At the same time as I began the creation of "Those Years on behalf of the country", it also entered the fifteenth year of my novel. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 info

Today, I met a high school classmate who came to see me for a while, saying that he still had a lot of my junior high school and high school materials in hand, so I suddenly felt a little emotional.

Fifteen years is a long time for me, a young man who has reached the age of 27, but looking back, I feel that the road is clear. It seems that at a glance you can see the little girl in junior high school, lying on the table, holding a horizontal line book, secretly depicting all kinds of stories that now seem childish.

The first novel was written when I was in the second year of junior high school. I remember very well that at that time, the teacher gave a "wish" title, saying that everyone could write casually, and then wrote a novel, ending with a very vulgar leukemia death. Because the writing is quite smooth, it has been praised in the class, and naturally this ending has been criticized for a long time...... But because there are other more exaggerated endings, such as something that was knocked out of the brain, lost his sight, and then changed his cornea, and regained his sight...... So I didn't have to be a laughing stock for a long time at this ending.

As a result, when I was praised by others, my self-confidence swelled, and as a result, I couldn't control my writing.

Once, during the final exam of the first semester of the third year of junior high school, I was required to write a 600-word essay, but I didn't know what to think, and I wrote a 1200-word novel when I saw that I was still rich in time, which surprised the teacher for a while. A large piece of composition paper, all written on both sides, and I asked the invigilator for another one very strangely...... The other people looked at me strangely at that time, and I still snicker when I think about it.

After junior high school, I naturally entered the high school of our school, and the homeroom teacher of the junior high school was also the Chinese teacher at that time...... I added it as a matter of course. Of course, at first, I was just writing all kinds of materials that the teacher had drawn up, such as writing with people, and then prose poetry. Speaking of even the pen, I feel very warm when I think about it now. Because the people who wrote together are all classmates who have been promoted from junior high school to high school, although they are in different classes, but after more than ten years, the current relationship is closer than that of high school classmates. 5 boys, 1 girl and 1 girl, like brothers, is also the main reason why my writing has a weak female perspective and a slightly stronger male perspective.

To this day, I still miss the scene when I joked about other people's names and wrote them into novels, but now, I don't have this joke mentality.

I really started writing my own independent essays in my second year of high school, which is now a year ago. Of course, for me at that time, writing was not to make money, nor to vent anything, but purely for experiments and hobbies. And high school students have hobbies, and the most important factor to stick to them is to have spare time.

SARS gave me this spare time.

The whole city of Beijing is strictly banned, the school is not open, and from mid-spring to early summer, there is a big holiday for more than a month. At that time, the only literary network I knew was under the banyan tree, so I tried to write some short stories. likes history and poetry, so naturally likes Jin Yong's martial arts. After watching martial arts, I felt that a window had opened out of thin air, and it turned out that I could make up stories like this, which I never dared to think of before.

I never thought I was a talented writer. When I was in elementary school, writing was my nightmare, but it was only after our junior high school Chinese teacher let us write as we pleased. But I still can't write after all. How to describe a person, how to describe a scene, how to describe an event, how to do a grass snake gray line, foreshadowing, I don't know any of these. And my family is against me writing novels, so naturally no one will teach me.

So, thanks to Banyan Tree, and tolerant readers as well as editors. Internet readers are the most tolerant readers in the world, and every sentence of support and encouragement has become the motivation for me to write patiently. From a novel of less than 2,000 words, I was gradually able to write 50,000 words, which is the result of my high school training. Writing for me is like a poison, and I can't extricate myself from it. So much so that a week before the college entrance examination, when I went home to study intensively, I was still able to find a small notebook from the table and write 5,000 words by hand every day. As a result, although the final score passed the admission line of Peking University, after all, because he did not dare to apply for the examination, he went south to Nanjing University.

However, there are no absolutes in the world, and it is difficult to talk about blessings in disguise. The beginning of writing is all imitation. Imitating the stories on TV, imitating the stories in comics, imitating the stories in novels, how to be hypocritical, so that when I look back now, I have goosebumps all over my body, in addition to being ashamed, I am still ashamed.

And the training of that year and a half, in addition to increasing my pen strength, the most important thing is to develop a good habit of not being too supervised. No one reads it, but it is written for myself, and it must be finished. If you can't access the Internet, you will secretly go to the sea to check the information.

