Gao Qiuniang already knew the murderous news that the eldest grandson Wunai had died in battle, but she had not yet informed the Zhen family.

Zhen has not received news from Lang Jun for many days, and has a premonition that there will be more luck than evil.

For several days, she always washed her face with tears, looked sluggish, and was bedridden.

Gao Qiuniang came to visit her every day, and saw that Zhen had not thought about tea and dinner all day, and her expression was in a trance, and she lost the courage to tell her the truth.

The atmosphere of the entire Changsun General's Mansion has also become solemn, and there is no laughter and noise in the past.

The slaves and servants were cautious one by one, for fear of angering their masters by a little accident.

It can only be concealed for one day, it is one day.

Gao Qiuniang has nothing to do.

She comforted Zhen and said: "Now that the war is still in turmoil and the news is not smooth, maybe in a few days, there will be news of Dalang." ”

"The three children still need to be taken care of, so you have to take care of the children mentally. In case there is a mistake, when Da Lang comes back, how will you explain to him? ”

In fact, Gao Qiuniang understands that the death of the eldest grandson Wunai will not be hidden sooner or later.

The hope in Zhen's heart is getting slimmer and slimmer, and only by letting her slowly accept the reality can she gradually come out of despair. Gao Qiuniang tried to use the child to re-prop up the spiritual pillar in Zhen's heart.

For Zhen, the eldest grandson is the heaven of her and her three children, and is their most powerful protection. With the eldest grandson, Wunai, she and her children can live in safety and protection.

Although the eldest grandson is a concubine, after all, he is already a five-grade official in the dynasty, and whether he is a concubine or not has little impact on him and Zhen's mother and son. Leaving the Eldest Sun General's Mansion, their small family will still be alive and well.

However, once there is no eldest grandson, the orphans and widows of this concubine have almost no place to stand in the eldest grandson general's mansion. Even the house slaves may not look at them properly.

Living in the eyes of the eldest grandson Wuxian and Helan Niangzi, begging for food under their roofs, it is really better to live than to die.

Without the eldest grandson, Zhen almost lost the courage to live.

Zhen Shi looked at the top of the bed blankly with red and swollen eyes, and muttered to himself: "Without Lang Jun, how can we live as a mother and son?" ”

Gao Qiuniang took Zhen's hand and said, "Let's not say that I don't know if Da Lang has an accident, even if there is bad news, your father will not let go of your mother and son." ”

Zhen complained: "I also know that my father will not ignore our mother and son, but if he can manage it for a while, he can't manage it for a lifetime, and there will always be a time when he can't control it." ”

Zhen's words, the speaker was unintentional, and the listener was intentional, but it just poked Gao Qiuniang's sore spot.

Gao Qiuniang also looked gloomy when she heard this.

The husband is old and the children are young, what happened to her, and how should she and the children deal with themselves?

It's scary to think about.

Zhen's mind was in turmoil.

How could she have thought that her words touched Gao Qiuniang's inner uneasiness.

But Gao Qiuniang is not an ordinary woman after all, she has her own thoughts and opinions.

She knows that it is better to seek others than to seek herself, and no matter how difficult she encounters, as long as her spirit does not fall, she will get through.

Do the living stay in the past except the dead? No matter how hard it is, isn't it all coming over?

The grief of many years ago, after the wear and tear of time and healing, will slowly heal the wounds of the soul, won't they all become loved, laughing, and light?

All the relatives who have passed away are left in the memory of good memories, and that smile will become a treasure worth recalling with the brewing of time.

Gao Qiuniang gently held Zhen's slightly cold hand, hoping to pass on her strength to her.

She knew that it was not time to really untie Zhen's heart knot.

We have to wait until Eldest Sun Sheng comes back and let her know about the death of Eldest Sun Wunai. Let her go through the heart-rending pain one more time, and after a complete emotional release, she will truly come out of despair.

Gao Qiuniang said something that relieved Zhen's heart, helped her pull the quilt and covered it, and said to the maidservant Zijuan: "Let your lady sleep well and eat as much as possible." Something makes people come and call me. ”

Zijuan promised, and Gao Qiuniang left the west courtyard and returned to the upper room.

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During this period of time, Gao Qiuniang's heart was always unclean.

While remembering the war in the north, he also has to take care of the Zhen family.

On the other side of Chongrenli, there was news that his father was seriously ill.

In the war in the north, the eldest grandson general's mansion involved two people, and they are both key figures in charge of the family, which makes people worry from time to time, and the father's illness is getting worse day by day, how can the daughter rest assured.

I just came back from the West Courtyard, and I thought about going to Chongren to have a look.

Gao Qiuniang was busy on both sides for several days, and soon it was the end of September.

Changsun Sheng returned to Beijing from Xiangzhou.

When he came back this time, Changsun Sheng did not notify his family in advance, but took two entourages to return home directly.

In the study room of the outer courtyard, Changsun Sheng met with Changsun Wuyi and Changsun Wuxian first, and briefly introduced to the two of them the relevant circumstances of Changsun Wunai's death in battle. Then he returned to the inner courtyard.

Seeing Gao Qiuniang, the eldest grandson Sheng pretended to be smiling, showing a relaxed appearance in front of his wife.

After bathing and changing clothes, Changsun Sheng sat on the Luohan bed with a solemn expression.

Yuhan knew that Lord Lang and his mother had important things to say, so he called the other slaves and maids to retreat together and covered the door.

Gao Qiuniang understood the sorrow in Changsun Sheng's heart, and did not take the initiative to ask about the counterinsurgency and Changsun Wunai, but sat down next to Changsun Sheng, silently leaning on his left leg, and resting his head in his arms.

