Jiang Luosheng found himself in an old house.

In winter, there is no heating and the bed is cold.

In front of me was a bright and dark cigarette butt.

She turned her head and saw heavy snow outside the window.

It hurts, it hurts in her left chest, or something else, she can't tell.

Her brain heard a cacophony of cacophony, not knowing if it was the sound of snow.

After slowly opening her eyes, she realized that she was in the hospital. The noise was actually just the bell of the hospital morning round.

It's seven o'clock in the morning.

Jiang Luosheng raised his hand tiredly and rubbed his eyes, looking around. Xiao Qi is no longer there.

Looking out the window of the hospital room at Hamato Hospital, the snow had stopped outside, but the weather was dreadribly gloomy.

In such bad weather, the scar on Jiang Luosheng's left chest ached faintly.

A new day has begun. She didn't want to face it.

Today is the last rehearsal before the premiere of the new play. She was not interested.

But she had to struggle. There is almost nothing left, and if she loses her career again, she is really completely worthless.

She rolled over and got out of bed.

At seven o'clock in the morning, Zhao Ting had just arrived at the hospital, and she saw Jiang Luosheng coming out of the ward from a distance, with her head down, carrying her bag, and walking forward step by step.

Abandoned children, even the back is distressing.

"Luo Sheng," Zhao Ting chased after her, a little surprised, "Where are you going so early?" I'd like to come back to you later for a consultation. ”

"Doctor Zhao, morning." Jiang Luosheng stopped, "I'll go to rehearsal." ”

The mental state is so bad that I have to go to rehearsals. Zhao Ting was a little helpless. "Your boyfriend said let me take a leave of absence for you. It's not in good shape, and there's no point in rehearsing, so it's better to take a good rest, don't you say? ”

Jiang Luosheng smiled faintly, "I'm fine." ”

"Luo Sheng," Zhao Ting's tone was serious but gentle, "People who are about to run before they can stand firm will fall the hardest." ”

Jiang Luosheng's eyelashes shook fiercely, "But I can't lose my career anymore." ”

"You won't lose your career," Zhao Ting advised her, "You're just tired and need to rest." ”

"Doctor Zhao, I don't dare to stop," Jiang Luosheng said tremblingly, "I'm afraid." ”

There were so many people around her, waiting for her to stop and quickly overtake her.

If she is overtaken and eliminated, she has nothing to lose.

If you are helpless and worthless, is there any point in living?

"Luo Sheng," Zhao Ting was gentle, "with your state, it would be better to take a little breath." ”

"No, Doctor Zhao," Jiang Luosheng was more anxious than Zhao Ting, "we have a new play tomorrow, and I can't be absent." ”

No matter how painful it is, no matter how depressed it is, it can't.

Zhao Ting could feel her emotions accumulating higher and higher.

Forcing her now is not a good way, and it will even aggravate her condition.

Zhao Ting plans to let her do what she wants to do, "Then let's make an appointment, when will we do the consultation?" ”

"Tomorrow." Jiang Luosheng calmed down a little, "I won't perform until tomorrow night, and I can do it from morning to noon." ”

They made an appointment at eight o'clock the next morning.

"I was too tired from the rehearsal, so I came back. All the emotions are also stored first, don't worry, let's deal with them together tomorrow. Zhao Ting instructed her.

"Okay." Jiang Luosheng smiled faintly, "Thank you." ”

When Zhao Ting saw Jiang Luosheng leave, she suddenly felt unbearable in her heart.

This smart girl, knowing that Jiang Yuan had no feelings for her, deceived herself again and again.

Probably just to let yourself go.

This is true for many people, but after all, no one can escape reality.

Zhao Ting turned around and walked to the office.

Jiang Luosheng soon realized that his current state could not support his ambitions at all.

Tomorrow the new play premieres, and she dances a very important and conspicuous role.

Today, which was supposed to be an exhilarating last rehearsal, she only felt tormented.

Why is it still morning? Why isn't it over today?

When warming up in front of the pole, a colleague leaned over and whispered, "Luo Sheng, are you uncomfortable?" ”

"No," Jiang Luosheng replied in a low voice, "What's wrong?" ”

"Look at your bad face."

"I didn't sleep well last night."

"Boyfriend won't let you go to bed early?" Colleagues made fun of her.

Jiang Luosheng smiled.

During the lunch break, in the corridor, she was lying on the windowsill, looking out of the window with unfocused eyes.

She didn't go out to lunch with her colleagues and didn't want to talk to anyone.

There was silence all around. The warm aroma of the rice comes from far and near.

Then, a bowl of porridge was placed on the windowsill, in front of Jiang Luosheng.

Jiang Luosheng lowered his eyes to look at the porridge, and then turned his head, and saw Cui Lin's eyes full of concern.

