"Hmm. Guan Cancan nodded and said, although knowing that this answer is tantamount to a harm to Mu Ang, but if it is not said clearly, if there is any hope, then it will only be a greater harm to Mu Ang.

"Are you afraid that he will commit suicide again?" Mu Ang said, "Cancan, did you decide to be with Si Jianyu again because of soft-heartedness and sympathy?"

In his eyes, there was only the last glimmer of light, faint and ethereal, as if this light would be extinguished at any time because of her answer.

But—

Guan Cancan took a deep breath and replied, "Yes, I was so afraid that the Imperial Council would choose to end his own life again, but this was not because of soft-heartedness and sympathy, so I decided to be with him, but because I found that I loved him and never really let go of him." ”

When she said this, the last glimmer of light in his eyes slowly dimmed, "You...... Never let him go?" he sneered, "but didn't you say you didn't care about him anymore? Otherwise, why would you hide from him for five years?"

"I always thought I didn't care about Yu, but it wasn't until he fell into the river, until he was about to give up his life, that I realized I cared. When he jumped, I jumped with him, and all I thought about was trying to get him up, and I didn't think about anything else. Guan Cancan said quietly, saying these words, as if he recalled the scene at that time again, and his heart hurt again, "And in the hospital, I met Lu Lifang, and he told me many things that I didn't know in the past. ”

Lu Lifang's words were like a heavy stick, which hurt her hard, but it also made her understand a lot.

After a pause, Guan Cancan continued, "I left back then because I thought that Yu no longer needed me, that he no longer loved me, that his feelings had been betrayed, so he left, wanting to escape this pain, but now, I know that Yu has always loved me and has not changed." ”

A cold wry smile lifted into his thin lips, and Mu Ang said, "So, if I hadn't helped you leave, wouldn't you have wasted these five years......?" I really did the extra ......."

"It's not superfluous!" Guan Cancan shouted, his heart was filled with pain again, but this time the pain was not for the royal family, but for the man in front of him who had helped her too much all the time, and she, after all, still couldn't give him the response he wanted, and couldn't give him the feelings he wanted, "If you hadn't helped me leave at that time, maybe I would have collapsed before I understood, if it wasn't for you helping me in the past five years, I might not have been able to give birth to a smile." ”

Guan Cancan's nose was sour, "Mu Ang, I will always remember that when I was about to give birth, it was you who carried me and rushed into the hospital; when my life and Xiaoxiao were hanging by a thread, you were always by our side! For me, you are a friend, a very good and important friend, if one day, you want me to repay you with my life, I will! It's just that my feelings have been given to Yu, and there is no way to give them to another person." ”

He slowly closed his eyes and tilted his head, as if deliberately not letting her see his expression clearly.

After a long time, he whispered, "Since you're here, come with me to the piano room." ”

The piano room is where they first met.

At that time, he picked up the score she had left behind and played it leisurely in the piano room. It was also the first time she had heard him play in its entirety.

When the two of them came to the piano room, the qiē in the piano room was not the same as it was back then, except that the objects looked older than back then. These traces of obsolescence seem to be witnessing the passage of time.

Muon walked up to the piano, opened the lid, and sat down as he had done then.

The slender fingers gently pressed on the keys, "It's really a lot rusty, in a few years, I'm afraid that Xiaoxiao will play better than me." ”

Guan Cancan bit his lip, only to feel that his nose was more sore.

If he hadn't given up on the piano back then, with his talent, he might have quickly made a name for himself internationally and became an excellent pianist.

But because of her relationship, he gave up music, gave up the piano, and chose to engage in business. On the other hand, why didn't she mess up his life?

The moment his piano sound sounded in the piano room, Guan Cancan's eyes gradually gathered mist.

What he played was the music she had written to him.

He played intently, obviously a cheerful tune, but with a desperate sadness that made her want to cry.

The sound of the piano can't hide his state of mind, is this his state of mind at the moment? Pain and despair, and this is what she gives! Obviously she doesn't want to hurt anyone, but she is always hurting people who are important to her.

