534. [534] Is it guilt
Her teeth unconsciously bit her lip harder, he was frightened, and she herself, how could she not be frightened, frightened by the scenes in her mind.
I never thought that the truth about my falling into the sea would be like this, and her parents were never willing to tell her the truth, because they were afraid that she would be injured again.
"I ...... yesterday Entered the mourning hall and saw the remains of your parents......" Su Ai took a deep breath, feeling that at this moment, it was as if she was using all her strength to speak with difficulty, and while speaking, her hands were pulling the sheets covering her body, and every word she said seemed to bring her into that nightmarish memory again, "It also reminded me of some things, why Cancan and I were on the edge of the cliff, and why I fell into the sea." ”
Mu Ang's voice shook suddenly, his eyes suddenly raised, and his eyes were fixed on Su Ai. These days, perhaps what he fears the most is that she recalls falling into the sea.
If he could, he wished she would just remember the memories of their love, and those painful memories should never be remembered.
"You...... Do you really remember?" his voice trembled slightly, never thinking that what made her think about this part of her memory was actually the portrait of her parents, or maybe it was because her father hurt her too deeply, so it stimulated her memory to recover.
"yes, I remember. Su Ai nodded, slowly letting go of the hands that were clutching the futon, looking at the fine scars on the hands. The wounds have healed, and now there are only these scars, originally, she didn't know why she fell into the sea, but there were so many wounds on her hands that looked like blade cuts.
But now she knew, it was the wound left by the time she cut the rope with a dagger.
Su Ai raised her eyes and looked at the man in front of her, in her memory, this man was constantly shouting at her no, it was a choice question for him and a choice question for her.
"I ...... No regrets. She muttered.
His eyelashes twitched slightly, and she said the same thing when he carried her half-unconscious into the car.
"Really, I don't regret it. The corner of Su Ai's lips smiled slightly, "Moreover, it seems that the choice I made at that time was also the best choice, Cancan and I both survived!"
He suddenly became excited, and suddenly stepped forward to approach her, "What is the best choice, do you think I will be happy if you give up your life like that? Do you know?" Do you ......know that when her body fell towards the sea, he wanted to follow her, did you know that during the time he was looking for her in the sea, he was worse than dead, and did you know that he was like a madman, making himself not like a human and a ghost.
She didn't know that, she didn't know anything!
"But if it weren't, Cancan and I would only be able to live, wouldn't we?" she said.
He choked.
And Su Ai gently raised her hand and touched Mu Ang's cheek, and there was a shallow red mark on his face that she had beaten last night.
"So, you don't need to feel guilty anymore, and you don't need to accompany me like this, for me, you don't owe me anything, that choice was also made by myself. Su Ai said seriously.
"Guilt?" he frowned, "Do you think what I've been doing these days is just guilt?"
Her silence means that he is right.
He glared at her, and slowly straightened the position of his heart with her hand against his cheek, "Su Ai, I will never guard a person like this because of guilt, nor will I panic because of guilt, I don't know why, let alone because of guilt, I will not take a person to heart so thoroughly." "This qiē is just because of her.
She looked at him in a daze, and only heard him say in her ears, "Su Ai, I love you, if before, I couldn't figure out who I loved, then now, I can tell you very clearly, the person I love the most, and the only one I love - it's you!"
Her heart was beating wildly, and there was surprise and shock in her eyes, but there was also confusion......
In her memory, this was Mu Tianqi's choice question for Mu Ang at that time, and it was also the answer she always wanted to know in her heart, and now, he told her the answer, but why did that unreal feeling still follow her so much?
Or is it ...... Because in her memory, "Have we ever broken up?" When Su Ai's words came out, Mu Ang's face changed.
Her words are doubts, not affirmations.
Does that mean that her memory doesn't actually ......
"I only remember what happened before I fell into the sea, and before that...... I don't remember much about our interactions, only some pictures flash by occasionally. Su Ai's words answered Mu Ang's doubts.
And in that flashing image, she saw that she seemed to be talking to him about breaking up, she saw her own tears, and saw him and Cancan standing together, and she just stood dumbfounded like an outsider.
