"The Lord has given you His strength," Dreiser, in a complicated tone, "but the Lord has always treated the Pagani family differently......

Agnes sighed slightly, and took back the seed in her hand that was mixed with blood and a cold white light.

"It's not a gift," Agnes watched as the gray-black mist in her hand slowly wrapped around her fingers and seeped into her skin, "It's just the power you have to get something done." ”

Dreiser's eyebrows furrowed and she wanted to speak, but Agnes tugged at the corners of her mouth and laughed.

"The Pagani family deduced the inevitability of my appearance a long time ago, and this also means that the fate of the Pagani family for more than a thousand years has finally come to an end......"

Dreiser's couldn't help frowning when he heard Agnes's words, but he didn't interject, quietly waiting for Agnes's follow-up words.

"If He had enough humanity, he would have looked forward to my coming," said Agnes calmly, "after all, I deserve to serve Him, for whatever reason. ”

"From a selfish point of view, I was born through Him, I am protected by Him, He is so forgiving, and I have such an intimate relationship with Him, far more than anyone else in this world, what kind of person can be more qualified to be His 'apostle' than I am?"

"It is such a privilege to be able to help Him fulfill His desires if he abandons his selfishness, and he himself hates the bloody vines and the tentacles of instinct, but expects people not to know what to do, and to be willing to fight against the inevitable pain with all his might."

"If it were His desires for me, it would be such a noble and glorious thing for me......"

"Even though you say that," said Dreiser, frowning slightly, "I still have a feeling that you are not as reluctant as you say......"

When Agnes heard Dreiser's words, she couldn't help but tug at the corners of her mouth and laughed.

"But that's what He needs," Angnes whispered, "'Undying anticipation, endless pain, the Silent One who never forgets,' what is the expectation, where does the pain come from, and what will he never forget? ”

Dreiser listened to Agnes' question, thought about it carefully, and replied aloud:

"The teacher once said that if you ask a person how he wants to die, you can see what kind of person he is, because how a person fills the void between life and death depends on the deepest desires buried in his heart."

"A person's desires determine who he is and what kind of existence he will become, and if we do not forget the deepest desires of our hearts, then no matter what happens to us and what changes have taken place in the outside world, the essence of man will not change, because desire shapes the form of a person." Dreiser said calmly as he looked at Agnes.

"Our strength comes from the desires of our hearts, from the resonance of our desires with the Lord, and if we keep stripping ourselves of our human parts, and keep our desires closer to what the Lord desires, we can keep moving closer to the Lord's existence......"

The corners of Agnes' mouth twitched a little as she listened to Dreiser's words, and although Dreiser was not as explicit as last time, the meaning still reminded her of the last time Dreiser's face was excited to say "give all I have and only want to be one with the Lord".

However, what Dreiser's words said gave Angnes an inexplicable sense of familiarity, as if she had heard such words somewhere, except that she simply called "desire" "desire", but used a different word.

Agnes listened to Dreiser's words as she searched her memory, trying to find the word in it.

“...... The teacher once said that pain forces us to wake up suddenly, and the world becomes clear and transparent in the eyes of indignation, and if someone is so indifferent that there is no pain, then he is either sober enough to be comparable to the gods, or he is so ignorant that he can only become a waste. ”

"Just your doctrine?" Agnes asked abruptly.

"This is my teacher's interpretation of the doctrine." Dreiser said aloud.

"And what about your own thoughts?" Agnes asked.

Dreiser was stunned for a moment, thought for a long time, and then said aloud: "Human desires make them try with all their might to escape the inevitable fate, but human sins and love of life often bring infinite pain, passionate acts always seem like a dying struggle, and the expectation of solving pain always seems like despair. ”

He paused for a moment, looked up with a smile and said, "But the fewer ways to solve the problem, the more active the person's thinking, and there will always be someone who can enlighten others, although many times it may not be possible to obtain or make revelations in an upright position." ”

Agnes raised her eyebrows slightly: "You and your teacher don't seem to think the same. ”

Dreiser's smiled slightly, but didn't say anything.

"Well, I can probably imagine what you're going to be like," said Agnes with a smile, "and I don't think in your case he should be called Lord." ”

"According to your teacher's interpretation of your teachings, as you have described before, you will only follow your common desires, and not necessarily a Lord with an independent mind."

"You are trying to gain power by approaching this god, and you think that desire determines existence, but how can human beings fully understand the desires of the gods, everyone's understanding of desires is different, and if you want everyone to be able to resonate with this god, or this god is not"

Agnes looked at Dreiser with a solemn look and said, Dreiser slowly frowned, watched Agnes open her mouth a few times, and finally said in a hoarse voice:

"Why do we need gods, you are asking?"

"If you want to understand it that way." Agnes said with a frown.

"I'm ......," Dreiser's began, pausing again.

"Maybe you need to discuss it with your teacher and other members of the Order." Agnes said.

Dreiser, who shook the handle under his hand, finally nodded, stood up, and saluted Agnes.

"Yes, I do." He nodded to Agnes and headed for the door.

"Wait a minute, Mr. Dreiser, I still have something ......," Agnes couldn't help but shake her head, and said helplessly.

Almost instantaneously, Dreiser's head turned to look at Agnes.

"Please, ma'am."

"I hope you will be able to take Milo to the kingdom of Rune."