Chapter 21: Eva
After saying goodbye to Evangeline, Jonny did not stay in the Central Department, nor did he go to the Intelligence Department to mourn Mero, but went straight to the Corrections Department.
He wants to go to Eva and use Eva to contact the head of the Corrections Department, a "man" who is so powerful that no one can reach him.
Jonny, Evangeline, Melo, and Eva are all people who fought out of the sea of corpses and blood.
They are accustomed to death, and they are accustomed to death.
It wasn't their intention, it was this cruel ghost place that forced them to accept it all.
If you are always feeling guilty or remorseful about the death of someone else, and such negative feelings gradually accumulate, then one day this emotion will drag you into a situation from which you will never recover.
Someone is dying almost every moment in this hellish place, no matter how carefully arranged and carefully planned, unexpected things will happen, even if it is as strong as Jonny, there is always something that cannot be protected and cannot be touched.
Like the dead Mero.
Feelings of guilt and remorse only slow down the speed at which the survivors swing their knives, wear down their spirits, and frustrate their will. They don't need such feelings, they just need hatred and anger.
They can't change all this, they can only accept it.
The longer you stay here, the more unforgiving it becomes.
The more affectionate a person is, the more tormented he will be if he lives to the end, and if he wants to live, he can only make himself ruthless.
But despite this, the hearts of Jonny and Evangeline, who were almost heartless in the eyes of others, were still filled with turmoil after hearing that their former friend had died.
Eva, whom Jonny is going to find, is different from the three of them, and there is even a big estrangement.
Unlike the trio who slowly became ruthless, Eva was a person who was almost ruthless from the beginning, which made her relationship with the three of them not friendly.
But now Jonny is gradually beginning to envy Eva.
If you don't build a bond in the first place, you won't lose, and you won't feel the pain after loss.
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"Mero is dead."
"What?"
Eva's indifferent face changed for a moment, but in a moment she regained her initial indifference.
"I say, Mero is dead, blown up by the charred girl."
Jonny said it almost word for word, and at this moment his demeanor was not at all free and easy and didn't care about anything in the training department, but gloomy as water.
"So, what are you doing with me...... You're not just here to tell me the news, are you? ”
Eva steadied herself and tried to look the same way she normally would.
"I want you to lead the way, to meet your minister. Telling you the news is only incidental. ”
Jonny didn't see Eva's distraction, and he was now immersed in the grief of losing his best friend.
"Well, I see. I'll take you to the minister in a moment, so please come back now. ”
With that, Eva left first.
Jonny also returned to the Central Headquarters with a gloomy face, and the employees of the Central Headquarters were still discussing with great interest the matter of suppressing the victory at noon, but seeing that the look of their captain was very ugly, they all fell silent.
They can also know something from the civilian that only one employee of the intelligence department survived, and the rest, including the captain's old friend, died.
Eva walked into the bathroom, locked the door, and sat down limply.
At this moment, her eyes were lost and she whispered.
"I never thought you'd die so dramatically......"
Unlike the almost ruthless Eva, Mero cares about everyone, even clerical staff.
During their new career, they also had a lot of colleagues, a lot of partners, and a lot of seniors.
But in the end, only the four of them survived......
Whenever a familiar person died, Mero would express his condolences to the deceased partner with a look of compassion, even if it was a stranger, Mero would pray for his rest.
Eva doesn't understand why Mero was able to do this in this cruel place......
In every way, Mero is an unapologetic good guy – a nice guy who doesn't fit in with the place.
He will care about others, and when commanding battles, in order to avoid casualties as much as possible, he often rushes forward and makes himself bruised, and the most common sentence on his lips is:
"Everyone is a colleague, and it's right to take care of each other."
But the mutual care he talks about is not the same as the big mutual care that most people understand...... He can even give his life to care for others.
They worked together for a time in the Ministry of Control, and then the four were transferred to the Intelligence Department, where Mero became the head of the Intelligence Department.
During the time they worked together in the Control Department due to Mero's presence, Eva even formed friendships with others, and although they were very vulnerable, Eva had also been integrated into their group because of Mero.
Although Eva has always felt that with Mero's character, it is a miracle that she can survive in this ghost place.
However, she hopes that this miracle will continue forever...... Until today she received news of Mero's death.
To the outside world, Eva and Mero are very different, even completely opposite.
Eva cherishes herself excessively, rarely risking her life, and when she receives the news of her colleague's death, she is always expressionless, and will not even say a word of sympathy.
She never lamented the death of her partner in front of outsiders, and she was indifferent to the death of her colleagues, but only focused on the current matter, and in the eyes of others, she just wanted to climb up single-mindedly......
Slowly, Eva drifts away from her former friend.
Eva was promoted to the Corrections Department, after which she was almost cut off from the other three.
But in reality, she is nowhere near as strong as she seems from the outside world.
She was afraid of death, of the death of others, but even more of her own death.
She didn't dare to slack off a little, for fear that this slackness would put her in a place of no return. At the same time, in order to maintain her usual prestige, even if her colleague died in front of her, she restrained her emotions and tried her best to be indifferent, and started the work in front of her to prevent the fantasy from hurting more people.
She doesn't think she's doing it wrong, but it looks like it's too ruthless.
She also wants to reveal her true feelings once in a while, can cry freely, can vent to her heart's content, can do whatever she wants, and no longer suppress herself.
But this place, is not suitable for this. Here, any laxity threatens to cost lives.
What's more, her family still owes a lot of money...... Once she dies here, her family will be shattered, so she doesn't dare and can't die here.
She rarely reveals her true emotions outside, and over time, she becomes able to suppress her inner self and has a reputation for being ruthless......