I raised my hand and slapped myself in the face hard, this slap was crisp and loud, but my brain was still a mess, and when I reached out again to hit a second time, Zhang Hengye grabbed my arm.

"If you want to beat me, don't beat yourself, I'm distressed." Zhang Hengye said.

I couldn't help laughing, it seems that my idea is wrong, I feel that after Yi An's death, there will be nothing in this world that can make me collapse, but everything in front of me makes me even more broken.

"Yanxi, I'm sorry, you hit me." Zhang Hengye took my hand and hit him in the face, I struggled in a hurry, but the slap was still restrained by him and hit him in the face.

"Zhang Hengye, don't be like this." I said.

"Then don't do the same to you." Zhang Hengye looked at me, his eyes full of affection.

It was the first time I had seen him look at me like this, and my heart instantly became even more chaotic.

"Yanxi, let me hug you, and it will be the last time." Zhang Hengye said.

I didn't speak, I didn't move, and let Zhang Hengye take me in his arms.

Feeling the warmth in his arms, I felt as if I had fallen, and I couldn't help but hug him tightly. Zhang Hengye's body was stunned, and then he hugged me tightly.

We hugged for a long, long time, until I dried my tears, and I pushed him, and he let go of me.

"Zhang Hengye, do you like me?" I asked.

Zhang Hengye sighed, then nodded, and said, "I...... Lu Yanxi, I didn't just like you, I even ......"

"Don't say it. When was this? I asked.

"I don't remember." Zhang Hengye smiled bitterly.

"Isn't it Mo Yifan that you like? Is it because she lives in my body, and I look a little like her, that you like me? I asked again.

"No, it has nothing to do with Mo Yifan...... Zhang Hengye tried his best to defend.

"Shut up!" I scolded, looked up at him, and seemed to pray, "Yes, yes." ”

"Well, yes, if that's the case, you feel a little better." Zhang Hengye said.

"Do you know what you're doing?! Hehe...... I don't know what I'm doing, but I'm here...... Zhang Hengye, do you know how uncomfortable I feel in my heart, do you know how uncomfortable I want to die? This makes me feel more uncomfortable than eating the Ten Thousand Absolute Pill and the divine fetus running wild in my stomach, and it makes me want to die even more! I said.

"No next time, I just said that if one day, you want my life, I will give it to you." Zhang Hengye lowered his head.

"What do I want your life for? I don't want your life, I want you to live a life! We shouldn't be like this, you shouldn't like me! You are my master, I am the emperor, don't you understand! I said angrily.

"I know, but I feel like I can't control it." Zhang Hengye said.

I raised my hand and gave him a slap, Zhang Hengye smiled and said, "Apprentice, hit well, a few more hits, I can also ...... Feel better. ”

I slowly lowered my hand, what was the use of hitting him?

"We, can we still be the same as before?" I asked.

"I'll do to you as long as you want." Zhang Hengye raised his head and said.

"Zhang Hengye, I beg you, don't like me, your liking makes me full of guilt, I feel like a slut, a cousin, I actually let my master like me, and I am still a married woman and have given birth to two children, how can you let me face this? What's even more ridiculous is that I'm actually greedy for your hug, and this kiss, why am I so cheap! I said.

Zhang Hengye was stunned, took my hand, and said, "Really? Yanxi, you ......"

Before he could finish, I shook off his hand and slapped myself in the face again.

Zhang Hengye grabbed me again and looked at me for a while before letting go of my hand.

"Yan Xi...... You don't have to blame yourself too much, you don't have to believe it, maybe it's just hormones, you don't like me, you don't have other feelings for me. Zhang Hengye said.

Zhang Hengye's words made me feel a little better, I stood up and said, "It's not too early, I'll go back first, I still have to cultivate." ”

Zhang Hengye stopped me: "Yanxi! ”

"Is there anything else going on, Master?" I asked.

Zhang Hengye said: "It's okay, it's okay......"

I just met Zhang Hengye, and I copied his ability and returned to my room in Kyoto.

In the room, Mr. Shen was sitting in my chair and asked, "Are you moving out?" ”

"No, I'm angry with Zhang Hengye." I said.

Teacher Shen got up and patted me on the shoulder, and said, "Yanxi, don't think too much, the feelings in this world are very complicated, and the occasional correction can't settle anything, you have to remember your heart, just take your time." The compassion that we already have but should not have will one day fade away. ”

I smiled at Teacher Shen and said, "Teacher, thank you for your comfort." ”

Teacher Shen also smiled and said, "He won't do the things that make you entangled." ”

Teacher Shen said and turned to leave, I know that Teacher Shen must have seen it, after all, we have been together for so long, and he has also known Zhang Hengye for so many years.

I have vaguely felt it before, the nameless love can't help it, and the kiss of the last five hundred years is all proof that Zhang Hengye likes me.

I just don't want to believe it, and I keep deceiving myself because I really, really don't want him to like me.

Since the matter has happened, I have to look at this problem directly, I can't blindly dodge, and I hope that it will slowly disappear as Mr. Shen said.

Zhang Hengye, he has saved me so many times, and he has been so good to me, I can't even tell how I feel. I desperately think about Jiang Fuchuan, I know that I love Jiang Fuchuan. But with Jiang Fuchuan, I still rely on Zhang Hengye, how can human feelings be so complicated, to this point, can I really not be single-minded......

My heart is not clean......

What is this? Hormones? What is the nature of a nine-tailed cat? Or is it my nature...... Am I born to be so cheap?

That night, Zhang Hengye didn't come back, he fled.

I took Zhang Hengye's wine and drank a lot with Teacher Shen, but I just drank silently and didn't speak, and even the instant noodles saw that something was wrong with me.

"Master, are you in a bad mood today?" Instant noodles asked.

I shook my head and said, "It's okay......"

"Drink less." Teacher Shen persuaded.

"Wine is sad and sorrowful. Draw the knife and cut off the water, the water is still flowing, raise a glass and pour sorrow, why not turn into a cloud of smoke, let him be right and wrong. Flowing into the river and the sea into the river, thousands of wine guests in the river, guests come from all over the world, and the fallen leaves return to the roots into poems. I muttered casually.

"Good poetry!"

Zhang Hengye's voice sounded, my mind suddenly sobered up, and I saw him sitting opposite me, and said with a smile: "The disciple is so literate!" Let the teacher be very surprised, very surprised, very surprised! The apprentice can actually compose poems, let the teacher have a few drinks with you! ”

I smiled and said, "Yes, Master." ”