That's true of Mi, and so is Muang.

The moment the piano stopped, Guan Cancan's face was already covered with tears, and the tears were still flowing down his eyes, constantly pouring out, dripping and dripping......

Mu Ang stood up and walked in front of Guan Cancan, his dark eyes looked at the tears in front of him fixedly, "At least now, these tears are shed for me." ”

As he spoke, his fingers gently touched her face, but in a short time, his fingers were already wet with her tears.

"Cancan, you're always crying for your cousin, but this time it's for me, so ...... It's good, it's really good. His lips lifted slightly, but her tears fell even harder.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry! Mu Ang, I'm sorry!" Guan Cancan said continuously.

"You have nothing to be sorry for me. Mu Ang said, "Look, the song you promised to write for me, you also wrote it, it's really a good song, I like it very much." ”

Her teary eyes looked at him in a daze, the sunlight shining on him through the window of the piano room, and the jade studs on his earlobes revealed a brilliant green light under the refraction of the sunlight.

This jade stud earring reminded her of what he had said, and it was his mother who begged for him, because he had been lonely all his life and could not be loved for life.

Can't be loved, can't be loved?!

Is this a confirmation of these lives?

No, she can't fall in love with this man, but one day, there will be a woman who will fall in love with him, and he will also fall in love again, and his life will definitely not be like a fate.

"Ang, you will definitely meet a very good girl, a girl who is a thousand times better than me, it will be!" Guan Cancan said in a choked voice.

Mu Ang lowered his eyes slightly, will he meet a girl who is a thousand times better than her? No, not again, even if ...... If there really is such a girl's cunzài, he will not fall in love with it again.

It's as if all his feelings in this life have burned out at this moment, and from now on, he will only be silently on the side, silently watching her, and silently guarding her.

There is no more hope, and there is no more luxury.

"Cancan. "I've never regretted it—I'm in love with you." ”

Even if he can't be loved for the rest of his life, he has loved and knows what it's like to really fall in love with someone.

Leaning down, Mu Ang's lips gently pressed against Guan Cancan's forehead.

A kiss - like weeping, like mourning, like saying goodbye......

She didn't dodge, but quietly closed her eyes, tears rolling down her cheeks.

From now on, this man will try to let go of his own feelings, try to fall in love with others, and try to feel another kind of happiness. And she will pray heartily, praying that the woman who will give him happiness will appear soon.

――――

Guan Cancan returned to the Si family's old house with red eyes. Even if the tears had long been wiped away by this time, anyone could see at a glance the fact that she had just cried.

Si Jianyu frowned slightly, pulled Guan Cancan to him, and ran his fingers across her red and swollen eyes, "Crying?"

"Hmm. She answered.

"What happened?" If she had suffered any grievances outside, then he would do anything to help her get justice.

She raised her eyes to look at him, but she didn't hide it, "I met Mu Ang when I went out today, and then I talked to him for a while. ”

When she finished saying this, she clearly felt that the fingers he was holding her hand suddenly retracted, and the force almost pinched her hand.

But then, his fingers loosened his strength again, and he just said lightly, "Really?"

"Don't you ask me what I talked to him about?" she knew, for Muang, the royal care. Although they were cousins, they never got along.

"Do you need to ask?" he raised his hand and took her into his arms, "at least you're back with me now." "As long as she's by his side, that's enough!

He knows that his cancan will not be a half-hearted person, since she said that she loves him, then she will only love him alone.

"But if he makes you cry, then he'll have to pay the price. "Tsumi Michi.

"It's not him who makes me cry, it's I who owe him. Guan Cancan said, "Yu, I owe Mu Ang a lot, but just now, I hurt him again. ”

It hurt to the bone, so hurt that she watched his eyes dim.

Her words seemed to make him understand something. He hugged her tighter, "Don't feel sorry for others, Cancan, even if you really owe Ang something, don't feel sorry for Ang, don't shed tears for Ang anymore." ”