18 Not trivial
People just have to accept their own ordinary facts.
If you look at things from a different perspective, you will be different from before.
Just like after Lao Zhang accepted his ordinariness, he suddenly felt that his son's transformation was actually not difficult to understand.
Because in this materialistic era, an ordinary family, an ordinary father, and an ordinary life that is so ordinary that you can't see hope to follow the rules, it is easy for a child facing the college entrance examination to rebel in the ordinary center.
Thinking about myself back then, I was actually like this, in the environment of the times, when I was seventeen or eighteen, I was also very rebellious.
rebelled against his parents' expectations, rebelled against the best of times, and finally lost a lot of good days that his parents expected him to have because of his rebellion.
At that time, reading was very important, but for me at that time, the outside world was more tempting than the fluttering willow leaves in the school and the sound of reading aloud.
I'm also stupid, I gave up my good studies, hung out with three or five boys, lingered in video halls and game halls every day, and also thought that thorns were cool.
But in the end, the classmates around him all fell in love with universities and junior colleges, and only he dropped out of school to learn cooking in a small restaurant near his home.
He also fantasized about the future in which my fate was up to me, thinking that even if he chose the wrong future in the rebellious period, he could become the master of the times in the future by relying on the talent in his womb and the grand ambition in his heart.
But in the end, he realized that he was more filled with fireworks in his heart.
The thick smoke and fire made him often regret his rebellion in the past 20 years.
And now, watching his son repeat his original mistakes, he is angry.
But after playing chess with Yang Zheng, he realized that his anger was actually for himself.
He hated himself more for losing his future at the beginning.
Accepting the ordinary, he also looks down on him a lot.
He also suddenly remembered his former classmate, as the best student in the class, he was the only doctor he knew.
And after graduating, this doctor also became a beautiful university teacher, and like himself, he also has an unsuccessful child.
But his classmates seem to look at it very lightly, because his classmates always say that as a parent, you must accept the ordinariness of your children.
Because as parents, they are actually very ordinary.
At that time, Lao Zhang didn't agree with this sentence, because the classmates in front of him not only had high academic qualifications and high salaries, but even talked about people so differently that he was jealous.
If he were ordinary, there would be no outstanding people in the world.
But now, he seems to understand the modesty of his classmates, and he also understands that the word ordinary is actually a word that everyone can't avoid.
He lowered his head and looked at the chessboard.
I don't know why I seem to have lost all my yearning for beauty, and my whole body seems to be drained of strength.
For a moment, he seemed to have lost all interest, happiness and his expectations for the future.
This was the first time in his life of more than 40 years, he sat here paralyzed, and suddenly asked Yang Zheng opposite: "Is it a failure in my life?" ”
However, what he didn't expect was that Yang Zheng didn't answer him for the first time, but set up the chessboard and said, "One more game." ”
Lao Zhang looked at the black and red chessboard, he was in no mood to play now, and the feeling of powerlessness in his body made him not even have the strength to raise his hand.
He seemed to be expecting someone to deny him, to deny his whole life.
But the person on the other side was unwilling to deny his life.
"Head shot!" Yang Zheng didn't care if Lao Zhang wanted to continue or not, he moved the chess pieces and shouted.
He seemed to be afraid that Lao Zhang wouldn't hear it, so he shouted again as the first cannon.
This voice was the first shot, and it seemed to persuade Lao Zhang how to continue the rest of his life.
Just got a sigh from Lao Zhang.
……
When Lao Zhang got home, it was almost half past ten in the evening, and he only felt very tired.
When he got home, he sat on the couch and smoked cigarette after cigarette.
Lao Zhang rarely smokes at home, but today, he no longer has the strength to go to the balcony, he is very melancholy, at the age of forty-one, he should have already looked down on his life, and he should also learn to let go. But he never seemed to be able to let go.
He looked at the smoky living room, choked in his throat, and began to cough incessantly.
Xiao Zhang hid in the room, he locked the door, and listened to Lao Zhang's cough in horror.
He was a little scared, afraid that Lao Zhang would break into the door later, and reprimanded himself.
But he waited for a long time, but he didn't wait for Lao Zhang's anger, which also made him look at the textbook in front of him even more in fear, thinking about something.
Lao Zhang finally stopped coughing, because there was one more person around him.
That person has been with him for twenty years, and that person, like Lao Zhang, made the wrong choice at the best age.
She is even more pitiful than herself, because she married such an ordinary self at the most beautiful age.
But she has never complained about anything, and has been believing in Lao Zhang for 20 years.
"Am I a failure in my life?" Lao Zhang watched her open the window, and he muttered again.
She didn't answer directly, she just walked up to Lao Zhang, who was full of smoke, and hugged him gently.
"I don't know if you live or not."
"All I know is that I've lived happily with you over the years."
"You don't give me much, but you always keep the best for me."
"I've been with you for so many years, I'm quite content."
After Lao Zhang listened to her words, his head suddenly raised.
His eyes were filled with shame.
It turns out that it doesn't matter if he fails in life at all, and it doesn't matter at all whether he is ordinary or not.
Because he is a man, he must hold his head up, for the sake of his family, for himself, and face the wind.
There will always be many regrets in life, but regret will not solve any problems at all, except for adding to the troubles.
Man, you have to look forward.
Even if you know that you are mediocre and ordinary, you must go out of a wonderful way on the road of the future of life.
Because only in this way can people be worthy of their hearts, come with openness, and go with peace of mind.
Lao Zhang stood up and extinguished the cigarette in his hand, and his whole body seemed to have regained his former strength.
He glanced at his son's room and smiled, remembering what his classmate hadn't finished.
As a parent, you must not only accept the mediocrity of your children, but also accept your own ordinariness, recognize yourself in the ordinary, and teach your children how to live a wonderful life in the mediocrity.
Xiao Zhang listened to the laughter outside Lao Zhang's door, and his hanging heart finally let go.
I don't know how long it took, his mobile phone suddenly rang, he looked at the screen, and there was a message from Lao Zhang.
Lao Zhang did not reprimand him, but sent a small video of the dangers of teenager hair dyeing, and asked him to go out skateboarding together next time.
Xiao Zhang looked at his father's news, and he looked up at the moonlight outside the window.
For the first time, guilt appeared in his eyes.