Either vulgar or lonely – Schopenhauer

How does the social circle come about, the intersection of interests, the desire to find a confidant in life in the vast sea of people, or the expectation to meet a beautiful woman, and her life trajectory has some blushing and heartbeat intersections, to sum up, the emergence of social circles is mostly based on people being driven away by boredom, in order not to be devoured by boring beasts, the social circle with a variety of entertainment tricks has become everyone's home, which makes their small, muddy souls that have nowhere to dock tremble happily. Pen % fun % Pavilion www.biquge.info

Why does social circles have so much magic and what does it bring to people.

The communication between people is inevitably accompanied by humility and patience, because people's own bad nature is so numerous, which makes others disgusted. Of course, most people will not face up to these shortcomings of themselves, because this is denying the meaning of their own existence from the root, and those who can face themselves will inevitably not seek to communicate with others, maybe he will communicate with others at first, but the more people he comes into contact with, the deeper the contact, if he is not lost at that time, he will find that he cannot find the path of light through these small, muddy souls, and loneliness has become a compulsory course for him, and this usually makes people crazy.

Colorful neon lights surrounded the entire festive atmosphere, and on the open-air stage in the southernmost center of the venue, rock bands dressed in black death metal shouted harsh metal music, red, green, or yellow, and the colorful lights hit their hideous faces, like crazy demons. The men and women at the open-air pool party also seemed to be in a frenzy, even if they still had tight, serious expressions on their faces.

Pretty girls are surrounded by boys, good boys patrol the hunting grounds in search of the tastiest prey, and people are constantly showing off their strengths on the stage and giving their smiles to others.

There is usually a small group in the meeting, and they are either the richest or the most powerful in the meeting. They gathered together and sat in a place that was not particularly conspicuous. They look down on their pastures, and if a sheep finds them and wants to get close to the good ones, when you get closer. You will find that there is a fence between you, and you need the shepherd to open the fence, and the shepherd needs their instructions.

"Yo, our genius writer, how the hero of the party sits alone in the corner and drinks alcohol. It was a young man wearing a black baseball cap and a punk outfit.

"I'm a little tired," Chen Yi raised the beer in his hand and touched the glass with the young man, and took a sip, "Inexplicably, I just want to sit here quietly and think about life." ”

"Yo, a great writer is really a great writer, tsk, look at this ideological consciousness, think about life," said the young man who ran to the stage where the band was singing, and motioned for the waiter to turn off the music and the top light, and the attention of the crowd shifted to him.

"Ahem, do you know the owner of today's party. “

"Do you know, Chen Yi? "Great writer, Chen Yi. "Chen Yi, I've read the book he wrote. ”............

"Okay, it seems that everyone knows, and of course what we didn't know should be known now, lights. The young man pointed with his hand to the corner where Chen Yi was sitting alone.

The suddenly turned on light startled Chen Yi, who was originally sitting quietly in a dark corner, and then covered the slightly dazzling light with his hand, and looked around the venue, with a blank face, not knowing what was happening.

"Right in this corner, just now, our great writer told me that he has to think about life, uh, I was stunned, and when I thought about it carefully, you are a slut. Rich, status, talented, handsome, dare to love you are not satisfied, but also think about life, the beauties present, what are you waiting to teach us the great talent, the big thinker, what is the meaning of life, everybody let's be hi, hi. Hi music. “

The violent dance music sounded, and the words of the young man seemed to have pressed the switch of some taboo, and the people in the field were completely shattered by the chains that locked their bodies, and they all took off their disguises, yelled hysterically, and writhed their bodies like madness.

From time to time, the mottled five-colored light shone on the faces of the people in the venue, like crazy demons. Distorted lights, distorted looks, low, manic death metal, this is a carnival of corrupted devils blooming in hell. It is a huge mouth of the abyss full of rotten stench, which wants to chew and break people even with their belts and bones.

Looking at this familiar dance scene, Chen Yi felt a trace of fear in his heart for the first time, wanting to escape from here.

"Great talent, great talent, are you interested in talking to my sister about the meaning of life, we are very interested in the meaning of your life. "Sister, I have a lot of meaning in life that I want to share with you. "Brother. Brother, I want to write a book too, can you teach me? “............

Plump, slender, charming, pure, mature, immature, cute, pretty. The warbler and the swallow surrounded Chen Yi in an instant, thick, light, rose, orchid, pungent, fragrant, all kinds of perfume smells drilled into Chen Yi's nose, and the brain was a little confused.

Chen Yi wanted to squeeze out, but the warbler Yanyan next to him grabbed Chen Yi coquettishly, his arms were full of softness and tenderness brought by touching women, out of politeness, Chen Yi stopped struggling, and teased and frolicked with the girls around him, until he began to laugh evilly and tease the warbler Yanyan beside him, hugged him in his arms, touched his little face, and poured wine from mouth to mouth, like a merry boy who indulged in the wine pool and meat forest.

