Chapter Eighty-Nine: I Don't Have a Heart anymore
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In the soft light, Augustus, who was piled up with the information of the castle servants on the desk, used the most clumsy elimination method to try to remove the nails of his castle, no way, the time he came to Alfred Castle was only more than 3 months in total, and he only had a general understanding of the servants in the castle themselves, and he had almost no contact with any servant alone, so Augustus could only take the tragic attack on Alfred Castle as the dividing line, put aside the servants who came to the castle after the attack, and focus on the maids or male servants who had come to the castle a long time ago, and the basis for exclusion was also very simple, age and location determined his thinkingγ
It was, of course, a very boring and delicate job, but considering the maid's cold dagger that night, he had to do it.
Count Christopher, who gave up his noble status and tore his face, really caused him a big problem.
Augustus was genuinely curious about what caused Christopher to suddenly go insane.
He sorted out the Chinese pieces one by one, and there was only the rustling sound of paper and writing in the study.
The door was suddenly pushed open.
Turning his head to look over and finding that it was Sophia, Augustus smiled slightly, put down the quill in his hand, and said with a casual smile: "The general situation has been learned from your personal butler? Oh yes, I forgot to congratulate you, from today onwards, you are the first order of Constantine's heir, I believe that with the influence of the Mass Doge, you will have a great chance of becoming the female head of Constantine." β
Sophia, who was obviously depressed, frowned quietly.
Although Augustus's expression and joking tone were not much different from before, for some reason, Sophia just faintly felt a sense of alienation.
She asked seriously, "Augustus, do you really think this is something to be congratulated on?"
Augustus was silent.
He is not stupid, on the contrary, having the experience of his previous life also gives him a view of the overall situation that is completely inconsistent with his age, then he naturally understands the intention of the old Duke of Constantine to suddenly designate Sophia's first sequence heir, to put it simply, the old man who manipulates everything in the family behind the scenes is using Sophia as a whetstone for the future Constantine's parents, you know, compared with Constantine's other heirs, Sophia's advantage is too obvious, and the attitude of the Mass Doge towards Sophia must not be a secret at all in the Holy Empire, so if such an heir failsOn the contrary, Sophia finally reached the top, and the Constantine patriarch with the background of the future patriarch of the Holy See was not enough to let the old man sleep underground?
What a subtle thought, but at the same time what a cruel thought.
He didn't even think about what kind of danger his granddaughter might encounter in the process of fighting for inheritance.
Affection.
For a family as large as Constantine, it was too insignificant.
Augustus, who saw through all this, must have been angry and distressed, but so what? he was just a sinner banished to the wasteland by the Empire, and if it weren't for the mercy of the Bishop of Mass, he would have been finished with his Alfred, and even now, he was a poor fellow who could not protect himself, what could he do?
Rebelling for Sophia?
Is it realistic? Does he have the ability?
The ants want to show their anger at the elephant, will the elephant pay attention?
......
The clever Sophia obviously sensed Augustus's gloom, but she was unwilling to transmit her bad mood to poor Augustus, so she tried to squeeze out a smile and said, "Will you go out for a walk with me?"
Augustus, who should have stood up, did not get up, even if he smiled, but his smile was really unnatural, he raised his hand in Chinese, and said, there is still some work to be done, there is no time.
Sophia suddenly felt chills all over her body.
The faintly felt sense of alienation quickly turned into a clearly perceived sense of alienation.
She wanted to mock and ask Augustus, oh, Sophia, who became the heir of Constantine's first order, wasn't Sophia? When will you, a damn little devil, actually feel inferior? But she couldn't say such a thing in the end, she just stared at Augustus, and Sophia, who was so strong and so strong, suddenly wanted to shed tears.
But in the same way, so strong and strong, of course, she would not allow her to shed tears, she didn't even ask Augustus again, but stubbornly and proudly said, then I will wait for you outside.
She turned.
Augustus, who was sitting in his chair, gradually became indifferent, but he finally remained indifferent and did not react.
Then he turned his head back to face the desk, calmly and steadily picked up the documents on his desk and continued to flip through them, as if he was still serious about his work.
It's just that no one can see that his clenched fists have already made his knuckles white.
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Outside the study, it was dark and cold.
Sophia, dressed in a gorgeous black and red princess dress, stood silently by the door, the moonlight was cold, there was no expression on her beautiful face, her long hair flowed down her shoulders, she stood quietly like a sculpture, waiting quietly, lonely and weak against the background of night.
She kept the same posture and the same expression, and waited for a long, long time, until Augustus finally came out of the study, and she smiled with difficulty.
Augustus, who seemed to be surprised, frowned at first, Are you really waiting here?
Sophia, still smiling, nodded stubbornly.
Augustus had no choice but to smile bitterly and agree.
They walked down the castle and quietly walked to the lawn in front of the castle.
She walked in front, and he walked behind.
It seems that there is only one step in between.
But it is like a moat, insurmountable.
