The night was still as quiet as ever, and the construction trucks outside the window broke the tranquility that this world should have. The fast-turning tires relied on the power of the engine, mercilessly crushing the dull asphalt road, and wave after wave of dull roar entered the room through the glass, attacking the brains of the people on the bed, shattering the dreams of God's rare reward.

Some of the cluttered rooms were filled with the colors of the night, with curtains shining through, and the dim light of the hotel opposite was shining through the windows through the night. At this time, the originally calm room was filled with an anxious atmosphere, tracing the source, but seeing that the stiff wooden bed in the center of the room was struggling to carry the restlessness of life on its body with its own relatively thin body, probably because the life itself was a little too heavy, the wooden bed had to faintly let out a creaking wail, and reluctantly played the most suitable accompaniment for this anxious breath.

The noise outside the window still came irregularly, torturing some of the huge flesh on the bed, but as time passed, the stiff and thin plank bed finally restrained the somewhat large man it carried. The man was disturbed by the sound outside the window, and he resisted again and again, but to no avail, and finally had no choice but to accept his fate. The wooden bed suddenly made a long, painful sound again, but the man finally moved his seemingly strong body to lie on his back on the bed, and then he remained motionless, and the room returned to the atmosphere of night.

Before you know it, time slipped away quietly. The man lying on his back looked at the ceiling, his eyes glazed and his thoughts unsettled. After experiencing a short period of sluggishness after waking up, the man rubbed his eyes with his thick fleshy hands, then shook his head slightly, and then puffed out his already fat belly, and a turbid breath in his body spit out deeply from his mouth from the inside out, but finally turned into a helpless sigh.

The sound outside the window was still undulating, the man paused for the consciousness he had just regained, and his eyebrows squeezed each other in the middle, but it drove the whole fleshy face to tremble slightly, at this time, the hideous expression looked particularly fierce through the night, perhaps thinking of his uncontrollable facial expression, the man took a deep breath, and then calmed down, and then subconsciously rubbed his hands with his hands to comfort the double ribs that had just been touched by the bed when he was tossing and turning.

After waking up in the middle of the night, the uncomfortable feeling is slowly fading familiarly, the man turned his head slightly to the side, looking at the little lights that came in through the window, looking at it, the light began to diverge, dotting his vision like stars, the stars broke through many obstacles and attacked the man's brain, lighting up the fragments that had been forgotten by himself in the past, and the broken fragments slowly converged under the guidance of the light.

The taste of memories is always complicated, the man struggled to break free, then shook his head suddenly, pursed his lips, and for some reason gently moved his heavy body to the center of the bed, opened his arms, and stared at the gray ceiling with his eyes that were rarely completely open, staring at the ordinary life reflected by the eyes on the ceiling.

Looking at it, a murmur suddenly sounded in the room, "Hey, when is this kind of muddy and nightmare day coming to an end!" With a plain and long sigh, it filled the night and quickly faded.

As the owner of the voice, with a round inch of spirit, with an ordinary but somewhat hideous appearance, and a body that seems to be bulky but full of strong strength, he is performing in this world in peace, and he is ordinary. Although he is only a mortal, he has a well-known name, called "Fatty", which is also a human name and the shadow of a tree. The name is so big and the praise is so wide that women and children know it, and no one knows it.

The fat man is in his early twenties this year, and there is only more than a month left before graduation, and the time in this rental house is less than a month, but the fat man is too simple because his personal resume is too simple, and there is nothing in it that can give himself a face. In this regard, although the pressure of employment is about to come, the fat man, who already seems to be disdainful of the future, faces this complex society with the attitude of "life is a lifetime, grass and trees are autumn, blessings and misfortunes, blessings and misfortunes depend on each other, cause and effect reincarnation, and there is a fixed number", so that the fat man has not been in a hurry to make his own personal resume.

In fact, then again, the fat man in school still gets along very well with his classmates, and he has also made a few very righteous buddies, but for the school level, he can only be regarded as a dispensable invisible person, among the tens of thousands of students in school. At this point, in line with the belief that it is better to die than to live, the fat man finally successfully graduated, and had the opportunity to receive a certificate proving his campus life in the past few years, which must be a good ending for people who have a memory that can't even remember the names of their classmates.

Time is always like this, like a tireless train, but the time to stop at each station is very short, and before I have time to appreciate and sigh, I immediately embark on a new journey, but I don't know where the end is.