Mu Ang's feelings for Cancan for so many years, Su Ai is very clear, so she is also thinking, is it because Mu Ang still loves Cancan, so she proposed to break up?
Su Ai looked at Mu Ang, waiting for him to answer her question.
But to her surprise, he slowly let go of her hand, gently touched her short hair, opened his arms, and hugged her into his arms.
Her ears could almost hear his heartbeat.
Pounding!
The heartbeat was so powerful, but it seemed a little anxious.
"I'm not going to tell you if we've ever broken up, unless you think about it yourself. His voice, like a night breeze, sounded in her ears, poured into her cochlea, and penetrated into her heart, "It's just that you have to remember no matter what, I love you, only you!"
If he could, he hoped that she would only remember the sweetness between them, and never the pain between them.
But the actual fate is very ironic, she didn't think of the warmth and beauty of their relationship, but what she remembered was full of painful memories.
Is it because the pain is more impressive than the warmth that makes her remember it so quickly?
If one day, she remembers their breakup, but still can't remember all the things they were together, then would she still be willing to be with him?
He didn't dare to imagine it, so he could only hug her like this, making sure that she was still in his arms and hadn't left!
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From Mu Ang's mouth, Su Ai couldn't ask any details about whether they had broken up, and stayed in the hospital for a day of observation, and after the doctor confirmed that Su Ai was fine, Su Ai finally returned to Su's house.
As soon as he arrived at Su's house, he saw Wang Yongbing standing at the door of the Su family's house with an anxious face.
"Brother Wang?" Su Ai said in surprise.
Wang Yongbing breathed a sigh of relief when he saw the Su family of three, "I came to look for you, but I knocked on the door for a long time, but I didn't see anyone answering the door, and I was about to make a call." ”
Su's mother opened the door, everyone entered the room, Wang Yongbing explained his intention, it turned out that he bought tomorrow's train ticket, and planned to go back to the fishing village, and he came to Su's house today to say goodbye, and at the same time thank the Su family for taking care of them these days.
Su's father and Su's mother said again and again, "Where and where, you are the life-saving benefactor of our Xiaoai, if you need help with anything in the future, just say it, next time you can come to City B with your mother to play more, and then let us entertain your mother." ”
Wang Yongbing smiled innocently, "Uncle Su, Aunt Su, don't shout from the old life-saving benefactor, I'm embarrassed, I and my mother are just doing things according to their conscience." Besides, it is also Xiao Ai's own strong will, so she can get better now. ”
Wang Yongbing's simplicity naturally made the second elder of the Su family feel that this young man was good.
After chatting for a while, Su Ai called Wang Yongbing into the room alone, and handed Wang Yongbing the suit he took back from Mu Ang.
When Wang Yongbing saw it, he shook his hand again and again, "No, no, this thing is too valuable, I can't accept it!"
"Brother Wang, the gift is not in the price, but in the heart. For me, I think this suit suits you well, so I'm like buying it for you. If you don't want to accept expensive things, does that mean that if I buy you a 10 yuan piece of clothing, you are willing to accept it? However, it is not strange that you choose to accept or not to accept it because of the price of the same clothes, the same heart?
Wang Yongbing was an honest person, and he suddenly didn't know what to say.
Su Ai continued, "Besides, clothes at this price, for me, are within my power and can afford them, not that I need to pay a lot to afford them, so Brother Wang, you don't need to have any psychological burden." As long as you have a chance to wear this suit, you can wear it more, and for me, it's very happy. ”
Seeing Su Ai say this, Wang Yongbing accepted the suit without any further refusal, "Thank you...... No one has ever bought me such a good outfit......"
This kind of thing that he could not have hoped for, but now, she was in his hands.
Su Ai smiled softly, "Brother Wang, if you want to buy any clothes in the future, you can sue me online! ”
Wang Yongbing looked at Su Ai's smile with some apprehension, before, in the county hospital, he often saw her smile, obviously injured so badly, every treatment, for her, is a pain, but she often squeezes out a smile at them, afraid that they will worry about her.