"Your performance today is very different from what you usually do. Si said with a smile, "It seems that in the music, there are a lot of feelings, but it is very distant and holy, and it feels like you have made a lot of progress during this time." ”

"Really?" Liang Zehao said, "Maybe it's because of the relationship in the church." ”

"But seriously, I didn't expect you to come to the church to play. Aren't you religious?" In Si Xiaoyu's impression, when he was in elementary school, he once told her that in this world, there will be no existence of God at all!

"Well, I don't believe it, but I love this painting in the church. Liang Zehao said.

Si Xiaoyu followed the other party's gaze and found that the painting he was talking about was the portrait of the Virgin Mary behind him when he was playing.

It is a large oil painting, and the Virgin Mary has a kind and gentle expression, holding Jesus as a baby, revealing a strong maternal love.

Looking at this painting, for a moment, Si Xiaoyu understood why Liang Zehao liked this painting.

The two have known each other for 11 years, and she also knows the situation of the Liang family, knows that he has always longed for maternal love, and knows that his mother has always been cold to him.

She still remembers that when he was a child, he played with her at Si's house, and he would sobbed quietly to find Aunt Liang.

And every time, if Aunt Liang sent him to Si's house, his hand would hold Aunt Liang's hand tightly, as if he was reluctant to part.

She remembered his essay when he was in elementary school, and he wrote that his favorite thing was his mommy.

She also knew that the reason why he would always accompany her and stay by her side like this was because at the beginning, the Si family had forced the Liang family to the point of dying.

Some things, in fact, do not need to be told by adults, now that the Internet is developed, as long as you search on the Internet, many things can be searched.

Even something that is old can be found.

"What's the matter, you suddenly stopped talking?" the sudden silence made Liang Zehao ask.

Si Xiaoyu bit her lip slightly, "Xiao Hao, you said that if I didn't have to pull you to play with me when I was a child, wouldn't you be able to spend more time with Aunt Liang?"

She knew that in his childhood, it can be said that most of the time, he stayed with her, and even many times, she was noisy to stay at Si's house at night.

His eyes lowered slightly, and he looked at the violin he was still holding in his hand, "Xiaoxiao, if you didn't have to ask me to play with you at that time, maybe my mother would pay less attention to me." ”

Although he was only trading the same goods as the Liang family and the Si family, at least his mother was paying attention to him, and he would talk to him a little more than before, and occasionally when he was in a good mood, he would agree to his request.

Si Xiaoyu's heart inexplicably seemed to be stabbed by something, and it hurt slightly.

She didn't like the look with which he was speaking at the moment, with a kind of lonely melancholy, as if it were a kind of self-deprecation.

With her hands between the left and right sides of his cheeks, she made him look up, and they looked at each other, "I...... I don't like you to say that!"

Around, some of the girls who had not dispersed were surprised when they saw this scene, and many of them simply picked up their mobile phones and took photos.

Liang Zehao's eyes seemed to be covered with something, which made Si Xiaoyu a little unable to see through, "Then what do you want me to say?" he asked.

She was stunned, she didn't know what she wanted to hear in his mouth, but she hoped that he could be happier, "Aunt Liang must be paying attention to you, she is your mommy, there is no mommy, she will not pay attention to her children, every mommy loves her own children, it must be because Aunt Liang is too busy, so she will spend less time with you." ”

Her words made a shallow smile appear on the corner of his mouth.

And this smile made her stunned.

There was a little ethereal smile, but it made her heart slowly sour.

It's as if you don't want to laugh, but you're forcing yourself to laugh. Si Xiaoyu's mind flashed back to him when he was a child, at that time, she gave him a doll, hoping that he would laugh, and he gave her a smile as she wished, but this smile was the same as now.

She wanted him to laugh genuinely and asked him what he really wanted.

He said he wanted Mommy.

So, she blurted out, "Then I'll be your mommy." ”

At that time, he stayed for a while before he held back a sentence, "You're not my mommy." ”

And now, of course, she can't say the same fairy tale as when she was a child, but-"If you don't want to laugh, it's okay if you don't laugh, you don't have to force yourself in front of me." If I say something or do something that makes you unhappy, you can say it too. ”

From childhood to adulthood, he was always obedient in front of her, he always listened to what she said, and he always accompanied her in what she wanted to do.