It's like having a short dream, and when you wake up from the dream, the fat man will also pass through the graduation station. Approaching graduation, the fat man who looks so lazy that he is outrageously still behaved and dedicates himself to making his own personal resume, looking at the slightly precious and incomparably pale words that he finally squeezed out on his resume, the fat man often laughs helplessly, and then thinks with relief: "Although there is nothing to write about in the past few years, there is no black history to hide after I have been in it for so many years, right? Although I am not good enough, I am not a bad person." ”

In the last few days, the fat man packed up his mood and dealt with the last trivial matters at this stage, and finally got his wish to get a graduation certificate that condensed a few years of time and a graduation photo that recorded his youth. Returning home with the harvest of the past few years, gently closing the somewhat heavy door, sitting on the bed, looking at everything in his arms, the fat man smiled stupidly, laughing and laughing somehow moistened his eyes. At this moment, the fat man's short youth said that he was leaving, quietly, and before he could say goodbye to his master, he was about to disappear. Looking from afar, I can only vaguely see the tail of youth swinging playfully.

The fat man finally survived another stage, and the next plot should be to pack up his mood, set sail again, work hard, and climb the peak. However, this is not the case, for the fat man, the unknown journey that he is about to face is terrifyingly empty, holding a diploma that is not worth a few dollars, selling emojis that do not represent the heart, saying nonsense that sometimes he doesn't even believe in himself, interviews, entry, hard-earned money in exchange for a lifetime of hard work to say that there is nothing to say, all day long with excitement and loss, the thrilling mood of the grass and trees, the ups and downs of life, for the fat man who is now pursuing the dull, the future is as creepy as the end。

However, after a few days of wandering around the house with the emptiness of having nothing to do and the boredom of being overwhelmed, the fat man finally made up his mind to try his luck at the job fair in the hot sun.

The sun was incomparably bright and hot on this day, just got off the car, the hustle and bustle of the venue came from far away, stimulating the fat man's normal auditory nerves, and finally came to the outside of the venue, the huge battle really made the fat man re-baptize, and also re-examined the once familiar world, with the complex mood of migrant workers entering the city, standing at the door of the venue, the gap between the sound inside and outside the venue can only be described by incomparable, and the crowded scene in front of him deeply shook the fat man's heart. Inadvertently glimpsed the bulging folders in the hands of other recruiters, which contained all kinds of certificates and medals, the fat man subconsciously touched a few thin pieces of paper with his fingers, and looked straight there at the excited and busy people, and the confidence that he didn't have much left had long been gone. "Is this really the world I'm familiar with?" the trembling question lingered in his mind, but after all, he did not blurt it out, nor did he get anyone to answer it. Putting away the chaotic thoughts, in the face of such a situation, the fat man did not choose to wait and see too much, hastily submitted a few resumes, left a phone call and went home to sleep.

In fact, after so many years in this world, the fat man still has a relatively clear understanding of himself and this society. Sure enough, as I expected, the resume I submitted did not have any sense of expectation, and there was no news, and I don't know if there was an honor to be reduced to scratch paper. A month's wait is a long time, and the family's ardent expectations and strong patience have been almost worn out by so many years, but the reality can only be faced and found a solution, no matter how cruel it is. In the end, the family had no choice but to let the fat man inherit the property left by his grandfather and collect a rent to spend the rest of his life.

In this way, the fat man finally accepted the arrangement with a smile and lived a comfortable life as people expected. But occasionally in the dead of night, the fat man's cluttered room would be filled with the smell of loss, and the people in the room sighed and sighed incessantly, until a teardrop that brought together the past and the present gently slipped from the corner of the eye, leaving a clammy breath between the corner of the eye and the earlobe, and then seeped into the body again, moistening the already chapped and dry mind.

"I think that's all I can do in this life, it's really the same as I think, but how do I feel so sad!" This lost thought followed the rhythm of breathing, from rapid to steady, until it slowly dissipated, and finally drifted out of sleep.

Then again, although the fat man at this time lived comfortably, he continued to crawl around in this world like an outcast, but I don't know if he gave up on the world or the world gave up on him.

People's lives are really long, so long that you don't know what will happen in the future, although the fat man has grown up, become a mortal, it seems that he has gone directly to the end of his life, and return to the ordinary, but the fat man who is constantly chasing the tail of youth is actually quite uncalm in his heart, and secretly confronts the world with innate stubbornness.

The fat man is also a member of the army of only children, and many children of the same age in the society at that time, with the so-called "golden key" came to this world, with a seemingly carefree childhood, living a relatively spoiled life, so that the pressure of life also comes slowly, the pressure of life is delayed, so that the fat man always holds "the time to come will come, and there is no escape, and the answer will be known when the time comes." The attitude to face the reality, and when they really "grow up", the pressure of life is not as late as imagined, but poured like a storm, the opportunity is always reserved for those who are prepared, it can only be said that the fat man is not prepared for the future, in the face of the stormy pressure, the fat man has persevered and resisted, but they all ended in failure, and everyone is gone. And he can only use the phrase "blame me!" to face all kinds of causes and effects caused by his lack of ability, and to face his bleak life.

In this way, I have unconsciously passed the nightmare until now, there are more than 20 fat people, with the unwillingness of "having the intention to kill the thief, and having no power to return to the sky", unexpectedly still doing nothing in this world, without any achievements, and of course not having any impact on the world, becoming a small fish and shrimp alive, and feeling that it is a luxury to become a shrimp soldier and crab general.

