In the vast darkness, there is a bitter taste of loneliness.

"Where is this? Why is it so dark? Is this hell?"

"Hey, am I still dead in the end? It turns out that this is the world after death, it's really dark and lonely. ”

"What the hell is going on? I have died so inexplicably, I am really! Hey, since I am dead, I have nothing to say, but in the end I have not left anything in that world, not even the slightest influence on this world, and stirred up a little ripple. What's wrong with me? Why do I care so much about these things now? It's so dark around me! For me now, I just want to do one thing! I just want to shout to the world again and announce my existence! I really don't want to disappear like this! But what's the use of talking about it now?"

Thoughts paused, then reconnected.

"Looking back now, the most ridiculous thing for me is that I have no sense of existence in that world in my life, maybe not even a pair of butterfly wings. Now that people are dead, although they didn't take anything with them, they didn't leave anything behind, and in the end they still owe so much to that world, to be precise, I should be sorry for the people in that world, how can I be so beaten and so scoundrel! I really want to go back!"

The thoughts that spread in the darkness slowly took on a sad taste.

"What's the use of saying that now, if he can, can the Almighty Creator wipe out all traces of me in that world, as if I had never been there, or even ever been there. Isn't this my birthday wish all these years? You have not fulfilled any wish for me for so many years, can you please open your eyes and take a moment to fulfill my last wish?

However, the Almighty Creator seems to be on vacation, and the fat man's last wish has not been heard, and the thoughts in the darkness begin to slowly fall into the endless abyss, and the breath of loss slowly begins to condense into ice crystals around the thoughts.

"Well, in the end, no one wants to talk to me anymore. Well, since I am destined to disappear, then I have nothing more to ask for, but I only hope that the people I love and those who love me will live well, and I must be given a good ah, and please that the great Creator will hear my words and kindly satisfy my last extravagant hope. Really please!"

At this time, the layers of ice crystals on his thoughts somehow produced a trace of water vapor.

"In the end, I will be wanton and become a deserter from that world, but I don't have time to say sorry to you clearly, my love. A fat man who has passed away is thinking like this, but his mind can't help but be filled with nostalgia for the world that once was.

After a while, a little starlight appeared in the darkness, and particle-like points of light spread out in the darkness. More and more points of light converge together to form a huge giant screen, and in the huge screen that pours down, it shows the fat man's past life.

"Hahaha, my good grandson rides a high horse, drive, drive!"

"Cluck, horse, horse run, hurry!!" a fat boy was riding on the old man's neck, crying milkily.

And the old man also took the child on his body in the room and shouted happily, time seemed to be turned back on the old man, and the traces of time on his face seemed to have disappeared at this moment

"Drink, drink, drink!" a little kid was swinging a wooden stick in the garden, his determined and brave little eyes looking into the air in front of him, as if he were really facing some powerful enemy.

The old man passing by saw the old woman sitting on the side resting, and greeted: "Grandma Long, I took my grandson out for a walk again." ”

"yes, yes, the weather is good to come out and take a walk. ”

"Your grandson seems to have grown taller again, and he eats well at home, but now he is getting more and more beautiful. ”

"He likes to eat, and he likes to move, and his spirit is so good every day, he can't control it. ”

"It's not good to be active, that's a good thing, what a healthy child!"

"Yes, as long as he is healthy, not sick or sick, and nothing else can be expected. ”

"Well, health is the most important thing. The child who stays at home every day is weaker, and he is quite good. ”

The old man paused, and then continued: "I see that he didn't go to play with other children in such a good weather today, but he is here with you, what a filial piety, and he will definitely be your good grandson in the future!"

"Hahaha, my good grandson has always been very filial!" Hearing others praise her grandson, the grandmother had a bright smile on her face.

The little fat man on the side saw his grandmother chatting with others, and ran over curiously.

"Grandma!

"What's wrong? my good grandson. ”

"No, I'm tired of playing, so I'll come and talk to you. ”

"Good, good!"

The little fat man saw the old man on the side and said very politely, "Hello grandpa!"

The old man touched the round head of the little fat man, and said with a smile: "Good boy, what a good boy who knows how to be polite!"

"No, this park isn't fun at all, I'm going back!" said the little fat man angrily.

"Okay, okay, grandpa will rest for a while and leave, okay?"

The little fat man didn't know what he had suddenly done, and said stubbornly: "I don't want it, I don't want it!" I want to go back now, I don't care. ”

Seeing his grandson's insistence, the grandfather had to agree, "Okay, okay, then let's go now." ”

The time slowly came to noon, the sun gradually got bigger, and grandpa felt tired after walking for a while, saw a dumpling restaurant next to him, and said, "Grandson, shall we eat dumplings at noon?"

"No, I'm going back! I'm going back!" replied the little fat man.