When she was a child, she took this qiē for granted. But now that I think about it, I think it shouldn't be.

His shallow smile froze at the corners of his mouth, and then slowly disappeared.

After a moment, he said slowly, "Okay, I see." ”

Si Xiaoyu looked at the young man in front of her, his eyes were still like a veil, and she couldn't see what he was thinking.

In the past, she always thought that Xiao Hao was easy to understand, but now, she felt that he was really difficult to understand.

She would even wonder, does Xiao Hao really like her, do you like to play with her?

Or was he reluctant all along?

Her gaze looked at his countenance, then slowly fell to the Adam's apple of his neck.

Since when did he also develop an Adam's apple?

is a little different from Brother Qi's, it looks like there is only a little bulge, as if announcing that he is no longer a child, but has grown up, and is transforming in the direction of a man......

Her fingers, the moment she saw that they were about to touch his Adam's apple, suddenly stopped, thinking of what Jun Rongqi had said before, this place is not something that can be touched casually.

"What's wrong?" asked Liang Zehao.

"Nothing. She shook her head and withdrew her fingers.

Liang Zehao glanced at the girls who were still not far away, frowned unconsciously, and said with a smile to Si, "Let's go." ”

She nodded.

Walking outside the church, she glanced at him standing beside her, and suddenly realized that he had been taller than her since I didn't know when.

"When did you get an Adam's apple?" she asked.

"It's been a month or two. He replied, remembering her previous actions, and he said, "Would you like to touch it?"

Si Xiaoyu shook his head and said, "No need." ”

Seeing this, Liang Zehao didn't say anything more, but said, "Do you want to practice the piano in the afternoon?" I'll go to your house to accompany you." Didn't you still want to play Hungarian Rhapsody No. 6 in ensemble a few days ago? He has practiced this piece many times, and he is sure that he can keep up with her piano sound, and there should be no mistakes.

But after Si Xiaoyu heard this, he didn't show a happy look, but said, "Xiao Hao, you will ...... in the future You don't have to be with me like this. ”

He was stunned, and his eyes looked at her fixedly, as if he were asking silently.

She pursed her lips and continued, "We have all grown up, so we don't have to play with us like children and practice, even if you don't accompany me, the Si family will not do anything to the Liang family, you are free to do what you want!"

Since she had restrained his freedom before, it was right for her to give him back now!

His eyes slowly sank, and the expression on his face changed from mild to cold, "I don't understand what you mean by that." ”

"I hope Xiao Hao can be a little happier, I don't want you to force yourself to do something you don't want to do. In fact...... You're not happy when you play those ensembles with me, are you?" she said, meeting his gaze, "and when you and I play, the sound of the violin is very different from the sound of today. ”

She knew the music so well that she could hear it even if he didn't say anything.

So, you can do what you love later on your day off. She said seriously.

Because she wants him to be happy!

From the first time she saw him, she saw him crying sadly, and she hoped that one day he could laugh happily.

It is precisely because of this hope that when she was a child, she insisted on asking him to play with her.

Just because she wanted to make him laugh.

Si Xiaoyu left, but Liang Zehao was still standing in place, looking at the box containing the violin that he was still carrying in his hand, "Are you free to do what you want?" he muttered lowly, his fingers kept tightening, and he held the handle of the box tightly, "But Xiaoxiao, how do you know that if I accompany you to play together, it must not be something I like?"

Between her and him, the initiative is always in her hands.

Back then, her words decided his fate, and now, will her words decide his life again?

――――

When she was at school on Monday, when Zhang Panli saw Si Xiaoyu, she shouted and said, "You girl, what boyfriend and girlfriend did you ask that day, are you planning to date Liang Zehao?"

Si Xiaoyu listened, and almost choked on his own saliva, "Where did you hear that?"

"You still need to listen, just look at it with your eyes. Zhang Panli said, flipped out her mobile phone, opened Weibo, and flipped out a few Weibo posts for Si Xiaoyu to see.

Si Xiaoyu took a look, and suddenly her head was full of black lines, and the photos posted on Weibo were photos of her and Liang Zehao in the church, with her listening to him playing the violin, holding his face with both hands, and her fingers were about to touch his Adam's apple......