Chapter 63: Loneliness and Sorrow

He was bowing his head to review the recital, I thought about it, walked up to him, I don't say a word to him these days, he has long been used to it, he looked at me coldly, he was stunned for a moment, and it took a while to react.

"What's wrong?" He looked up at me, his eyes were as gentle as water, "Is it disturbing your rest?" ”

I nodded and said, "The emperor has been with me for three days, and it's time to go around other palaces, and there will inevitably be some gossip here with me." ”

He hooked the corners of his lips, got up and helped my waist, I let go slightly, his hand fell in the air, the smile on the corner of his lips stopped abruptly, his face was faint with a trace of sadness, I was very close to him, I clearly felt his pain, I suddenly didn't dare to move again, his hand fell on my waist, I could see his forbearance and retreat, silent for a moment, he helped me to walk to the couch, as if everything had not happened just now, and said lightly: "Are you still afraid of those gossips?!" The first time you sealed the Huifei Palace, beat Concubine Lan, and directly stopped the morning and dusk Dingxing, why didn't you worry about gossip? ”

I frowned slightly and glanced at him: "Isn't the emperor distressed?" "After the incident of that day, I knew that Concubine Lan had been kneeling at the gate of Taihe Hall for a day, and a few concubines who had befriended Concubine Hui also went to ask to see him a few times, but he didn't see him, but he didn't expect to wait for me here today.

"You intend to stand up, and then they contradict you first, how can I blame you!" He sighed: "It's just that now the palace is rumored, the queen mother has overturned the brand, I am afraid of the queen, I dare not go to other concubine palaces, now except for you, I really have nowhere to go!" ”

My heart is surging, how can there be such a brazen person in the world, who obviously relied on me for the plate that he overturned.

"I know you don't want to see them, so naturally I won't let them make you angry, don't worry, I won't let you do anything unhappy!" He sighed softly and helped me to sit on the couch.

Don't do anything that makes me unhappy! I sighed silently, if it weren't for what you did, why would I be trapped in the inner courtyard of this deep palace.

He should have read my thoughts, was silent for a moment, wrapped me in his arms, put his chin against my forehead, and said softly, "What the hell can I do so that I can go to your heart!" ”

I didn't struggle, silently leaned on his arms, I already had a man in my heart, how could I be able to accommodate someone else......

He hugged me on the bed, stretched out his hand and the curtain fell, and the tiny beaded curtains collided with each other, shaking out a blurry dazzle.

At night, he did not let me shrink into it to sleep, but held me in his arms, I could not break free, so I stayed in his arms honestly, I could hear the sound of his heart beating, I could also feel his breath from his neck, he was so close to me, but his heart was so far away......

I guess this is the legendary bedmate, different dreams! During the day, we are busy with our own work, but every night he always comes to my palace and makes a look of flounder love!

The concubines and concubines in the palace have become a mess, and even the ministers in the court have played to explain the truth of spoiling the country. Because it involves me, the second brother is not easy to come forward, but fortunately, He Zhengqing, no matter how lost he is in his heart, he doesn't want me to be wronged in the slightest. In addition, King Jin and King Duan helped on the side, and some ministers were instantly suppressed when they said the last two sentences. After all, the emperor and queen Qin Se and Ming are always a good story, and slowly all kinds of gossip will be reduced......

The first day of June is my seventeenth birthday, this is my first birthday after becoming the queen, whether it is Ling Haoxuan or the Ministry of Internal Affairs, naturally will not be careless, the threshold of Fengzhi Palace is almost broken, from the concubine, down to the last concubine, and even several princesses, princesses, and tasteful ladies who married outside the palace all came to congratulate and send generous gifts. Even though Concubine Hui and Concubine Lan hated me in their hearts, they did a lot of work in this face-saving exchange. In less than a day, the room in the west side hall was full of gold and splendor, and all kinds of rare treasures were available.

Even if I don't like it anymore, this kind of courtesy and entertainment, I can't throw it out with a straight face, I can only deal with it with a smile, after a few days, the words I have said, the smiling face I have accompanied, my jaw has already been tired!

Finally on the day of my birthday, it rained all night, the rain was very heavy, crackling and smashing on the window screen, so noisy that I couldn't sleep all night, I listened to Ling Haoxuan's even breathing sound next to me and was even more upset, but I didn't dare to move, for fear of waking him up. During this time, in order to prevent any gaffes after falling asleep, I stayed up all night, and I would not sleep peacefully until he went up to the court.

I finally stayed up until dawn, and I heard the sound of the futon, and I wonder if he noticed that I had stayed awake all night, and leaned over to look at me, and for a long time, gently dropped a kiss on my forehead. I was so frightened that I didn't dare to move, and he sighed softly and finally left......

It's easy to stay up until he leaves, but I can't sleep anymore, I leaned on the couch and suddenly thought of Bai Juyi's "Night Rain":

"I miss people, and I am far away.

I felt something, and it was in my bowels.

The township is far away, and there is no day to see.

The intestines are deep and unsolvable, and they don't think about it every day.

In addition, at this night, he sleeps alone in an empty hall.

Autumn is not yet known, and the wind and rain are in the sky.

If you don't learn the Toutuo method, you can forget your heart. ”

Thinking about it and feeling blasphemous, Xiang Lingneng never married for Bai Juyi's life, but I had to leave Haoqian and marry into this deep palace, so cowardly, I felt even more upset.