Why are you not frivolous when you are young, and people are not rash and vain your youth. Who in the world has never been young, and who has not been young and frivolous.

Like many children of the same age, the young fat man is a generation that has had dreams, but like many of his peers, he has become a generation that has had dreams. He thinks that the real dream should be to realize his dream with his own efforts.

Just as the word fairness is difficult to have absolutes, only mentioning relative, sometimes the effort is only exchanged for making yourself more aware of the cruelty of reality. After hard work, life is still the same, so it has been ruthlessly polished by life, and the fat man who has been ruthlessly destroyed by the years has gradually lost his former edges and corners, and began to slowly become concerned about reality, and he became dislike to keep his dreams in his mouth all day long, and be a person who dreams often. Everyone has their own dreams, but in the end, how many of our so-called dreams have not died because of many inexplicable reasons? In this way, the fat man has changed from a dreamer to an ordinary person.

However, every ordinary person is not simple, just as there will always be something that can be done in everyone's life, the fat man is roughly estimated to have completed a quarter of his life, and he also has his own unique story. Fat people are not always so fat, although they have been a little chubby since the day they were born, although they like sports at a very young age, but they are "fat" The word still did not get rid of, soon, the fat man accepted the first cold and biting ridicule in his life, after being ridiculed by others, the unwilling fat man immediately decided to lose weight, each fat man is a potential stock, the fat man's weight loss soon had results, and he became an athlete coldly, of course, he also dreamed that one day he could add glory to the country and stand in the highest place in the world, but this dream became extremely illusory and ethereal for various reasons and finally gave up on himself.

For young people, it may take a long time to overcome the hurdles in life. With the passage of time, the fat man gradually grew up, due to the collapse of the dream, the fat man no longer cares so much about his figure, although he has practiced unlimited martial arts for a period of time, in order to reflect that he is a person who is also a little talented in sports, but because it is just an interest, on a whim, in the end there is no beginning and no end, and it is over.

In this way, the fat man who slowly became lazy and decadent, and his body began to be blessed, and later he was jokingly called "fat man" by more people, and the better honorific title was "fat brother", but which fat man likes to be called "fat man" by others?

Time goes back to the present, and the fat man with the reputation of "charter man" can be regarded as doing nothing every day, without ideals and pursuits. One day, somehow, I suddenly wanted to prove myself by losing weight, so I once again started the bitter weight loss history of fat people. What is the pity that the fat man who started the history of bitter weight loss did not exchange his daily exercise for the appearance of the handsome Oba that was popular at that time, maybe it was limited by his qualifications or he was acquired.

The matter has come to this, if the fat man finds that he can suddenly become a handsome uncle one day, I am afraid that he will have to burn incense and worship the Buddha every day, thank God. However, the reality is cruel after all, a fat man is a fat man after all, and lazy cancer is also cancer. In the face of all this, the fat man will always be unwilling to say to reality: "I may not be blamed for all this!"

Life is back on the "right track", and the most common thing the fat man does when he gets up every day is to look at the familiar and unfamiliar "strong man" in the mirror in the bathroom, look at himself who has begun to gradually get rich, look at himself who has slowly become unrecognizable, and occasionally use the appearance in his memory to lick the cracks of disappointment in his heart.

Slowly, I looked at my own appearance, from the beginning of the anxiety and anger to the present extremely relieved, the voice of "fat man" and "fat man" in my ears accompanied me wherever I was, like a heavy hammer that shattered the original so-called unwillingness and persistence in my heart, and became an ordinary person who is now flattering and facing life.

Looking at the mirror, the fat man thought: "Isn't it said that every fat person is a potential stock in the fashion now? Why did I become the way I am now? The most infuriating thing is, why is no one willing to hold my potential stock yet? Could it be that my life is still accompanied by the attribute that is destined to be hopeless in this life and potential stocks? If I were to say, I can only blame that the fat man has exhausted his potential. ”

Often self-deprecating from the heart makes the fat man no longer care about the things around him, but in the end of self-deprecation, he comforts himself and says: "I'm just a stronger man now." If you want to say why no one is willing to hold me now, it must be that in this era when the Korean Wave is prevalent and fresh meat is everywhere, potential stocks can't stop the light of those high-performing and blue-chip stocks! But who started to say that he is a fat man, it is really eyeless price, is 200 catties really fat for me? Good brother also has a 1.8 meter, even if he is fat, he can be close to the strong, isn't tall and strong together, tall and strong are not connected, tall and strong, to put it bluntly, brother is burly. ”

In this way, the fat people who have a new life are basically living a small life in a mess, with no ideals, no pursuits, and treat the rest of their lives with the attitude that it is good to be alive, and they will soon complete the journey of so-called youth.