His fingers were trembling, and he took her hand with his backhand little by little, pulled her hand to his lips, and kissed her fingers little by little, as if this was the only way to give him the strength to stand and the strength to speak.

"Are you lying, right? Would you marry me...... It's because you still have me in your heart, right? You're going to fall in love with me all over again, aren't you!" he asked, not only his hands shaking, but his voice trembling.

His kiss, falling on her fingertips, was so eager, like a person who is addicted to drugs, facing the drugs he desperately craves.

And her heart hurts inexplicably. Perhaps, she can lie, and if she tells a lie, then it is better for them.

But...... But she heard her own voice saying, "I'm not lying, Yu, I won't fall in love with you, and I don't plan to fall in love with you again, if you're willing to marry me, then I'll marry." ”

"Really?" he muttered, as if he had lost all strength, letting go of her hand.

He closed his eyes, and the wind by the river, gently blowing his hair and his clothes, made a whooshing sound.

At this moment, he is like a sculpture, motionless, as if he is thinking about something, and as if he is deciding something.

I don't know how long it took, he finally opened his mouth slowly, "Cancan, if you really don't have me at all in your heart, then just say what you just said to me again, okay?"

Guan Cancan was stunned, and always felt that Si Jianyu at this moment seemed to be a little different from usual. Just now, his voice was still trembling, but at this moment, his voice was surprisingly calm, almost a little calm...... Erratic.

She bit her lip, only to feel that her heartbeat was inexplicably speeding up at this moment, as if it was heralding some kind of uneasiness.

What is she worried about? What is she worried about now?!

"Yu, I won't fall in love with you, and I don't plan to fall in love with you again, if this is the case for me, if you are willing to marry, then I will marry. She said it again as he had meant.

The next moment, when Si Jianyu opened his eyes, Guan Cancan's whole person seemed to have been hit by something, and he was completely stunned on the spot.

In those bright eyes, there was a kind of dead silence at the moment. The pitch black is still the same, the depth is still the same, but there is no brilliance, as if after the splendor, it has become a piece of nothingness.

He lifted his footsteps, walked past hers, and walked forward.

One-step, two-step, three-step......

The moment his feet were close to the edge of the river, he stopped, turned to look at her, the corners of his lips hooked up a trace of arc, and a smile bloomed on the corners of his lips, it was so beautiful, as if it was about to bloom with all his beauty.

However, on the contrary, his eyes are more gray and more ...... Mourning.

Guan Cancan only felt a heart, as if she was being grabbed by something, his smile, the dead silence in his eyes, all made her uneasy continue to deepen.

"Cancan......" his voice sounded faintly, like a whisper in the night wind, "I really want to go back to five years ago, that night, when you were crying here, the person who rushed over was me." I will tell you that the person I love the most is you, I will tell you that I love you whether you have a voice or not, I will tell you that I am wrong, I should not listen to another voice similar to you because I am avoiding, because no matter how much that voice imitates you to speak, it is not you! If I tell you all this that night, then maybe you will not leave, maybe we are now, it is not like this. ”

As he spoke, the smile on the corner of his lips became more and more gorgeous, "In the past five years, I have thought countless times about how to go on with you after finding you, but until now, I know that there are some things that cannot be wrong, and it turns out that some things are not enough to make up for it with a lifetime." ”

Guan Cancan's heart is becoming more and more uneasy, "Yu, you-"

"Cancan, I want to marry you, I want to marry you more than anyone else, no matter what purpose you want to marry me, I want to marry you. He interrupted her, his dark eyes looking at her deeply.

A glance for 10,000 years, but that's it.

"But if you don't love me again in your life, then I don't know what the meaning of my life is, so Cancan, I will set you free, a lifetime of freedom. As he spoke, his long body slowly fell back.

The meaning of his life is just to love her, and then, to be loved by her, wants to go back to five years ago, to return to the beauty of that time.

However, now, her words completely destroyed the last trace of thought in his heart, and he no longer knew what he was living for.

Cancan, I really want to get your love, so much! Before falling in love with you, I never knew that loving someone can be so deep, so deep that even if you lose your life, it doesn't matter.

