Chapter 56: Why Can't I?
"Let's go." Rintaro's words seemed to be a little sudden, and Hoshiri Katase was startled, shrunk his body slightly, and then relaxed again, turned to look at Rintaro, and then nodded with a slight movement: "Hmm......"
Rintaro walked in front and walked upstairs with Hoshiri Katase. Today's Hoshiri Katase seemed to be quieter than before, and when he went upstairs, he just followed closely behind him, and he didn't say anything. Sure enough, the words she said yesterday still had some impact on her...... Hopefully it won't bother her too much.
Walking all the way upstairs, and finally coming to the door of the classroom, Rintaro opened the door, walked in, and came to his place. He didn't immediately take out his textbook, he decided to talk to Hoshiri Katase again to reduce the impact of yesterday's words on her.
But Hoshiri Katase seemed to have similar thoughts to Rintaro, and she walked into the classroom, closed the door, and sat down in her place in silence. I didn't take out scratch paper and pen, and it looked like I wanted to do something before studying.
Rintaro looked at Hoshiri Katase, who lowered his head and looked at the table, then pinched his fist where Rintaro could barely see, raised his head, and looked at Rintaro.
"Sakura, Sakura-san!" Hoshiri Katase seemed to be a little nervous, and her voice was a little high when she spoke, but she quickly noticed this, and then while nervous, she forced herself to speak: "I, I, I ......"
The voice became quieter and quieter, indicating that her courage was rapidly eroding, and even the head that had just been raised was slowly lowered.
I don't know why, Rintaro looked at Hoshiri Katase like this, and wanted to laugh a little. But Rintaro is still Rintaro after all, and he still hasn't really laughed.
"I can't eat people, so you don't have to be so nervous." Rintaro seemed to want to make a joke, but his expression didn't change, making him look more serious, but fortunately, Hoshiri Katase still lowered his head and didn't see Rintaro's expression.
Hoshiri Katase seemed to calm down a bit, took a deep breath, and then exhaled slowly, looking up at Rintaro again...... Then he immediately turned his face to the side.
"No, no...... Sure enough, I'm still embarrassed......" she muttered to herself as she shook her head slightly.
Rintaro thought it was quite interesting, so he quietly looked at Hori Katase, who was highly active in his heart, and then, suddenly, he saw Hoshiri Katase raise his hands on either side of him, and then slapped him in the face!
"Smack!"
This sound made Rintaro feel a little painful when he heard it, and the little teardrops in Katase Hoshiri's eyes also proved that it was not a thunderous and rainy action just now. Rintaro was about to comfort her, but the next moment he saw Hoshiri Katase turn his head and stare at him with a determined gaze, as if he had made up his mind.
Under the gaze of such a gaze, Rintaro couldn't help but sit upright.
Sakuraba-san...... Can you talk to me with me? "Although Katase Hoshiri's voice is still pitifully small, but now that the atmosphere has arrived, there shouldn't be too much to worry about these things, right? Rintaro's requirements are not high, as long as he can hear clearly.
"Hmm." Rintaro nodded.
“…… Sakuraba-san, do you care what others say about you? "Hoshiri Katase is not such a strong character, even if he has just made up his mind to stare at Rintaro, but in such a not so lively atmosphere, Hoshiri Katase will gradually become less confident, slowly look away, and lower his head again.
"Of course I do." Rintaro paused slightly, and then gave the answer: "In this world, except for a very small number of people, everyone should care about what others say about themselves. ”
"Hmm...... That's right. Hoshiri Katase's hands unconsciously clasped together and twisted: "Then, Sakuraba-san, do you think that other people's evaluation of herself is important?" ”
"Of course it's important. No matter how familiar you are with yourself, people will always be affected by their subjective emotions, and there is no way to be so objective. The evaluation of yourself by others is like a mirror that allows you to find your strengths and weaknesses, which is also a very important thing. ”
"In that case, in order to be better evaluated and to become better, it should be the right thing to do to respond to the expectations of others, right?" Hoshiri Katase bit her lower lip: "But what did I do wrong?" ”
Obviously, I've worked hard, so why can't I?
Rintaro seemed to be able to hear such a meaning from Seori Katase's words.
"Everyone around me is very good, my sisters are very good, whether it is studying or sports, Sakuraba-san is also very good, I can be relied on by other students in the same class, and everyone I know can shine in various places...... But why can't I? ”
As I said before, Hoshiri Katase is a very gentle girl, so she can find the good in others from all kinds of places. However, it is precisely because of her gentleness that she has such troubles. The expectations of others and the goals she could find became a burden to her, even her two Chiba sisters.
Probably, Yorai Katase and Hazuki Katase also knew about it, but, because they were the older sisters of Hoshiri Katase, what they said would become "tenderness for the incompetent sister", which was a Versailles act, so they didn't say it either, and it has been maintained until now. However, Rintaro is different, he is a complete outsider.
Rintaro seems to have found a way to solve this problem.
"Xingli, you think of something wrong." Rintaro supported his head with one hand, and if it weren't for the fact that the desk wasn't high enough and wide, he would have crossed his legs: "You are so gentle, so gentle that you will only see the good in others, and turn a blind eye to those that are not as good as yourself." You say I'm awesome, I'm being relied on by other students in my class, and that's not wrong in your opinion, but, you know what? I was only second in my class at the highest level. ”
Although it's because of the problem of understanding, and because they are old, they have only taken a monthly exam, but there should be no problem with Hoshi Katase.
"There was another girl who had better grades than me. So, isn't my academic performance bad? ”
"When, of course not." Hoshiri Katase shook his head: "But, but Sakuraba-san, it's really more popular, right?" ”
"It's just because I'm a boy, and most of the people who come to me to copy my homework are boys." Rintaro spread his hands: "If I were a girl, they would probably go to the one who came down in order." But do you still want to say that I'm good because I'm a boy? When the time comes, I don't know who will be hacked to death, and I will be the first to go to you. ”
Rintaro told a joke that the temperature was a little low.