Changsun Sheng stretched out his left arm to wrap his arms around his wife's back, and his right hand lightly held his wife's left hand.

Neither of them spoke, just snuggled up to each other, letting time pass quietly.

Gao Qiuniang knows that when a man is lost, what he needs is not to be appeased, but to prop up his self-esteem and make him feel that he is a protector, not a protected one.

In front of the weak, he will consciously assume the responsibility of a protector, and at this time he will not allow himself to be weak, and his heart will automatically become stronger.

Gently pinching his wife's silky and tender white soft wattles, hugging her soft waist, smelling her soft fragrance, and looking at the little bird's delicate wife with pity, Changsun Sheng felt that he was a strong man, a mountain that would not fall, and he was willing to give everything to protect her.

He closed his eyes slightly, moved his left hand to grab his wife's shoulder, and whispered, "During this time, are you worried all day long?" You see, haven't I come back safely now? ”

Gao Qiuniang wrapped her arms around Changsun Sheng's waist, raised her face slightly, looked at Changsun Sheng, and said "um" gently, which was regarded as answering her husband's question.

Changsun Sheng brushed his wife's hair again, kissed her lightly on the forehead, and said:

"This time, the king of Han rebelled, and more than 200,000 families were killed and exiled, implicating millions of people."

"Loyalty and filial piety, killing and becoming benevolent, not only will not affect the family, but will also be praised by the court, glorify the ancestors, and shadow the descendants. Although it is a pity to die young, it is worthy of heaven and earth, and he is a dignified man, and he has come to this world in vain. ”

Speaking of this, Changsun Sheng's slightly closed eyes were already filled with tears, and he said abruptly: "It's just that I pity my son, I still don't know where he is buried." ”

Gao Qiuniang sat up straight, took out a handkerchief, helped Chang Sun Sheng wipe away her tears, and said:

"Since the husband knows that Da Lang died without regrets, he must relax his mind and not be too sad."

"The dead are gone. Da Lang is in the spirit of the sky, I don't want to see my father sad for him, I would rather see you in good health, and your wife and children are safe. ”

"Only when we settle the eldest lady and the three children can we comfort him in the spirit of heaven and make him smile at Jiuquan."

Changsun Sheng nodded and said, "I understand this in my heart. I wonder if the lady knows about this? ”

Gao Qiuniang said: "I haven't told her yet, but these days I have been washing my face with tears all day long, and my expression is in a trance, as if I have guessed eight or nine points." ”

Changsun Sheng sighed: "It's not a way to hide it like this after all, if it drags on for a long time, it will hurt Da Lang's body a lot, it's better to tell her as soon as possible, after the grief is released, she will accept the reality." ”

Gao Qiuniang said: "Do you want to tell her today?" ”

Changsun Sheng said: "Today, today!" You bring Erlang and Sanlang Niang, and a few people will comfort you. ”

"Let her know that in the near future, the court may praise Xingbu, she will be enthroned, and the child will enjoy the grace of the shadow."

That way she won't feel hopeless about the rest of her life. Don't tell her that Xingbu's bones weren't found. It is said that it has been buried on the spot, and after being praised by the imperial court, it will be reburied as an official posthumously. ”

Gao Qiuniang said: "The concubine knows, or the husband is thoughtful." So he got up and got off the Luohan bed, sat down opposite the cases, and then called Yuhan to come in and asked her to invite the Ku clan and the Helan clan to wait in the front hall.

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Gao Qiuniang, Ku Clan, and Helan Clan came to the eldest grandson Wunai Courtyard together.

Seeing that Zhen was still lying on the bed, her eyes were swollen and her eyes were glazed, looking at that pitiful appearance, Gao Qiuniang really couldn't bear to tell her the truth.

At this time, telling her that Xingbu is no longer there is equivalent to sprinkling another handful of salt on the wound.

But the long pain is not as good as the short pain, Gao Qiuniang took Zhen's hand and asked softly: "Da Lang Niang, are you better?" Want to eat? ”

Zhen shook his head weakly and did not speak.

Gao Qiuniang looked at Zhen and said, "Your father has returned, and there is news of Xingbu." ”

This sentence attracted Zhen's attention, and his eyes in a trance focused on Gao Qiuniang's face and met her gaze.

The light in his eyes flashed, as if on the verge of dying, he saw the hope of life.

Zhen asked anxiously, "Is he okay?" ”

Gao Qiuniang grabbed Zhen's hand and choked up: "You have to take care, Xingbu is no longer there." ”

After speaking, Gao Qiuniang could no longer hold back the tears in her eyes and hurriedly avoided Zhen's gaze.

Zhen was stunned for a moment, as if savoring the meaning of this sentence, and then hissed, and then closed his breath.

Gao Qiuniang hurriedly pressed Zhen's middle man with her thumb, and it took a while for Zhen to wake up.

He kept crying loudly, "How can you let me live?" ”

"How are you going to let me live?" ......

The cry was heartbreaking.

Everyone in the room had tears in their eyes.

Gao Qiuniang said: "If you want to cry, cry loudly, it will be better to cry." ”

While allowing Zhen to cry loudly, Gao Qiuniang said softly and discussed with the eldest grandson.

Regardless of whether Zhen listened to it or not, after a while, Gao Qiuniang continued to say the words of persuasion again.

In this way, Zhen's crying stopped, Gao Qiuniang's comforting words were said over and over again, these words seemed to have a certain effect, and Zhen slowly quieted down.

When they stopped their grief, Zhen seemed to be exhausted, and they seemed to be thinking, thinking about what the future of their mother and son would be like without the days when there was no eldest grandson.

Gao Qiuniang's words seemed to bring hope to the desperate Zhen family.