Cancan, do you know that in the past five years, I have been living in despair, and finding you made me think that I had found hope, but it turned out that it was just jumping from one despair to another.

Cancan, it turns out that your love can make me die so simply, it turns out that what I am most afraid of is not your departure, but that you will never love again in your life.

The moment his body fell backwards, his eyes slowly closed.

Bang!

The long body fell straight into the river like this.

Guan Cancan was stunned, and in an instant, something was cracking and shattering in his chest.

Even her mind went blank until a voice screamed, "Ah, someone has fallen into the river!" and she suddenly came back to her senses.

Poof!

Without thinking much more, she rushed forward and jumped into the river.

You can't die!

Guan Cancan's water nature is not good, the weather is cold, and the river water is even colder, but she is swimming desperately, desperately opening her eyes, trying to find the figure who fell into the water.

In my ears, there was a lot of noise, the sound of the river, the sound of the wind, and the screams and clamours of the people on the shore.

Where is he?!

She kept swimming, and her chest burned so much. The moment he fell, his bright smile, his dead eyes, replayed in her mind over and over again.

It was her words that made him choose death!

She thought that long pain was better than short pain, and she thought that the best way to get along was to tell him clearly, but ...... But he told her, and he set her free.

In this way, let her go!

She didn't have any joy, just panic, just heartache!

Suddenly, in the water, she saw the figure, quietly, without the slightest struggle, just constantly sinking.

It is said that when people are about to die, they will instinctively struggle to survive.

And now he doesn't even struggle, what kind of mood does he have, so completely give up his life?

Guan Cancan desperately swam towards Si Jianyu, to save him!

He must not die!

When she finally swam to his side, she struggled to remember the way her swimming coach had taught her to save people when she was teaching swimming. Trying to support his body, he desperately swam to the surface.

In her heart, there was only one thought over and over again, she couldn't let him die!

Without thinking about it, her strength might not be enough to rescue him ashore, and without thinking about it, maybe she would die in this river with him.

There were already a lot of people gathered on the shore at this moment, but most of them were onlookers, only two people, when they saw Guan Cancan holding Si Jianyu to swim to the shore, they also jumped down, swam to Guan Cancan's side, and helped Guan Cancan to support him.

When she was pulled ashore, Guan Cancan's whole body was very close to collapse, but she refused to be supported by others, and staggered and knelt beside Si Jianyu.

Her hands pressed desperately on the lower end of his sternum as she gave artificial breaths. Her lips pressed together again and again, and she kept moving air into his mouth.

Don't die!

If he was going to set her free with death, then she would rather not have it.

She had never seen him lying on the ground like this, drenched, without a trace of blood on his face, like a dead man!

Dead person?!

Her heart suddenly had an unprecedented panic, five years ago, she was by the river, her heart hurt, but now, looking at him like this, her heart seemed to hurt even more.

I thought that I had completely let him go, that I didn't care about him anymore, that I didn't have to talk about love anymore, that I didn't have to touch love anymore, and I didn't have to bear that kind of pain anymore. But it turned out that it was even more painful, and it hurt to the bone.

Tears kept rolling down from his eyes, mixing with the remnants of the river on his face. Her body was almost weak, but she was still doing artificial respiration and cardiopulmonary resuscitation repeatedly, as if she was not tired.

There were people around who were calling the 120 emergency number, and some people were filming this scene with their mobile phones.

Someone else stepped forward and said to Guan Cancan, "Sister, stop for a while, your current situation is not very good, it is better for me to help this gentleman do first aid." ”

But Guan Cancan couldn't hear anything at all, and in her eyes, there was only Si Jianyu. All consciousness is to allow him to live.

"Wake up, wake up, wake up!" she shouted, breathing heavily, and then pressed her lips to his lips again, transferring the air from her mouth to him.

But his lips were still so cold, so cold that she felt terrible.

――――Okay, the scene of jumping into the river, I've been thinking about it for a long time, and the foreshadowing in front of me is all for this scene, Emma! Work hard to write the plot you want to write, of course, I also hope that readers can like it!