Chapter 37: This Is What I Should Have

Under the guidance of a horticulturist, Ritsu Sasashima successfully found the reading room of the Kabido orphanage.

The area of the reading room is very small, only about 20 square meters, but there are a lot of books stacked in it, and the space is also fully utilized, there are no desks or chairs, only lazy sofas stacked in the corners.

If someone else walked in here, he might think that Ji Gaoai was not here, because at a glance it was empty, and it was so quiet that even the silver needle could be heard falling on the ground.

It seems to have a pair of see-through eyes, or think of the place that used to be my favorite place, which was the corner that no one cared about.

Ritsu Sasashima gently put down the paper bag in his hand, slowed down and walked towards the window, he didn't look to the side, but took the lead in opening the curtains that blocked the light outside, and his cold and deep voice softened, and said slowly.

"Reading in such a dim environment hurts your eyes."

He was met with silence, but he had expected it.

Turning around and leaning on the windowsill, Ritsu Sasashima crossed her hands around her chest and looked at the Ji Gao Ai who was curled up in the corner, holding a book in her hand, looking up at her through her... I can see myself.

At that time, he was like this, he liked to drill into narrow corners, and if I remember correctly, his favorite place to stay at school at that time was next to the most remote vending machine on the second floor.

As long as you curl up, no one will notice.

"Uncle, why did you know I was here?"

Maybe he didn't get an answer after watching it for a long time, Ji Gao Ai asked timidly.

"Because my uncle used to like to sit here, too."

"Liar, uncle doesn't look sad."

Ritsu Sasashima was stunned for a moment when he heard this, his soft gaze fell on Yoshitaka Ai's body, and he opened his lips and said, "That's because my uncle is already an adult, and adults are good at disguising their emotions." ”

"Really?"

"Really."

Ji Gaoai looked at the book in his hand in frustration and said sullenly: "Then I don't want to grow up." ”

"Why?"

Ritsu Sasashima was a little surprised, and it stands to reason that this kid should want to grow up quickly.

"Because when you grow up to be an adult, you become a liar, and my mom doesn't like children who lie, so I don't want to grow up."

Sure enough, it's still a child's idea, naΓ―ve, simple... And lovely.

Ritsu Sasashima walked up to Yoshitaka Ai and slowly squatted down, and said softly, "But you want to be a police officer, don't you?" ”

"Why do you know?"

Ji Gaoai, whose inner thoughts were seen through, asked nervously.

"Because of my uncle, I'm a policeman."

Ritsu Sasashima pulled out the book in Yoshitaka's hand, he had just noticed that the book was about criminal law, and he didn't know who bought it and put it here.

"I've read this book a few times, so..."

The book he pulled out happened to turn to the last page, and he subconsciously looked at it, and his eyes couldn't help but pause.

Ji Gaoai tilted his little head and looked at Ghost Ze Chong suspiciously, not understanding why this police uncle stopped talking halfway.

There is a childish font on the bottom cover page, and even the writing is crooked, which is the degree that the Chinese teacher will criticize.

To Sasara's surprise... Final Signature.

Valley-down zero.

- Time flies, and I'm about to become a junior high school student. Time capsules are very popular in schools right now, but I don't like them, so I wanted to secretly write down the questions I want to ask myself in the future on the last page of the book.

INTERVIEWER The children in the orphanage wouldn't be interested in these kinds of books, would they? Hehe, don't be seen. So, I'm going to start asking questions, are you ready for the future me?

It seems that the immature voice of Shibuya Zero when he was young can be heard, and it makes Sasashima Ritsu's eyes and eyebrows dyed with a gentle color.

INTERVIEWER Excuse me, have I become a police officer with a sense of justice?

Yes, and he was a good policeman who sacrificed himself for the sake of his duties.

Ritsu Sasashima replied silently in the bottom of her heart.

- Are Hiro and I still good friends?

Yes, it has always been, and they were admitted to the police academy together and became police officers.

- Did I find her in the future?

β€œβ€¦β€¦β€

No, but one day you will avenge her, the destruction that sent the angel to the swamp of hell.

"Uncle, why don't you speak?"

Ritsu Sasashima, who came back to his senses, quietly closed the book and handed it to Yoshitaka Ai, smiling: "Uncle just remembered some things from the past, Xiao Ai, do you really want to be a police officer?" ”

"Hmmm! I'm going to get rid of the people and capture all the bad guys! ”

After saying this, Ji Gaoai's eyes gradually turned red, she puffed out her mouth to control her emotions, obviously tears had flowed down, but she still showed a firm little expression and said: "In this way, my mother will be very happy." ”

Feeling as uncomfortable as being pricked by a needle, Ritsu Sasashima reached out and gently hugged the little girl in front of him, all he could give was a hug and the words he wanted to say to himself in the past.

"If you are sad, cry out, this is the prerogative of children."

"Woo......"

Ji Gaoai can't stand it anymore, she has been a child who lacks father's love since she was a child, her mother is all she has, she is sensible at a young age, she understands how hard it is for her mother to support a family, so she has long made up her mind to study hard, so that her mother can not worry about herself.

But now, her mother has been taken away by the big bad guy and will never come back...

All of her was taken away.

didn't cry for long, Ji Gaoai stretched out his little hand to wipe the tears from his cheeks, and choked up: "Uncle, Xiaoai is not sad anymore, you go and get busy." ”

The mobile phone in his pocket has been vibrating for a long time, and Ritsu Sasashima pursed his lips slightly, he is really a good child who is sensible and can look at his eyes.

Children's maturity and sensibility are not innate, but are more due to nurture. It was the environment she lived in that forced her to grow up, and it was a big invisible hand that pushed her on the back, telling her that she had to grow up quickly.

"The uncle is gone, and in the paper bag at the door is a little gift from your uncle."

Ji Gaoai nodded, her eyes following Onizawa Chong who walked to the door, until he pushed the door open and was about to disappear into the doorway, when she finally opened her mouth and asked the question.

"Uncle, did you catch the big bad guy who took your mother away?"

She asked anyway.

Ritsu Sasashima stopped and didn't turn back, just reached out and turned on the light in the reading room.

"The big bad guy has been caught by his uncle, and he won't hurt people anymore."

After hearing this, Ji Gaoai finally raised a bright smile, and that was the expression she should have.

"Thank you, uncle!"

"This is what I should."

Leaving the Kibeto Orphanage and standing at the traffic light at the corner of the street, Ritsu Sasashima struck a match and lit a cigarette, his deep gaze hidden in the curling smoke, as if he could not do everything calmly.

The sound of traffic, the sound of passers-by talking...

And I can hear my own heartbeat clearly.

If he lives, he can't respond to all things with indifference and falsehood.

took out his mobile phone and looked at the caller ID on it, and his eyebrows were dyed with a hint of melancholy.

It's time to put on a new face and embrace the darkness.