The emergency doctor gave her an intravenous drip, and He Yanshen watched from the side, motionless.

When Ji Shaotang woke up from a coma, it was already afternoon, she opened her eyes, and she saw the white ceiling and ceiling lights of the hospital, and the smell of disinfectant water also entered her nasal cavity.

Shifting his gaze, He Yanshen sat on the edge of the bed, holding the computer, not knowing what he was dealing with.

"He Yanshen?" Ji Shaotang tried to shout, his voice was small and hoarse.

He Yanshen hurriedly raised his head to look at her, put down the computer, and touched her head left and right, and the fever had subsided.

"How are you feeling?" He Yanshen asked.

Ji Shaotang's throat was dry and itchy, and it was very uncomfortable: "What's wrong with me?" ”

He Yanshen: "I have a fever." ”

Ji Shaotang's dim eyes drooped slightly.

He Yanshen helped her shake the hospital bed a little and asked her, "Are you hungry?" ”

Ji Shaotang shook his head, having no appetite.

He Yanshen took his mobile phone from the bedside table and sent a text message.

"I'm sorry." The room was quiet for a while, and Ji Shaotang spoke.

He Yanshen looked at her: "Do you know what you did wrong?" ”

Ji Shaotang: "......"

Ji Shaotang rubbed his hand twice nervously by himself, and his face was sickly pale.

He Yan looked at her with deep hatred: "Why don't you want to tell me?"

You see, you never felt like I could protect you. ”

Ji Shaotang clenched his palms laboriously, He Yanshen was right,

She doesn't believe in He Yanshen, and she doesn't believe in herself.

He Yanshen still doesn't know how Zhao Lan threatened her yesterday, Zhao Lan didn't say it, and Ji Shaotang didn't say it.

He Yan was so anxious that he stood up and walked back and forth a few times, and said, "Tang Tang, am I not good to you?" ”

In fact, it's already very good, and for so many days, she seems to be dreaming, for fear that she will accidentally shatter the dream.

She was afraid that others would break her dreams, but it was she who broke them in the end.

Ji Shaotang had tears in his eyes, looked down at the white quilt in the hospital, and said, "I want to be quiet." ”

He Yan exhaled a deep breath and said, "Even if it's not for yourself, for my child, you'd better spare your life and love yourself." ”

Ji Shaotang was silent.

When Yang Xiu brought the porridge over, only ten minutes had passed since the conversation between the two of them.

The atmosphere in the room was very dull and a little nervous, Yang Xiu didn't know what was going on, but instinctively didn't want to touch He Yanshen's moldy head, put down the porridge and ran away.

"Eat something first." He Yanshen took the porridge out of the bag, put it in a bowl and put it on the bedside table.

Ji Shaotang didn't have much appetite and didn't feel hungry.

Hesitating, she took the porridge bowl, scooped a spoonful, put it to her mouth for a long time, opened her mouth and swallowed it.

"I'm not mad at you, who are you tantrum with?!" He Yanshen seemed to be angry and said.

Ji Shaotang wanted to speak and stopped, biting his lip, and rubbing for a while before drinking half of the bowl of porridge.

She didn't lose her temper, she really didn't want to eat.

He Yanshen packed the garbage and threw it into the trash can, stood by the bed, and said, "I still have something to do, so I'll go first." What do you have to do with the doctor. ”

Ji Shaotang murong her leaving.

In the single room, the eyes are all white, endless white, as if all the hot dishes in this world are dissolved in it and swallowed by it.

She struggled to look at the sky outside the window, it was gloomy and seemed to rain.

The windows that were half-opened for ventilation had a steady stream of wind blowing in, and it was a little cold.

At the beginning of October, it was cloudy.

He Yanshen sat on the bench downstairs in the hospital, holding a cigarette between his index and middle fingers, not lit, just clipping.

The cold wind carries the fallen leaves from far and near, and the PM2.5 in the air is visible to the naked eye, and the weather is gloomy and it seems that it will rain soon.

He played with the cigarette in his hand, his brows furrowed tightly, and he looked like no one was going to approach.

"What am I going to do with you?"

A deep sense of powerlessness welled up in his heart, and he felt as if he really couldn't do anything more.

Is it that he was wrong from the beginning?

There were so many ways to get revenge on them, and he chose the most extreme one.

He has been thinking about it for six years, and six years is just a period of time in the eyes of others, and it has indeed been a real six years for him.

For six years, he made himself a fine score, and his mental illness was so sick that he couldn't control it, and then let them punish them one by one.

However, he seemed to be getting farther and farther away from Ji Shaotang.

Wouldn't it have been different if he had made his intentions clear from the beginning, and then retaliated against them in another way?

However, he couldn't go back to the past, and he didn't regret it.

He thought it was a must-win marathon, but in fact he lost completely.

You see, you think you protected Ji Shaotang, but in fact, you didn't do anything for her at all.

Even if Ji Guohang brings down the Ji family, even if Zhao Lan is strong and middle-class, even if Ji Xibai goes to prison, the damage caused to her by these people will continue, and it will never continue.

He didn't do anything at all!

It's all fucking futile!

He Yanshen raised his hand, covered his face, and laughed mockingly, laughing at his own incompetence and his self-righteousness.

Self-righteousness, how terrible.

You see, you think you pulled her out of the abyss, but in fact you didn't, you work hard next to the abyss, she will only sink deeper and deeper, and if you are not careful, you will also fall into it.

It's too painful.

When Ji Shaotang woke up again, it was already eight o'clock in the evening.

He Yanshen sat quietly on the sofa next to her like when she woke up in the afternoon, this time, he didn't look at the computer, his eyes stared at her without blinking, and his eyes were still a little red.

Ji Shaotang chuckled in his heart.

He Yanshen saw that she was awake and said, "I'll send you out of here." ”

He didn't want to fight the abyss anymore, and he didn't want to fall into the abyss.

Ji Shaotang looked at him in surprise: "Why?" ”

"Do you like it here?" He Yanshen didn't answer her question, but asked her.

Ji Shaotang didn't know, he couldn't talk about liking it, he couldn't talk about disliking it, he just got used to it.

Accustomed to the spring, summer, autumn and winter here, accustomed to every day here, and accustomed to the place where she lives, accustomed to two points and one line, and accustomed to ninety-nine-six.

I want to be here when I'm used to it, and if I want to leave, it's not that I haven't thought about it.

The winter in City B was too cold for her to like.

In fact, she should have wanted to leave, otherwise, why would she have to finish that thesis without sleeping or eating.

Otherwise, why would she have to study abroad?

A long time ago, I also thought about it, leaving here, leaving He Yanshen.

So now, does she have a chance to leave?

"I don't like it." Ji Shaotang answered his question.

He Yanshen nodded: "Very good." Pack your things when you get home, and I'll get you out of here. ”

Is it so fast? She didn't like it, but she hadn't promised him to leave.

"I'm sorry, I can't." At least she had to wait until the paper was finished and she was sent away in the hospital.