"Xixi".

Who's laughing?

……

Xixi is a girl's name, listen to her mother, Xixi was born at sunset, the sunset was very beautiful that day, Xixi looked at the sunset and smiled beautifully, Xixi's mother looked at the doctors and nurses who were smiling around painfully and gratified, and also believed that Xixi was the most cherished gift given to her by God.

Therefore, she is called Xixi.

……

Xixi loves to laugh very much, she has loved to laugh since she was a child, even if she has suffered great setbacks and injustices, she likes to face them with a smile.

Most of the reason for this is because of her mother.

Her mother is an ordinary urban sanitation worker, and even if she is tired and tired every day, she likes to face it with a smile. She also often told Xixi that no matter what kind of person Xixi becomes in the future, she must always keep smiling. Because a smile is a treasure that will never be taken away from everyone, it will accompany each person from birth to her death.

Xixi is very obedient, and she also understands that her mother's is not easy, so she firmly remembers her mother's words, and no matter what happens, she keeps laughing.

Even today, when she was in the Go class, she was laughing when she was criticized by the stern teacher for not having a talent for Go.

Although her smile was full of bitterness today, she still laughed while choking tears.

Xixi doesn't like Go very much, because she thinks that Go has a win or a loss, and whether she loses or she wins, there will always be someone who won't laugh.

She wants everyone to laugh, so she will often wronged herself to lose.

Obviously, she is a hard-working child, and she will study Go alone until late at night every day.

Obviously she is a kind child, and every day she will bear everything because she is afraid that her classmates will be criticized by the teacher.

But, reality killed her diligence and kindness.

She looked at her mother, nodding at the stern and old-fashioned, high-minded teacher, and begging the teacher to continue to let her learn chess with the tears she had said were the cheapest.

She finally stopped laughing.

She also began to cry.

She seemed to understand that day that a smile wasn't necessarily priceless.

At least in the face of reality, a smile is somewhat worthless, and it is not even worth cheap tears yet.

She sat on the back seat of her mother's bicycle, hugging her waist, and when tears were hanging in the corners of her eyes, her mother smiled again.

Mother said that she will always be Xixi's strong backing, as long as Xixi is happy, it doesn't matter if she doesn't learn Go.

Although her mother said this, her body was trembling, and her shoulders were also high and low, as if, this shoulder, which was usually against two bags of rice in Xixi's eyes, could not bear a tear of her now.

She vowed that she must learn chess hard and hold back tears for her mother.

That shining neon sign, in the eyes of this twelve-year-old girl, for the first time, was more beautiful and brighter than the stars.

The cheap tears in the memory, in the eyes of this twelve-year-old girl, were also more precious than a smile for the first time, heavier.

……

Xixi returned home.

Xixi and her mother live at her grandparents' house, a family of four, all crammed into a small bungalow of 25 square meters.

Their room was a pair of curtains, the red one was her room, the white one was her mother, the blue one was her grandparents, and the middle one was the living room.

As for Xixi's father, because he couldn't stand the poverty behind the curtain, he left home alone, saying that he would wait for him to get ahead, and then come back to change a big house for them.

Xixi's whole family believed the man's words, after all, the man was a professional Go player.

Although Xixi's father is not in a high rank, in the first few years of his adventure, he was still able to earn a little money in the magic capital by relying on his chess skills and sending it home to subsidize his family.

It's just that, in the years that followed, he seemed to disappear.

Listening to those friends who traveled with Xixi's father, Xixi's father seemed to have taken great luck and became his closed disciple under a well-known old chess master.

Some people also say that Xixi's father seems to be lost in the bustling world and can never look back.

Someone even persuaded her not to wait, saying that the ungrateful man deserved to die.

But no matter how good or bad they say, Xixi's mother always expresses her trust in her husband with a smile. It's just that as time goes by, in the dead of night, that strong and fragile woman will always shed tears.

She hopes that Xixi can become a professional chess player.

Because she felt that only in this way would the man she had always loved come back to see her and see this home.

……

Xixi practiced chess again until late at night.

The dim table lamp reminded her of the neon sign when she just came home, how could the bright neon sign shine so beautifully, so yearning?

She couldn't remember what her father looked like, and she couldn't remember the last time she called her Xixi, when she was five or six.

She carefully opened her small plastic schoolbag with a little yellow duck printed on it, and carefully picked up a large, neatly folded scarf from inside.

She looked at the brown scarf and smiled.

This thick scarf was given by a stupid uncle.

It was a few days ago, when she went to class in the snow. A stupid uncle who met under a street lamp.

She knew that stupid uncle, because when the Go room was not open, she would always sit obediently in the chess room and read the chess games.

This stupid uncle seems to have never won against the good-looking big sister in the chess room.

She looked at Uncle Stupid, and Uncle Stupid looked at her.

She stupidly shouted hello teacher.

That stupid teacher is good, which makes Uncle Stupid feel at a loss.

He nodded desperately, then groped his way up and down, and finally handed over a hot, freshly bought large meat bun from a convenience store.

Uncle Ben was facing the heavy snow, blushing and stuffing this uneaten bun to her.

She originally wanted to do it, but the light on the corner of Uncle Ben's mouth was like the father in her deep memory.

She took the bun by mistake, lowered her head and bit the bun.

The hot buns seemed to have melted even the snow.

She gulped down the buns, and her eyes didn't know why they were sour, but she knew that the corners of her mouth were smiling again.

After she finished eating the buns, she looked at the white snow in front of her, and the dark sky above Uncle Ben's head, she suddenly felt that this world was like a Go board.

When she was born, she was not in the golden points of Tian Yuan and Xiao Mu.

She seems to have been born one by one, which is the least popular point.

Since she was a child, no matter how bright her smile is. Everyone around her will laugh at her for not having a father and her mother being a cleaner.

Since she was a child, because of the monotonous life of learning Go, as well as a strong sense of inferiority complex for herself and her family, she has not had a close friend in the past 12 years.

Obviously, she is so cute, so kind, so diligent, and so obedient!

But why, in the past 12 years, she has always been called an orphan by the bad boys! Sloppy ghosts! Even the bad boys and bad girls in the school still use popular words on the Internet, proudly ridiculing her who can't surf the Internet?

Why?

Why?

When she felt injustice for her life, the stupid uncle hurriedly took off his scarf and put it around her neck.

"Let's go. Don't be late. Uncle Ben's nose was red from the cold, his hands were red from the cold, and even his face was frozen like a big tomato by the snow.

But it was this stupid uncle who made her seem to see a glimmer of a fire that had just been ignited.

This flame is small, like a candle, although this flame is not as brilliant as a meteor or a flame.

But he seems to be able to light a way.

A narrow road that gives people the courage to move forward...