"Hey. Sighing, the grandfather felt a little hungry and continued to set foot on the way home with his grandson

Looking at the little fat man who was reading, the grandfather said kindly: "Good grandson, you are reading, you have to work hard." ”

"Yes, Grandpa, I'm counting how many words I've known now!"

"Oh, how do you count, how do you know now?"

"If I add up the Chinese textbooks I've learned and what I've learned in other places, I'll probably have more than 1,000 words. ”

After listening, the grandfather gave his grandson a thumbs up and said happily: "There are more than a thousand words! ”

"Well, I know grandpa, I will know a lot of words in the future, so that I can read a lot of interesting books and tell a lot of interesting stories to grandpa. ”

"Okay, well, then grandpa can listen to his grandson's stories. If your grandson scores 100 points in the future, grandpa will reward you. ”

Hearing this, the little fat man silently took out a test paper from his schoolbag, gently put it in front of his grandfather, and said, "Grandpa, is this counted?"

Looking at the 100-point test paper in front of him, Grandpa smiled even more happily, "Hahahaha, count! count! Count!" After speaking, Grandpa returned to the room, opened the envelope tied with rubber bands in his pocket, took out a hundred yuan, and then walked up to the little fat man and said, "Here, this is Grandpa's reward for you, take it well." ”

"Thank you, grandpa. ”

After thinking about it, the little fat man still smiled and took the hundred yuan, and after the grandfather returned to the room with a smile, the little fat man entered the grandmother's room, handed the 100 yuan he had just gotten to grandma, and then said: "Grandma, for you, grandpa rewarded me just now." ”

"Oh, why did Grandpa reward you with a hundred yuan?"

"Because I scored 100 points in the exam, my grandfather rewarded me, and I wanted to give the money to my grandmother to buy delicious food, so I accepted it. ”

Grandma smiled and took the little fat man's money, then carefully put it away, and said with a smile: "You got 100 points in the test? ”

"Well, I will work hard, I will buy a very big villa in the future, so that you can all live in it, and grandma will also take care of the children for her grandchildren in the future." ”

If grandma lives to that time, she will definitely take care of her grandchildren. ”

"What do you say, grandparents will live a long life. ”

Hearing this, grandma touched the little fat man's head and whispered, "Well, grandma is old, just watch her good grandson grow up." ”

And the little fat man who didn't understand it looked at his grandmother and smiled, and he laughed too

The fat man gently opened the door, pushed the bicycle he had just brought up, and crept in.

"Son, why did you come back so late today?"

The mother's voice made the fat man very helpless, so he could only reply: "No, I still have a make-up class after class, so I delayed it." ”

"Oh well, you hurry up and wash your hands and get ready to eat. ”

After eating, the fat man returned to the room alone, took out a failed geography test paper from his schoolbag, and remembered the task that the teacher instructed the parents to sign after class, and the fat man's heart was very complicated.

After the fat man finished his homework, he came to his mother with the homework that needed to be signed.

"Homework done?" As she spoke, her mother signed the fat man's usual words.

After his mother signed it, the fat man hesitated for a long time, but said, "Mom, there is actually one more thing to sign." ”

Hearing this, the mother was puzzled: "Why didn't you take it and sign it together?"

While his mother was talking, the fat man still took out the failed test paper from his schoolbag and gently placed it in front of his mother.

Looking at the dazzling score in front of her, the mother was silent for a while, and said, "Why is the geography score so low?

"I don't know if it's difficult, but I won't. ”

"Didn't you listen to the class?"

"Well, I don't understand geography well, and I can't do it. ”

"And what are you going to do?"

"Go back and read more books, and do well in the next exam." ”

Listening to her son's promise, the mother said, "Okay, remember what you said. After saying that, the mother still signed her name seriously under the score

"Son, it's going to be divided, are you going to study liberal arts or science?"

"Liberal arts. ”

"Liberal arts, why? It's better to find a job after science. ”

"I'm not good at chemistry, and my liberal arts are fairly average. ”

"Aren't you good at English?"

"Both liberal arts and science have to take English exams, and the papers are the same. ”

"Oh, then you have to memorize more words in the future and try to learn English well. ”

"Yes, I see. ”

In fact, the fat man knows in his heart that his science should be better than the liberal arts, but he chooses the liberal arts because he is not interested in chemistry, who wants the score of chemistry to be only half of that of physics

"Son, the scores are coming out today, how are they? ”

"I don't know, I think it's better than the previous monthly exam results, but I don't know what the score line is this year. ”

Soon, the fat man's homeroom teacher called, and his mother answered the phone happily and worriedly, listening to the homeroom teacher's words, her face gradually stiffened. Looking at his mother's expression, the fat man also guessed probably.

After hanging up the phone, my mother said, "Hey, it's almost there." ”

"Almost, what do you mean?" thought the fat man with some anticipation.