I believe that parents actually know, but they just turn a blind eye and let me stick to my ideals. Even my father registered an account in Banyan to read the articles I wrote, and the comments changed from the initial scolding to rubbish, little by little to scolding the wrong writing method, and later changed to criticizing the characters for not being vivid...... And after more than ten years, when I gave him what I had written not long ago, it had changed my words to be quite reasonable. Listening to my father's teachings is also one of the biggest motivations for me to keep writing.

And I never felt how well I wrote, so I could only tell myself over and over again that this one was better than the last. The most satisfying thing is always the part that has just been written, and after a short time, I will "like the new and hate the old" again. I think that maybe in another ten years, I will be able to write something that I want to be satisfied with, but maybe it's just my ideal satisfaction at this time...... Just like today, when I put it in front of my eyes ten years ago, I was afraid that I would feel like I was dreaming.

Of course, in the process of writing, I have also done many stupid things: there have been times of piling up rhetoric, blindly quoting scriptures, pretending to be petty bourgeoisie, and there have been bad tastes like numbness...... In the past fifteen years, I have experienced too much and tried too much, and then I wrote to the end, only to find that the most important thing is to return to the basics, the sentences are smooth, and do not need to be overly embellished. Novels are just storytelling, to be told practically, to tell them vividly, and to tell them alive. I've seen too many face-painted characters, and I don't like face-painted characters, and I don't want to write about face-painted characters anymore...... I hope that each of my characters is alive, vivid and unique, but until now, I have not reached this point, and I can only keep getting closer.

I used to think that writing to the extreme is that the characters in the pen do what they want to do, and the author is just a spectator, just watching them do something, powerless to stop it, powerless to change, just recording. That's what I really want to achieve, but I think maybe it's going to be a dream that will never come true.

When I was in college, I was the editor-in-chief of the college magazine, and I began to write press releases and rewrite essays. When there was no frontispiece in the journal, it would be put together with 1,800 words from time to time. At that time, I realized that so many years of writing skills had helped me. Too many people like flowery essays, and the depiction of the mysterious and mysterious has been used by me since I was in high school. After all, the tone of the text in Phantom City was a popular one in online literature in that era.

In my junior year, I was no longer nervous about my studies, and I returned to my old job and started writing novels. It's still a banyan tree, starting from 50,000 words, slowly moving to 80,000 words, then 100,000 words, then 170,000 words. At the same time, some short stories were also posted. Each article was recommended by the club, so my self-confidence swelled greatly, but when I was the happiest, the banyan tree was purchased by Shanda.

The loss of data, the removal of Jinshi, and the feeling of returning to the pre-liberation period overnight directly led me to go back to write my graduation thesis in a down-to-earth manner. This stop is three years. Three years later, I got married at work, got used to writing official reports, learned to behave in a way, saw the hot and cold state of the world, and understood to be cautious.

Rewrite the text, not at the starting point.

The first 400,000 words can be regarded as the completion of a dream that I didn't finish in college. At the same time, I was surprised to find that my life experience had improved my writing.

After 400,000 words, the second article is 880,000 words, which can be regarded as a re-enactment of a dream I had in college.

I never changed my essays, but for the sake of ending the college essay, I wrote the essay all over again. And this is also the first time that it has transitioned from the field of martial arts to the field of historical military. I try to train myself to create different characters. In a scene, it slowly develops from writing one person clearly, to writing two people clearly, and then to writing three or four people clearly......

I hope that through perseverance, I can make up for my congenital deficiencies and one day reach the level of Old Man Kim's narrative. In the 880,000-word "Legend of the Han King", I finally understood this, maybe it is just a drop in the ocean, but for me, it has benefited a lot.

Therefore, after fifteen years, I began to concentrate and devote myself to the new article "Those Years on behalf of the country". It is also difficult and easy to make up a piece of history by yourself and write something based on the existing history. For me, the big structure has always been my weakness, and this is also a weakness that I must overcome in this writing. At the same time, ancient poetry is also my weakness, and this time, I finally tried to create it on my own.

Writing steadfastly and creating with heart is my writing attitude in this life, and "Those Years on behalf of the country" is naturally no exception. How to portray a person, how to describe an event, how to cut down the complicated and simplify, how to find a balance between the text and the style, and how to string the story together...... These are all things that I am going to explore when I write this time.

This article is written for me when I have been writing for fifteen years, and I hope that in the next year, I will have my own answers to these questions when I read the article again in 2014.