Irritability, nausea, choking. An inexplicable sense of pain came to his heart, and Chen Yi felt for the first time how huge the information that his brain needed to process in an instant, touch, taste, and smell, and his brain seemed to be stuffed to explode. His mouth was full of bitter and tasteless beer, his nose was blocked by the smell of various perfumes and he couldn't breathe, his eardrums were shattered by manic music, and his face and arms were full of cold, slippery, shuddering nausea to the touch. The whole person felt like it was about to explode.

"Vomit-" Chen Yi rudely pushed away the warbler Yanyan who was around him, and vomited on the flower bed.

"Brother, are you okay, do you want to call a doctor. "Do you want me to help you go to rest and give you a massage?" ”............

"Alright, alright, get out of the way," the young man from before said and waved his hand to the girls to go away, "You kid is okay, your face is as white as paper, do you want to take you to the hospital." ”

"It's okay, help me to ......" Chen Yi paused for a moment, inhaled hard, and continued, "Quiet, place, take a break." “

"Okay, my great writer, Li Xin'er is quieter over there, and they are also waiting over there to celebrate you, no problem. “

Chen Yi nodded weakly, the feeling of nausea and tightness in his chest had already made him uncomfortable and speechless. Perhaps what made him even more uncomfortable was that he didn't know where this feeling came from, and the unknown made the fear so great that his spirit was stretched into a line.

It's about to explode.

"What's the matter, why is Chen Yi's face so bad. Li Xin'er, who was drinking with her sisters, saw Chen Yi who was being helped over, and immediately put down the cup, helped Chen Yi from the young man's hand, and asked him to sit down by herself.

"I vomited on the side of the flower bed just now, I guess I drank too much wine, I'll go get him some porridge and fill his stomach, and he will take care of you. The young man finished and left.

"Sister Xin'er, you touch his forehead to see if he has a fever. ”

"I touched. Li Xin'er put her hand on Chen Yi's forehead, who was in a daze, "No, I'll try it on my forehead." As he spoke, he lifted his empty bangs and put his forehead on Chen Yi's forehead.

"Oh, Sister Xin'er, this is a famous grass. "Sisters, you're here today. ”............ A bunch of people were heckling nearby.

Li Xin'er was also arrogant, and broke down Chen Yi, who was already unconscious, and let him lean on his round, fair thighs, and gently rubbed his temples.

"Miss Ben doesn't tell lies, she didn't mean this before, but today, this poor, weak little touch, at once aroused Miss Ben's motherhood, I want to love him vigorously, take care of him, and don't let him be hurt at all. ”

And Chen Yi, who had rested for a while, began to gradually sober up, his face was still full of cold, slippery and disgusting touch, and his hands were gently rubbed on his temples, like a grinding plate, trying to crush his brain.

"Boom. Chen Yi, who wanted to escape and sat up from Li Xin'er's lap suddenly, hit his head on the table, his forehead opened in an instant, and the blood flowed down like money, and he couldn't stop, and the sight of his right eye was slowly covered by blood until blood flowed out of the eye frame.

"Ah, Chen Yi doesn't hurt, it's okay, why are you so careless, hurry up and hold it, I'll send you to the hospital immediately." Li Xin'er's face was full of distress, and she couldn't even care about soiling the Burberry handkerchief left for her by her first boyfriend, pressing the wound on Chen Yi's forehead, beckoning to the people next to her, wanting to help Chen Yi up.

The pain on his forehead made Chen Yi's consciousness clear, he picked up a bottle of vodka from the table, pushed away Li Xin'er's hand on his forehead, poured the liquor on the wound, and poured it into his mouth in large gulps.

In an instant, the stinging of the wound, the pungency of the throat, the nauseous touch, the suffocation of the chest, and the great fear that came out of nowhere, were squeezed into a point in this moment, in an instant.

Boom!

Blood, tears, death, killing, cries, laughter. What the hell is it, what the hell is it.

"Ah——————!。 Chen Yi raised his head sharply at the night sky and roared hoarsely, like a wounded lone wolf.

What the hell is in my body.

Tell me

Tell me

What is it

Who is it

In my body

It's broken, it's broken

this world

You're laughing

You're laughing

But I couldn't see anything

I'm going to break it down

Stop breathing

Can't untie it

Didn't understand anything

Even the senses are frozen

It's about to break, but it can't be broken

If you're going crazy, you can't go crazy

Looking

I'm standing here

I stand in this twisted and mottled world

Through the gap, I can't see anything clearly

Can't find the self

Don't look at me

In this world that I don't know who depicts

I'm gradually becoming transparent

The loneliness that expands infinitely

haunts me

Unable to move, unable to unravel

Unable to move, already unable to move

Unrecognizable

Helpless

It's all tangled

Perish together