"Senior sister," Cui Lin asked in a low voice, "Are you okay?" ”

In the entire dance troupe, no one knew that Jiang Luosheng had depression. With the help of Zhao Ting, her state has been quite stable, but this time she had a bit of a ruthless attack.

But she still didn't mean to let anyone know.

"It's fine." She smiled faintly at Cui Lin, not wanting to say anything more.

"Liar. I don't eat lunch, and I'm here alone in a daze, and I'm still applauding? Cui Lin pushed the porridge over a little more, "Hurry up and eat." ”

Jiang Luosheng looked at the porridge and didn't have a bit of appetite.

"It's better to eat less." Cui Lin ordered her like a parent.

Jiang Luosheng didn't want to fight with him, so he took a spoon and ate slowly.

Cui Lin was a little relieved at this time, and stood side by side with her in front of the windowsill, "Your face is too wrong today." What's wrong? ”

"I didn't sleep well." Jiang Luosheng replied simply.

"Liar. It's obviously on your mind. Cui Lin pouted.

Jiang Luosheng smiled, "Cui Lin, I want to stay alone for a while, okay?" ”

Cui Lin was a little reluctant, but still agreed. "Then if you need anything, come to me, you're welcome."

"Thank you."

Cui Lin was about to leave, when he suddenly spoke again: "Senior sister, you can ask for leave, even if you miss the premiere, it doesn't matter." Health is the most important thing. ”

Jiang Luosheng lowered his head, "Hmm." ”

If she can have a place to rely on, a warm home, and a mom and dad sitting across the dining table, she can think about nothing when she is tired, just lie down and sleep comfortably.

But she didn't, so she didn't dare to stop running.

In the afternoon, during rehearsals.

Jiang Luosheng tried to concentrate and fight against the images flashing back to his mind.

Chafing dish.

Rabbit dolls.

Charade.

Men's stubble.

She didn't want to face reality, but reality didn't let her go.

Maybe Dr. Zhao is right and should stop and catch his breath.

"Stop." Wan Qi shouted with a cold face.

The music came to an abrupt end. Jiang Luosheng was stunned and stopped moving.

Wan Qi looked directly at Jiang Luosheng and said coldly, "Jiang Luosheng, don't jump if you don't want to." ”

Jiang Luosheng was stunned.

A colleague leaned over and lowered his voice, "You've dropped a whole beat." ”

Jiang Luosheng's heart sank suddenly, looked at Wan Qi, and apologized in a low voice, "I'm sorry." ”

Her solo variation, falling to a beat, was a fatal mistake.

Wan Qi looked at her for a while, didn't say anything, nodded to the pianist, and motioned for the rehearsal to continue.

Jiang Luosheng tried his best to keep up with the rhythm.

She is the youngest and most powerful solo dancer, and she can't afford to make low-level mistakes again.

But the image in my mind just doesn't disappear, the rabbit doll hangs on the school bag, dangling and laughing at her.

She struggled to dispel the images. The more she couldn't get rid of it, the more irritated she became.

Finally made it to the end of the multi-crowd dance.

The next one turned around, and Jiang Luosheng suddenly couldn't remember whether it should be left or right.

She was ready to spin to the left, and the next second, she saw the dancer in front of her turn to the right.

Another beat slower.

She panicked, and her waist slammed hard, trying to catch up with the beat of the turn.

A tearing stabbing pain in his waist. She recalled what Dr. Zhao had said: People who run before they can stand firm will fall the hardest.

She didn't listen.

At the end of the spin, the moment her right foot hit the ground, she slammed to the right.

Severe pain.

Fortunately, she reacted quickly enough, instantly reversed her center of gravity, let go of her right foot, but the whole person lost her balance and fell straight to the left.

She thought she was going to fall like this.

but fell into an embrace.

"Senior sister," Cui Lin firmly hugged her waist, surprised and scared, "Are you okay?" ”

Several people around them who reacted looked over and exclaimed softly.

"It's okay," Jiang Luosheng still had palpitations in his heart, "Thank you." ”

"Be careful, senior sister." Cui Lin let go of her.

Fortunately, he saw that Jiang Luosheng was not in the right state today, so he kept paying attention to it. Otherwise, if you fall like this, you will definitely get hurt.

Jiang Luosheng felt his ankle ache jumping and jumping. She squatted down to inspect the injured place, but heard Wan Qi say lightly: "Jiang Luosheng, come here." ”

Jiang Luosheng's heart froze.

She was really disappointing, she couldn't do anything well, made low-level mistakes, and delayed other people's rehearsal time.

It's like a piece of rubbish.

She stood up and limped out of the dance studio with Wan Qi.