Chapter 301: Confused
Ever since meeting Cheruth in the Southwest Desert, Startide has actually been a little lost for a while.
Yes, confused...... Maybe even Ali Ali, who has the best relationship with Xingxi, will be shocked when the truth is told, but this feeling of confusion does arise in Xingxi's heart.
- Is revenge really something the Nolans should do?
It's not that Cheruth's personality charm is strong or how superb her mouth is, in fact, this confusion has always existed in the depths of Xingxi's heart. If before this, Xingxi was able to ignore the doubts about the revenge of the Nolan clan in her heart, then the appearance of Cheruth completely made her unable to deceive herself so unswervingly.
Just like Gurney's belief that "you can do anything for revenge", Xingxi also has his own belief in his heart.
Perhaps because after the disaster that year, little Xingxi, who lost his parents, has always been raised by Tim and other people of the same clan as their own children, and in Xingxi's heart, the definition of the word "relative" has almost been equated with "Nolan people". And on top of that, when he was just ignorant of his memory at the age of three, he experienced the grief of losing his biological parents, and this experience made Xingxi grow up with age, and he has a rather paranoid sense of dependence and protection for these Nolan people who have been regarded as relatives.
She had already had the painful experience of losing a loved one, and she didn't want to see the lives of these loved ones who had been caring for her all these years. Back then, when she fled from the Warcraft Forest all the way to Minos, it was these uncles and aunts of the same clan who were not related by blood who held up a small sky of hope for her and other children who were still young at the time, and now. She also has the ability to protect everyone. She also wants to be a solid force to protect Nolan.
Rather than carrying hatred and taking revenge on Solan. In fact, Xingxi's idea is to fight to protect the only remaining Nolan Tinder. Grand Elder Wissinger said that revenge is the mission of the Nolan people, and she wants to protect everything related to Nolan, so it is inevitable that she will participate in revenge, and this logic seems to be fine...... But is there really no problem?
Before, Xingxi had never thought so much, and everyone in the Nolan clan had a blood feud with the Solan Sect. And the Solan Sect has never stopped hunting down the Nolans, there is no room for reversal between the two sides, and revenge seems to be Nolan's only option.
But after meeting Cheruth, this cognition in Xingxi's mind was fundamentally shaken.
Is revenge really the only option, or is revenge really a good option for Nolan, who wants to protect?
That child, she didn't really care about the hatred of the Nolans, her feelings for the Nolan blood were inexplicably weak, but she had a happy life that all the other surviving Nolans did not have...... No revenge, no conspiracy. Go to school like a girl her age and make friends. Go out on an adventure with your classmates...... Like girls her age, she lives happily and happily under the sun.
Xingxi was confused, she had been telling herself that the girl named Cheruth was wrong, she was ruthless, she was cold-blooded, and the enemy who had ruined her family was in front of her, but she could act as if nothing happened...... But in fact, Xingxi knew that she couldn't deceive herself, she was really envious of Cheruth, who could be so open-minded, or so heartless, to let go of hatred and enjoy her life happily.
Is it right not to take revenge? Xingxi is not clear, from the truth she has always known, the Nolan clan is innocent, the Solan sect is evil, their revenge is full of justice and legitimacy from any point of view, but this should be the right act, but it did not bring any happiness and joy to the Nolan clan, nor did it gain too much favor from ordinary people other than the Nolan clan.
The Nolan people, including Xingxi, are busy hiding their identities in danger for revenge every night, and their nerves are not completely relaxed for a moment, and the revenge they plan against the Solan sect often affects the innocent, and in the end, Solan did not break his muscles and bones, but their Nolan's demonic name was constantly confirmed because of these radical and indiscriminate revenge acts.
When I was in Minos Town, the Great Elder had been teaching them the children of the Nolan tribe earnestly, and the evil and powerful Solan Sect did not spare their Nolan clan, and if they did not resist, they would definitely be completely destroyed by the Solan Sect in the end. But in fact, after Xingxi really walked out of Minoan Town, he gradually discovered that the influence and coverage of the so-called No. 1 sect on the mainland were far less terrifying.
Just from the fact that the Nolan people still have freedom in the two countries in the Western Plains, Hong Kong can operate a force that can exert influence on the domestic political chess game of each country in just ten years with only a few people, it can be seen that the Solan Divine Cult is only a large number of believers in the territory outside the Holy Kingdom of Solan, and in fact, the Divine Cult is not capable of thoroughly implementing the so-called Nolan Extermination Order in these places. In recent years, the contact between the Nolans and the Solan Cult has been almost entirely due to their own non-stop active attacks in various places, which eventually attracted the attention of the Solan Cult, and as long as they do not make any eye-catching moves, the Solan Sect has no way to catch the whereabouts of the incognito Nolans in the lands outside the Holy Country.
Xingxi suddenly realizes that revenge doesn't seem to be the only thing in order to protect Nolan...... Or the right way.
In fact, she vaguely understood this from the beginning, but because this was the justice that everyone said belonged to the Nolan tribe, and because everyone in the Nolan tribe was doing this, she did it too. All along, she was not so much unswervingly taking revenge on Solan, but just not knowing what to do to protect these relatives of her Nolan clan, so she simply suppressed the confusion in her heart and followed everyone to participate in revenge.
And Cheruth's confession to her made waves in Xingxi's heart again. She was unwilling and unable to question the Great Elder's decision, and that was why. This sense of entanglement is what makes her particularly troubled and sad.