The mother paused for a moment, and then said, "I'm almost on the second book." ”

Mother's words made the fat man's heart tighten, and the five-flavor bottle in his heart was instantly overturned. "Almost two? It's ridiculous. Although he thought in his heart, the fat man still said to his mother, who was plain and indifferent: "Oh, how many points is missing?"

"It's not much, just seven points. ”

"Oh, I see, bad luck. Mom, I'll go to the toilet first. After saying that, the fat man went to the bathroom, looked at himself in the mirror, and silently left tears

"Good brother, where are we going to play today?"

"The little fool can go wherever he wants?"

"Really, shall we go to the artificial lake and step on a boat?"

"I can't swim. ”

"It's okay, I'm going to wear a life jacket. ”

"We can't do electric ones, it's tiring to step on. ”

"What's the point of being electric, the boat has to be stepped on to be fun, and you can also exercise. ”

"What if I can't step on it?"

"It's okay, good brother is tired, I'll step on it, I'm very good. ”

Looking at his girlfriend's proud expression, the fat man silently thought in his heart: "How powerful can a person who can't even ride a bicycle be." ”

In the end, the two of them still sat in a small boat, drifting in the wind on the lake

One day, my girlfriend looked at the fat man and asked shyly, "Good brother, when are we going to get married?"

"Married?" The fat man was puzzled for a while, then pulled his girlfriend to his lap and sat down, looking at his girlfriend's shy and red face, the fat man smiled and said, "When do you want my little fool to get married?"

"Good brother said when you want?"

"Oh, well, what kind of baby does that little fool want?"

"What baby?"

"Yes, such as baby pigs, baby dragons, baby tigers, baby rats, and so on. ”

"Oh, can I have a baby tiger, I think the little tiger is so cute. ”

"If you want a baby tiger, will we get married before the Year of the Tiger?"

Listening to the fat man's promise, his girlfriend replied sweetly, "Okay." After saying that, he lay on the fat man's shoulder

The past is like smoke, but it does not dissipate like smoke, but is projected in the darkness one by one, looking at the past, the fat man really wants to cry, but he can't cry.

And the image in the giant screen is still showing rapidly, until it is frozen on the blood-stained poignant necklace, after a while, the giant screen formed by the convergence of starlight began to blur, and the tiny light points at the edge of the giant screen began to escape to the darkness on the side, as the light points escaped faster and faster, more and more urgently, the giant screen finally collapsed, and the fat man's consciousness was suddenly cut off at this moment.

The shattered points of light were scattered in this endless darkness, shining until their own energy was exhausted, and the light disappeared into the darkness. After a while, the darkness returned to the silence of the fingers that could not be seen.

Who directed the scene? In the lonely night, the memories of the past, is the ending of dyeing still worth waiting for?

When the fat man's consciousness was regained control of him, he found that he was still in a terrifyingly dark, eerily quiet darkness. But the fat man felt as if he was wet, as if he had been soaked in water.

The fat man didn't have time to think about this, he remembered everything before, remembered that the short and boring plot of his previous life was quickly projected in this darkness like a fragment, and the fat man after another experience thought with relief: "It's good to be alive, but now it's unintentional to be alone in sadness, and I've done my best, at least in the last episode." Although there are still many unwillingness and remorse, but it has become in vain, why should I be in such a situation, it is more serious, just to leave sadness in vain. But if I compare life to a box of chocolates, but I still have a lot of chocolate that I haven't tasted, can I question the authenticity of my fat man at this moment? If I compare life to a book, then my book is also a little thinner, it's almost time to catch up with a magazine or a collection of essays, is it that I walked in the temperament flow in my last life? There is quite a kind of gold and jade in the rush to the outside, haha. ”

In this seemingly endless and damp darkness, the overwhelmed fat man can only constantly complain and laugh at himself to relieve the instinctive loneliness and fear in his heart.

"But in the relatively stable plot of the previous life, there are still some ups and downs, let's take a shot.,Regardless of whether most of the plot is too boring and ridiculous.,At least the end of the script is really as surprising as a thunderbolt.。 It's just that this thunder blew me up like I am now, and it really made me feel the urge to cry and laugh! But forget it, how many times can I get drunk in my life, and in the end it still made me wanton, I'm really sorry, my love. ”

"Seriously, now I still yearn for the seemingly boring and ridiculous ordinary! Now that I have been deprived of my right to be a human being, I just want to live now, but I can only think about it, if I can really have a body, I don't want to have any other future worth fantasizing, I just want to cry again, and experience the real feeling of tears. I really want to live."

Thinking about his nostalgia for the former world, the fat man kept sighing in his heart. Suddenly, the inner monologue seemed to be spied on by some mysterious force, pushing him hard, and out of nowhere, a warm and happy white light flew towards him, quickly enveloping him without saying anything, and at the same time depriving the fat man of the right to think for the last time.