"Yes." Jiang Hai nodded.

"Heck, I don't have any other ideas, I just want my juniors to repeat my mistakes."

"Repeat the past... Your mistake? What does that mean? Jiang Hai was stunned, "Is it possible... Do you regret the path you chose before? ”

Carmen was silent, she paused and said, "It's not that I regret this, but I deceived myself in the first place." ”

"Deceive yourself and say that sacrificing yourself for the sake of others is the best outcome."

"But in the end... It was at the end of my life that I realized that it was just a lie I had made to myself, and I didn't want him to make the same mistake as me. ”

When Jiang Hai heard this, he sighed heavily, it turned out that this was Carmen's lie that Pinocchio was referring to...

“···”

"Ridiculous, right? At the end of my life, I realized what I really thought, but it was too late, and the moment I regretted it, I couldn't lift my arm, my consciousness was blurred to the limit, and I lost even the strength to scream. ”

As she spoke, Carmen had the brightest smile on her face, but she said the most terrifying words.

"Can you think about that feeling of powerlessness? The most terrible thing is not that you die immediately, but that you realize that you are gradually being dragged into the abyss of death, but you can't do anything but slowly feel the passage of your life..."

"And all of this is because of my stupid behavior."

As she spoke, Carmen shook her injured arm and revealed the existence of the wound to Jiang Hai.

"I don't want my juniors to make the same mistakes as me, and what is more important to him than my will should be what he really thinks."

Jiang Hai, who heard all this, was suddenly full of emotion.

Carmen left the impression on others as an optimistic idealist, with whimsical ideas, unparalleled affinity and eloquence, an extreme altruist, a forerunner who was willing to dedicate himself to his ideals...

However, the real her is also afraid of death and wants to live, which is the real and contradictory her. This is all not disclosed in the plot of the lobe.

Carmen deceived everyone, even herself.

Perhaps, this is the urban disease that Carmen suffers from...

Jiang Hai said: "But even after everything X has experienced here, he has recalled many things, and his determination has never wavered. ”

"He has always been his true self, as you say, the truest and most unpretentious self, he has never deceived himself, and this is the path he has voluntarily embarked on."

Carmen turned her back suddenly, so that no one could see her expression at the moment, but she was heard to say:

"yes... It's my best student. ”

However, Jiang Hai was not concerned about this now, he asked again.

"In other words, have you parted ways with your past self and your current X?"

"Nope."

"We're just two forks in the same road."

"Isn't this just parting ways??? Jiang Hai's eyelids jumped wildly.

"Gee, how can you be serious, I mean we're not forked yet?"

"And maybe the two paths will be intertwined."

"In the past, you wanted to arouse people's sleeping feelings and let them find their lost hearts, but now you want people to recognize their true selves... Isn't it right for them to follow their true thoughts without regrets? Jiang Hai brain rubbed his temples and inducted.

"Huh? You know a lot about whimsical things. However, I do want people to be more realistic about their emotions. ”

"Like those children, face your most sincere emotions."

"Those kids... Is it referring to anomaly? ”

"Huh?"

Subsequently... Jiang Hai was silent, it seemed that he had guessed correctly.

He felt a little big... In this way, Adam is the one who understands the true meaning of Carmen, no, Adam is much more extreme than Carmen, and Carmen is somewhere between Ain and Adam now.

But in the end, Carmen has changed, although this may be the real Carmen...

Jiang Hai, who learned the truth, was shocked beyond words, but he didn't expect him to witness this kind of thing in person.

"No matter how nice you say, it's an indisputable fact that you have abandoned your old ideas."

"Oh, how can you be so harsh on a man who has passed away?"

"No, I'm just feeling unworthy for A."

"So, you also identify with the past me and not with the current me?"

Jiang Hai didn't speak, to be honest, he felt that this kind of shabby ghost place couldn't be any better.

Even the spiritual leader Carmen ......

"I don't think so."

Carmen was stunned, and then she turned to look at Jiang Hai again.

"Huh?"

"I haven't seen the city yet, before I see it with my own eyes... I won't judge, but if I had to choose one of the two forks in the road between you and X, I would choose X. ”

"Looks like we can't talk."

When Carmen spoke, she kept a faint smile on her face, but now Jiang Hai didn't know how to face her smile.

"No one knows what will happen at the end of this road, but it will always bring about change, and it's too early to talk about all this!" Carmen Road.

"And now we are like two caged birds, we have to look at that false sky in this world, don't we?"

Jiang Hai asked again: "You won't tell me this for no reason... Tell me, what the hell do you want to do. ”

"I've seen through it again."

Carmen smiled apologetically.

"I want to... Let you join me. ”

"Let me refuse." Jiang Hai decisively refused.

As for the reason... He couldn't say either.

He wasn't in a position to criticize Carmen, but he was a little upset.

So many people gathered together because of Carmen's original ideals, they should have lived and worked in peace in the nest, but in the end they chose this dangerous business, and in the end all the core members of the institute were buried there.

This is nothing, and the most difficult thing for him to accept is... At the beginning of everything, Carmen changed her path.

Unlike the people of the lobe, he was not attracted to Carmen herself, but to her ideas and actions, but now... Carmen wants to change his goal, and maybe the people in the lobes will continue to choose to follow, but he won't.

Personally, he is a chef A like B, not a chef C, and he will choose to support X in everything and in person.

"Oh, don't say no so quickly."

"Do you treat your savior like that?"

"Huh?"

Jiang Hai was stunned, Carmen did help him... But he doesn't remember that Carmen saved him.

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