"I was born in the huge family of Constantine in the empire, it seems that from birth with me, there is only praise and praise, in the eyes of many people, I am the princess of Constantine, I have the most noble blood in the world and enjoy the most brilliant glory in the world, I can have everything I want in the way I want, at least many people think so, on the surface I should indeed be the happiest one. But is that really the case? Augustus, you used to say that I was a double personality, but do you know why I am like this? yes, how can you know...... Then I tell you, when I was 7 years old, my mother died in a failed plot of my father, and I knew that this was normal, and it could not be avoided in the so-called aristocratic family, and I did not resent it, but when I was 14 years old, in order to ensure the purity of the family bloodline, my father asked me to bear a child for David, oh yes, you must not know that David is my brother, a brother of the same blood, I must refuse and resist, so the poor creature was blinded by me, and could never look at me again. Sorry, what's even more disgusting is that David can no longer have any illusions about me, but that night my father, yes, my father, Count Frodo, Constantine's current first heir, came into my room, and I dare not think about it, I dare not recall, if it were not for Mass, I think I would have died in this filthy and disgusting environment. β
"All can see my glory, but who can see the filth around me?"
Disgusting?
It's just shocking.
Augustus was expressionless, and then he vaguely understood why Sophia, who was so strong, had been trembling when she had encountered that bad thing alone in Loraine Town.
No amount of experience was enough for him to hear such a thing and still keep him calm, his nails almost digging into his flesh, but he didn't speak.
Sophia walked on, stepping on the withered yellow aconitum grass, her voice unusually calm in the night.
"Augustus, in fact, I hated you at first, not because of your civilian plan, in fact I experienced the dirtiest things, I knew that it was the cruelty you had to survive for, I really hated you because of your unwarranted vigilance against me, unjustified boredom, but then it became better, when I saw what you had done in a difficult situation, when I felt what you had done for Elizabeth, really, I would be jealous, I was really jealous that Elizabeth could have a brother like you...... Do you remember that time when Francis ambushed you in Loraine?Augustus, I did feel that as long as you were there, I didn't have to worry about anything, I must be the safest, really. Later, as I got more contact and got to know each other better, I found that I had always decided everything by myself, and I had gradually become accustomed to doing things according to your intentions, and I felt that as long as you were there, as long as it was your decision, there would be no problem, and I even enjoyed this feeling that everything was decided by you. And then, it's your ambition, you know? You're really amazing, and I never dared to imagine that anyone would try to change reality, even the best heirs of the empire. β
"I seem to be a little dependent on you, I don't know how to explain this feeling, is it a sense of security?
Walking on the grass in front of the castle, in front of the black stone tablet in the grass, Sophia stopped suddenly, then turned to look at Augustus, she smiled and said, "By the way, did I forget to tell you that I like the ivory necklace you gave me? Augustus, that is my favorite and favorite gift." β
It may be that Sophia is speaking too fast, and the topic suddenly jumps to Augustus for a while, he also smiles, but it is very unnatural.
......
Sophia didn't seem to feel Augustus's emotions, she took her slender fingers seriously, and said: "You are not afraid of such a dangerous and difficult environment, you can struggle to find life and lead your Alfred to get better and better, Augustus, you must be the most fearless person, then, even if I am the first order heir of Constantine, you should not be afraid." β
She stared into Augustus' eyes, as if trying to find the answer she wanted from those eyes.
But it's a pity.
Augustus, who did not show any emotion, did not say a word.
Sophia waited for a long time, and then her voice finally fell, and she whispered, "Augustus, I'm leaving." β
Augustus was still silent.
She bit her lip so hard that tears slid down her cheeks without warning and landed on the cold ground, she bowed her head and said softly, "Augustus, I like you." β
Augustus, who was still silent, stood in front of her, but he never said a word from beginning to end.
As the night grew darker, Augustus' eyes deepened.
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The next day, no one could have imagined that Her Royal Highness Sophia had suddenly decided to leave, and even Nicholas, her newly appointed butler, could understand why his young lady had said that she would have to wait a few days the night before, but made the decision to leave immediately the next day, and did not even bother to arrange her salute, but only decided to leave, and really told Nicholas to prepare the carriage.
On the grass in front of Alfred's Castle, Nicholas, who was always smiling, thanked Augustus for taking care of his young lady during this time, while on the other side Sophia tried to smile and say goodbye to Elizabeth, she did not reveal any reason why she was leaving suddenly, and the wise Elizabeth would not ask about the reason at all, so the simple goodbye was extraordinarily short.
She left so suddenly, ironically, that when the noble little princess Constantine came to the moor, there was no one to welcome her, and when she left the moor and left Alfred's castle, there was no one to say goodbye.
She walked away on the dry grass that was all over the ground.
Then, seeing the carriage getting farther and farther away and finally disappearing from their sight, Elizabeth looked at her brother's deep face, and finally couldn't help but whisper: "Brother, since you are distressed, why do you want to do this?"
Distressed?
Augustus turned slowly, lowered his head, looked at his chest, and made a diagonal stroke of his palm on his chest, and he muttered, "I often want to cut out my heart, but I don't have a heart anymore. β