"Miss, the emperor sent Father-in-law Cao to send some rewards." Outside the door, there was Huaibi's voice.

I answered softly, let her change my clothes, as soon as I went out, I saw Cao Wenhuan leading a team of palace maids kneeling outside the hall, I glanced at it, respectively, nine python satin, nine satin, nine river silk, nine palace silk, nine smoke Bixialuo, nine thin smoke emerald green yarn, nine spring silk, nine silk. The jewelry is jade green bracelet, Han Yu exquisite bracelet, Han Li yarn water chain, flowing smoke cloud shadow hairpin, glazed star butterfly hairpin, Dai Xun Yu Tong chain, Yue Lian Qi dream earrings, Qinyao gold silk fan, Ruyi phoenix hairpin, Qin Yun gold bowl, three dragons and nine phoenix crowns.

I glanced lazily and could already hear the exclamations of hibiscus and Huaibi.

"Miss, look, so much jewelry!" Unsurprisingly, Huaibi was already dazzled.

"Say hello to the mother, the emperor has given such a heavy reward, which shows the love for the mother." Hibiscus bowed slightly, smiling and complimenting.

I snorted coldly in my heart, although there was no trace on my face, but I didn't think so in my heart, and my favor was just a thought of him, and now I was just a canary that he raised, and when he was happy, he would scatter a few handfuls of rice, and when he was unhappy, what about when he was unhappy? It can well be imagined!

I lightly asked them to clean up, and sat silently in the room reading a book, and the ambergris in the incense burner swirled like silk and scattered in the wind. The rain gradually stopped, the sun was rare and clear, I looked at the book, and the tiredness came up, and the people were a little lazy, and they were a little sleepy with their elbows.

"Niangniang, Princess Jiayi asks to see you." Hibiscus gently walked up to my side to give a report.

I was stunned, this was the first time she entered the palace after my wedding, and her heart was overjoyed, and she was completely sleepy, so she put down her book and got up to greet her. When she walked to the palace gate, Jiayi had already walked in with a smile, she pulled her hair in a bun, she was already dressed as a married woman, and when she saw me dressed in a homely brocade, she smiled and said: "Ruo'er, you are really leisurely." ”

I smiled and took her hand: "That's not it! Life is boring! Why are you free to visit me today? ”

She smiled: "I heard that your palace gate is going to be broken down in the past few days, I don't want to avoid the limelight!" As she spoke, she looked at me: "But with your temperament, I still can't believe that you can endure the circumstance." ”

I laughed and said, "Who to underestimate!" ”

She stopped and looked at me deeply, "Are you still comfortable living in the palace?" ”

I sighed, took her hand and sat down, and then whispered, "I used to live here, and now I still live here, and my days are just a mess!" ”

She sighed slightly: "I know you are wronged, but now you are the only one who can do it yourself." As she spoke, she looked at me and smiled and said, "I came today to wish you a birthday, look, give you a gift." As she spoke, she waved her hand, and a maid came in with a gift, and when I saw it, it was an ancient book, and after reading so many jewelry, I couldn't put it down when I saw this book, and immediately took it in my hand and looked through it.

"I said I wanted to send some jewelry, Zhengqing had to send books, saying that you must be indispensable in the palace, and besides, those concubines' congratulatory gifts are probably jewelry, and it is better to make you happy with books." She sighed, "I really don't know you as well as he does." ”

I heard Xiao Suo in her voice, didn't dare to answer, turned a deaf ear, and said with a smile: "Jiayi, thank you, it's the best gift for you to come to see me, these days, I can't see you, I can't see the second brother, I'm flustered every day, it's great that you can come!" ”

She was infected by my enthusiasm, and the depression in her eyes gradually dissipated, and she looked at me intently, and glanced at the palace maid who was waiting on the side without a trace.

I suddenly waved my hand: "This palace and Princess Jiayi will talk about family life, you all retreat!" ”

"Yes!"

When they all retreated, Jiayi raised her eyes to look at me, there was some hesitation in her eyes, and she said again and again: "I entered the palace today, not only to give you a congratulatory gift, but also to be entrusted by someone, the second emperor brother asked me to give this to you!" ”

My heart trembled, I thought that there would be no gift for his birthday this year, but I didn't expect that he still remembered me, his hand hesitantly stretched out, for a long time, tremblingly opened the silk handkerchief, and a jade pendant lay quietly on the lotus-colored brocade handkerchief.

Back then, when he gave me a jade pendant, he told me that his mother asked him to give the jade pendant to the person he liked, I had failed him, how could I keep it, before entering the palace, I went to King Jing's mansion to see his last face, and left this jade pendant in his house, but I didn't expect that it would return to my hand after going around.

My tears rolled down in large chunks, silently seeping down my cheeks and into the placket of my clothes, and the dampness and heat were hot and wet against my skin.

"Ruo'er!" Jiayi looked at me anxiously and whispered comfortingly, "Ruo'er, don't cry, if you are seen, it will be another storm." ”

I nodded, holding back tears in my eyes. I know I can make a difference, but I can't cause trouble for Jiayi.

"Ruo'er, although I was entrusted by the second emperor brother to bring you the jade pendant, but after all, you are already the queen now, you must not let your own temperament, otherwise, not only you, but also the second emperor brother may not be able to escape the emperor's wrath."

I knew her concerns, she was a brother on both sides, and I couldn't let her be torn apart, so I just nodded.

Only then did she feel relieved.