It is also this confused emotion. When Xingxi was in Dowl, he didn't force Chelus to return to Nolan. She didn't want to add another Nolan to the world who would never be happy in her life. She also wanted to know whether the path taken by Cheruth was the right one, and if she could really let go of her hatred, would the Nolan people be able to have a different and better future than they are now.
But what Xingxi didn't expect was that the second encounter between her and Cheruth would come so quickly and so suddenly.
When I first heard the Great Elder talk about this plan. She had some expectations, maybe this time she would come to Alrant and be able to meet Cheruth again, who was studying at the National College of Lorris, and maybe she could take this opportunity to let Cheruth fulfill her promise last time and assist the Nolan clan in this operation.
Now, however, the thought of Cheruth's presence only felt bitter in his mouth...... She never imagined that Princess Sekaria, the most important key person in their mission, would be such a good friend with Cheruth.
When she first came to Arlante, when she heard that Her Royal Highness Princess Sekaria had a close friend named Cheruth, Xingxi was still a little unconvinced, she felt that since Cheruth was a Nolan survivor, even if she was studying in Lloris, she should hide her true identity and act in a low-key manner instead of being in the limelight like this. However, today's four-house match. The way Chelus and Sekaria leave the arena hand in hand after the match convinced Xingxi of the rumors she had heard before, and thus gave her a real headache.
Startide vaguely remembers what Cheruth had said when she was in the desert. The child valued her life and her friends very much, and it would be a real trouble to let her know that Nolan's plan this time would be detrimental to her friend, Her Royal Highness the Princess.
If he just doesn't agree with the so-called revenge of the Nolan clan, then Cheruth really has no interest in revenge at all, and even this child doesn't have any feelings of closeness to the Nolan clan itself, Xingxi even has a bad premonition, if this matter is not handled well, it is easy to make the relationship between Cheruth and the Nolan clan completely deadlocked.
Perhaps, the victim of their plan could be replaced?
Xingxi looked absent-minded at tonight's party, but in fact, she had been thinking about these things in her heart.
And right now, in the café, there are only two people, her and Gurney, and Xingxi can see that this is a good opportunity to test the tone.
"Because...... Presumably you have also understood during this time, that Her Royal Highness the Princess's influence in the Loris Kingdom is no less than that of the Saintess of Solan among the followers of Solan, in case the plan fails, we are likely to completely lose the possibility of gaining a foothold in Loris because of this move. ”
Xingxi pondered the wording and found some reasons for the substitution that could be put on the surface, but these reasons were only temporary for her after all, and they were obviously not so tenable.
"Xiaoxi, it's not unreasonable for you to be worried, but you also said that it was a failure of the plan, and in fact, things have developed so far, the plan has almost succeeded more than half of it, and even if the plan fails, we have already completed the most basic set goals, right?"
"That's what you say...... I'm just thinking that our choice is actually Prince Gaines, he has more influence on the royal court of Lorris, and he is more representative, wouldn't it be better to choose Prince Gaines?"
Gurney, who was sitting across from Xingxi, looked at her very seriously.
"Xiaoxi, is there any special relationship between you and that Princess Sekaria?"
"That's not ......"
Xingxi didn't know how to explain it, did she want her to say, "Because Her Royal Highness is the best friend of our orphaned Nolan who is outcast, we better not touch her"?
She had promised Cheruth not to reveal her identity, and she vaguely hoped that Cheruth would continue to stick to her chosen path to test a new future possibility for the Nolans. What's more, even if it was to be exposed, Xingxi knew that at least the matter of Cheruth could not be explained directly to Gurney like this. Although Gurney seems to be friendly and polite, he is a very stubborn guy for revenge at heart, and if he knows that Ceros is obviously a Nolan but has such a non-supportive attitude towards the revenge of the Nolan family, Startide really can't guarantee that Gurney will not do anything directly to Cheruth.
Seeing that Xingxi was a little slurred, Gurney seemed to have misunderstood something, frowned, and then smiled.
"Xiaoxi, you must know that if it is the prince of Garnes, it will indeed be easier to achieve the effect we expect than Princess Sekaria, but it is precisely because he is of great significance to the royal court of Loris that we can't treat him as a victim, we need to create enough turmoil, but not to create an undying enemy, the loss of a princess and the loss of a crown prince are completely different meanings to some extent...... Do you understand?"
Xingxi pursed her lips and nodded, she knew that it seemed that there was no way to undo it.
And just as she lowered her head, about to end the topic, Gurney's voice rang in her ears again.
“...... I don't know what you have to do with that Princess Sekaria, but I hope you can understand that this operation is the most important one in our years, and the strength of the opponent is much stronger than before...... Personally, at least I don't want any instability on our side in such an important operation, our identity can only be Avengers, and nothing else. ”
Xingxi jerked his head up and looked at Gurney with a coldness in his eyes, but to her surprise, Gurney didn't show his signature smile as he had imagined, but looked at her with a serious expression.
"It's because it's Xiaoxi that I said that. I don't know what happened to you recently, but this time, Uncle Vincent can be said to have gambled on all the efforts he has made in Loris alone in the past ten years, and even after the action, he had to leave here, completely giving up all his efforts here, and the rest of us, including you, Ali and Uncle Egg, are the same, even if the plan is successful, the danger we face will not be small, although this time the gentleman will personally take action, but the opponent also has at least three law-level magician powerhouses, as long as there is the slightest accident in the plan, it is very likely that some of us will be in danger of life...... Do you understand, Xiaoxi?" )