03 The knife of age, the snow of winter

"How old are you?" Wang Qi smiled and diverted the topic.

I have to say that as long as people laugh, they will always look much better than usual, Wang Qi, who was originally ordinary-looking, was like a blooming pear blossom at the moment she laughed.

"Me? I'm twenty-nine years old. ”

"Oh, twenty-nine, and I'm twenty-nine."

Wang Qi leaned back in her chair and thought of her age, she was a little helpless.

"Don't you think that the number twenty-nine may be the most embarrassing number in this life for men and women?"

"Huh?"

"Because at the age of twenty-eight, a man can still hope that he can struggle for another two years and survive until he is thirty."

"Because women are twenty-eight years old, they will always want to talk about a plain love in the last two years of their youth, and finally enter the palace of marriage with the ordinary, ordinary him."

"However, at the age of twenty-nine, men will always find that the goal they originally envisioned may be farther and farther away from them."

"Women will always find it difficult to meet him who is reliable in the last two years of their youth."

Wang Qi gave a rare account of her opinion on the number twenty-nine.

It's rare to show a melancholy light in the eyes.

At the age of twenty-nine, for a professional chess player, he or she is likely to have only one year of professional life.

It is also very likely that at the age of twenty-nine, there are countless dreamers who dream of becoming professional chess players, and the dream finally wakes up.

……

On the way home, Yang Zheng intentionally or unintentionally paid attention to the recruitment notice posted at the door of the store on the way home.

Most shops recruit people with more than 40 years of work experience and more than 15 years of work experience for management positions.

Most restaurants also offer ordinary positions for people under the age of 30.

Where did those people in their thirties go?

So where does the future go for people who have survived from their twenties to their thirties?

……

Twenty-nine moves, but Yang Zheng did not fall into the thirtieth move.

It's like the lamp above his head, which is dim all the time.

It's like the winter night outside his window, which has been cold and indifferent.

He was very afraid, afraid that as long as he fell into this move, he might let time slip through his fingertips inadvertently, and he was afraid that he would unconsciously usher in the thirty-year-old that made people feel dreaded.

He also remembered the pockmarked salesman at the convenience store.

He seems to be thirty years old.

Because of that store, it was open for ten years, and he was nineteen years old, and he bought it until he was twenty-nine.

I also saw that the salesperson had been staying for a whole decade.

……

He was thirty-three.

But he will always forget his age when he is busy.

Sometimes, I have to admit that time is like a knife, and time is like an arrow.

Swords and arrows, combined with repetitive life, can easily make a man learn to be numb and patient.

He's been numb, and he's been patient.

Otherwise, he wouldn't have worked for a full decade at this convenience store with no future in sight.

Although, he also thought about escaping.

However, there seemed to be countless shackles in front of him, trapping his feet.

The countless shackles, some are written about mortgages, some are written about ants, and some are written about life.

These layers of shackles also locked his heart that once yearned for freedom and progress.

……

He is a convenience store during the day and sometimes a part-time takeaway at night.

At most, he worked about fifteen or sixteen hours a day, but such a fulfilling life did not give him any expectations for the future.

It was only then that he remembered that he was thirty-three years old this year.

It's not small, although I have a family, but it seems that I will never be able to start a business.

Whenever he is at this time, he will remember that his life is somewhat insignificant compared to the people on the mobile phone screen and the TV screen.

The big white legs on the street, the cats and dogs led by the owners on the street, everything bustling on the street, and the easy-to-understand pop songs played outside the mall.

As if none of this belonged to him.

"Run." Every time he is always at this time, he thinks of running, he wants to run out of the prosperity in front of him, and he also wants to run out of this world that does not belong to him.

He wanted to run out of his life even more.

……

The part-time college student who took over tonight asked for leave to attend a classmate's birthday party.

He nodded in agreement, but there was also an unexpected hint of yearning in his plain eyes.

He didn't go to college, he didn't have many friends, and he spent almost one-third of his thirty-three years at this convenience store.

A friend's birthday party, so he yearns for it.

He also wants to stay home at night, and he also wants to have three or five friends who will come to him for a drink every day when he gets off work.

He wants to have a girlfriend even more, so that he can at least have a hope of going home.

But he was just thinking about it.

The life in front of him did not give him too many choices.

Just like the boss promised ten years ago, he promised that as long as he worked for ten years, he would definitely give him a good future.

However, half a year ago, he worked for ten years.

However, the boss did not live up to his promise.

Where should he go in the future?

……

Welcome.

The familiar sound of electronic synthesis, day after day, year after year.

However, the voice never seemed to sound for him.

He got used to it, though.

If one day, this voice sounded specifically for him, it also proved that he had lost this stable job.

It also proves that he has started a new life.

Let's not ring it.

The more he thought about it, the more he lowered his head.

Look at the polished table in front of you.

……

Yang Zheng walked into the convenience store and bought a popsicle.

The people who can buy popsicles this winter are either young and vigorous teenagers or middle-aged people who are full of melancholy.

There is only one word difference between these two kinds of people.

But what they see in their eyes is different.

Teenagers walk out of the convenience store and look ahead as they munch on popsicles.

And middle-aged people will find a place where no one is after walking out of the convenience store, and look at their feet with a small sip of a popsicle.

And Yang Zheng should also be the second kind of person.

Otherwise, the last time he ate potato chips, he wouldn't have started sneaking around.

……

Two cents a piece.

Popsicles at convenience stores will always cost a few cents more than popsicles outside.

But the choice of convenience stores will be much more than the choice outside.

Many popsicles that are not sold outside can be found here.

Sometimes, many things in the memory of the past will always disappear with the progress of the times.

Obviously he used to be so cheap and so delicious.

But he disappeared without a trace under the impact of many beautifully packaged new and expensive popsicles, inexplicably.

So why exactly?

Why, when things are good and cheap, are eliminated so quickly?

……

"Would you like to try this?" The pock-faced salesman looked at Yang Zheng, and he suddenly regained his spirits.

The helplessness just now was also swept away.

He picked up a more beautiful product and recommended it to Yang Zheng.

Then, he clenched his fists as well.

Prepare to have a wonderful sales pitch with this person who has been with this convenience store for ten years, just like yourself.

Unexpectedly, Yang Zheng looked at the commodity he was holding in his hand that had appeared in his memory.

He nodded and said, "Okay."

The pockmarked-faced salesman, because of these two "yes", he suddenly felt the thing that had just been pressed to make him lower his head. It seems to have flown away.

Nervous, he loosened his fist and looked out of the convenience store.

It's snowing outside again.