break the door, then the horn behind sounded, she subconsciously looked in the rearview mirror, only to find that she was still stepping on the brakes and parked the car in the middle of the road.

Shen Youyi hurriedly moved her foot to the accelerator and quickly drove the car uphill, she told herself not to think about those lost memories, but the huge graffiti lingered in her mind.

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When Cheng Mo arrived at the school, the graffiti had already caused a sensation in the whole school, the whole school had exploded, and everyone was discussing things about graffiti, but although the graffiti this time also had a fruit body, the artistic sense was still very strong, it didn't look weird, and it wasn't erotic, it was a work within the understanding of ordinary people, so there were fewer negative evaluations.

Except for the people in the second (9) class of high school, the people in the other classes did not associate this graffiti with Shen Youyi, after all, many people have not seen the chalk drawings that appeared in the (9) class.

The focus of the discussion was how the other party managed to complete such a beautiful and huge graffiti overnight, and many people selfishly thought that it would be good if the school didn't deal with this graffiti, because it was so shocking.

Changya's post bar was also swiped by posts and messages about this painting, and some bored people posted photos of chalk drawings that had appeared in class (9) to the post bar, and speculated that the person who made graffiti on the wall of the teaching building was the same person who drew chalk in Teacher Shen's class, and things have a tendency to get worse.....

The school's response was also very fast, first hung more than ten banners, covered the graffiti, and then during the recess exercise, the principal Wu Lei issued a notice through the radio in front of the teachers and students of the school, saying that he had some evidence, and hoped that if this matter was done by the students of the school, he would quickly turn himself in and talk about it, and if no one admitted that he did it tomorrow, he would call the police to deal with it.

This chalk drawing on the blackboard is completely different, it can be said that it is destroying public property, and if the circumstances are serious, not only will you have to pay compensation, but you may even go to jail.

Cheng Mo naturally didn't take this threat to heart, what he cared about was what happened to Teacher Shen in the past.

In fact, the vast majority of mental illnesses are caused by family reasons in childhood, and if you want to understand "dissociative identity disorder", you must first understand "splitting".

In fact, each of us has such a mental process, and "splitting" is a natural psychological process that manifests itself through people's different thoughts and attitudes, and manifests itself into a series of experiences and symptoms.

Often, we experience divisions mildly through daydreams of being someone else or driving home in self-driving mode, while others experience divisions through forgetting, and some feelings of division may be more intense, but the vast majority of us do not reach the point where we can call a "schizotypic disorder."

But there are also many people who have more severe symptoms, including splitting into different personalities or creating different identities in the brain, which are usually caused by traumatic experiences that are inextricable or excessive, and their brains instinctively split into many different personalities.

Children are the most susceptible to this symptom, and they often use splitting as an effective solution to severe physical and emotional pain.

That said: schizotypic disorder is a very effective survival skill because it keeps the traumatic information out of connection with the information in everyday life, and the traumatic information is kept out of the center of consciousness, away from their current consciousness, until the person is strong enough or wants to be able to face the experience.

In fact, most of the multiple personalities of Swan Beat are born for "self-protection", just like Cheng Mo is watching "Twenty-Four Billy" these days, the protagonist Billy has been beaten and threatened by his stepfather many times since he was 8 years old, so he has a serious mental disorder.

After Billy's first suicide attempt at the age of 16, his personality was protected by other personalities and "slumbered" for seven years.

His father's suicide and his stepfather's abuse make Billy desperate to escape the world on the one hand, and survival instinct to comfort and protect him, and the two forces are entangled and tear Billy to pieces, resulting in as many as 24 personalities.

His body is occupied in turns, and when Billy closes his eyes, there will be Guardian Reagan coming out to repel the abuser, there will be 8-year-old bearer David crying, lesbian Adalana, rogue Philip, professional con artist Kevin, Clown Leigh, workaholic Mark and other personalities.

Billy, who is split, reveals his own talents. Several of them have a talent for painting and can even sell for a good price. Escape master Tom is good at landscape oil painting, Aaron's pencil drawing "Christine" is quite sketching, and Aaron collaborated with Danny to complete "Noble Catherine", which is mysterious and elegant.

"24 Billy", a multi-personality split documentary, can be described as the pinnacle of psychological documentary. There are a total of 24 personalities in Billy's body, and these personalities are not only different in personality, but also in terms of IQ, age, nationality, language, gender, etc.

Therefore, the human heart or soul is really a bottomless and elusive thing, and it is probably difficult for ordinary people to imagine such a situation in which one person is divided into 24 people......

Cheng Mo knew that it was not a good thing for this disease to develop, and he couldn't ignore it, so when he knew through Shen Mengjie that "Shen Daoyi" actually died when he was born with Teacher Shen, he made it clear that he had to help Shen Youyi.

To be precise, multiple personality is not a mental disorder, it is a mental disorder. The split personality is not a completely new individual, but a memory that a part of the personality does not want to have.

This memory is deliberately separated from the main personality and developed separately to form a so-called new personality.

The treatment for multiple personalities is to merge the split personality with the main personality to stabilize it. In essence, the main personality reaccepts his own memories and fills in the missing period of time.

And if you want the other party to recover, the first thing to do is to give the other party a full sense of security, but it seems that Shen Daoyi doesn't trust him, and Shen Daoyi should have a purpose in doing so many things, but Cheng Mo doesn't know what happened to Shen Youyi, so there is no way to guess Shen Daoyi's purpose.

Cheng Mo guessed that even Mr. Shen himself definitely didn't remember, so it definitely didn't make sense to ask her, but Cheng Mo was not without clues, at least he knew that it must be related to "teacher-student love", otherwise Shen Daoyi would not be so obsessed with painting with this theme.

So Cheng Mo entrusted Bai Xiuxiu to help find out what had happened to Teacher Shen and Teacher Shen's family, and when he received Bai Xiuxiu's reply on Wednesday, he was a little surprised, the affairs of the Shen family were really unexpectedly bizarre, and it was no wonder that Teacher Shen, who had a strong sense of responsibility, would split into a sub-personality.....