So far, my collection is more than two thousand. But the average booking is only 55. That is to say, in addition to some fattening ones, basically looking at my piracy, there are almost 2,000 people. God, I really can't believe that the novels I worked so hard to write day and night have more than 2,000 people reading my pirated copies. Really, it hurts to feel good. Yesterday, my parents said that I could make money writing this thing? I don't want a salary of thousands of yuan a month, I have to do this novel, it's been more than two months, and you haven't earned a penny, what do you want? Do you want us to support you? Be a gnawing old man?

Every time I hear this, I feel sad, but every time, I bite the bullet and say, Mom and Dad, wait a minute, give me two months, the third month, I can make money, and then I will prove it to you, novels are also a profession, and you can support yourself, don't look down on it. But it turns out that it is indeed a profession, but the harvest of this profession is not proportional to the pay, it is completely different from other companies as a staff, as long as the staff pays, you can get more returns, and the novel, no matter how I pay, even if I am the first in the same period every time I recommend the results, but then it is still streaking, the editor does not continue to recommend, the reason is that the editor does not like my book, of course, the main thing is that I don't say 'good things', I don't have too much time to communicate with the editor, right? I think with so much time, it is better to write more novels, and write novels well to be real. But it turns out that it's useless to just bury your head in the code to write a novel, because your efforts, others can't see it, they only know, according to their own will. I can do whatever I want, I just want to be happy, who cares if you live or die? You pay for my wool, and it is not me who suffers behind your back.

Yesterday I also went to a pirate website to read, and many people scolded me because I had a burglar prevention once, saying that I had just put it on the shelves and that I was ...... In short, a group of cynicists, scolding is ugly, and they don't treat me as a human being at all. It's a matter of course to watch piracy, and as an author, I should write novels to make them look good at piracy, even if I have no income, even if I endure the pain of writing novels, even if my parents keep blaming me for not having income from novels, they don't care, as long as they are happy. Hehe, seeing this, I really don't know what to do, I only know that at that moment, I was very uncomfortable, but no one could tell it, so I could only endure it myself. At that moment, I even thought that the eunuch would get it, listen to my parents, continue to work as a clerk in the company, and get a life with a salary of thousands of yuan a month, but I am not reconciled, I have worked hard for so long, and the most important thing is that there are dozens of readers who support me. 55 is subscribed, which means that there are 55 readers who support me, although there are not many people, but there are still some. I remembered that I was reading a novel at the time, because the author was a eunuch, and I was very unhappy, because I liked his book very much. For him, I went to the starting point to charge coins to see the genuine version, but he is still a eunuch, I don't want to scold him, because I know that everyone has their own choice, I am not qualified to scold him because he gave up, maybe he also has his own unspeakable hidden, but no matter how unspeakable he is, because of his eunuch, I always feel that I haven't finished reading this book, my heart is empty, I always feel that something is missing, very unhappy.

So I can understand very well what the mood of those subscribed readers after the eunuch. Rewarded, subscribed, but the author was a eunuch, this mood is indescribable, in short, very bad. So I don't want to be a eunuch, because with your support, I know that I am a eunuch, and your mood must have been the same as I was at that time. But what should I do with my parents, I told them three months, but three months is coming soon, that's all I have? How can I have an income? And I'm still the only child in the family, I have to support my parents. Dad is in his fifties, my mother is almost fifty, my mother is at home to take care of my eighty-year-old sick grandmother, only my father is working outside alone, it used to be fine, and me, more than 3,000 yuan a month, although it is not much, but I am frugal, and I can always give the family a monthly subsidy of more than 2,000 yuan. But since writing the novel, all the family's living expenses have been pressed on my father. My father's health has also been getting worse and worse in the past two years, and he was hospitalized for saline injections two days ago. But my dad was a little better, so he immediately went to work, I told him to rest, he said that he was the only one at home, your grandma was sick and it would cost money, and your mother didn't go to work, so she also needed money, and you ...... Alas, let's find a job, you can't always rely on me, you are in your twenties, hearing this, my nose is sour, I always feel that I am ignorant, insist on what I think I can insist on, but it has affected my parents. Alas, when I was writing this, I didn't know how to choose? Should I go to work, or should I continue to write novels? I can have money when I go to work, but I am not reconciled, I want to write novels, this is my hobby. But I don't go to work, I don't have any money, and there is always a voice telling me that you are gnawing at the old, your grandma is sick and needs money, your mother is not in good health, and she is taking care of her grandmother at home, and your father is old and sick, and he is still working as a porter, what are you doing? You are a rice worm, you are not filial, you are useless, you know to insist on what you think is right, but have you considered your parents? They worked hard to raise you, provide you with food, provide you with housing, and provide you with college, and this is how you repay them after graduating from college? It's just a brute! ...... There are always two voices in my heart, one is to persevere even if I die, because I like it, but one voice is constantly condemning, that voice may be the so-called conscience, right?

Alas, I don't know what to do now, even though I want to write novels, but the reality is always so cruel that I can't be willful, because I have a sick grandmother above me, and my parents, and the family needs money all the time. I can't go on any longer, because I'm a man, and I'm still a son of man, and I have the responsibility and obligation to carry my family.

But I'm still unwilling, I still want to give myself one last chance, I have worked hard for so long, and there are more than 50 readers who really support me, I don't want to give up my ideal of writing novels, and I don't want you 50 readers to be upset because of my eunuch loss, but what should my grandmother and parents do, what should my family do?

So, I weighed it, and I still want to fight the last one, hoping that the readers and friends who see it can come to the starting point genuinely to support me.

If I can make an improvement tonight, even if I increase the number of people who support me, it will be good to reach 60, and the average order of 5 will be 5 people, that is, it will not be difficult, right? Although 60 is an average subscription, and the monthly manuscript fee is only about 100 yuan, I can't do anything at all, but I always have a thought, thinking that there are more and more people who support me, and I will be able to give myself a reason to persevere, because there is a little hope, at least I will not despair. I can still write it, but if it is still like this, not moving at all, more than 2,000 collections, there are 2,000 people who are all watching pirated copies, then I really can't give up my whole family because of this 100 subscription fees a month. Everyone will know my difficulties at a glance, alas. If I'm a eunuch, please don't blame me, and please don't lose my subscribed friends, I'm also very uncomfortable. I am also helpless, please forgive me. I'm also desperate, I really can't help it. Mom and Dad really can't bear it, not to mention whether they say me or not, even I, a man in his twenties, is still the only child in the family, and if I don't bear the burden of the family for them, it is already extremely unfilial. I don't want to be that unfilial son. Someone poked in the back in the back. I don't want to be a rice worm and be looked down upon, I have to take my responsibility.

So, in the end, do you want to continue to write? Or do you listen to your parents, go to work in the company, and assume the responsibilities and obligations that you should fulfill as a child? Come to 12 o'clock tonight to find out.

I don't have a high demand, but before twelve o'clock tonight, I'll write down if I can add five to the average. What is the concept of five? That's 2,000 people who watch piracy, and it's enough to have five to support me. 2,000 people, it's not difficult for me to come to five genuine support, right? If there are not even five...... Hehehe,,, I don't think I'll ever write novels again, it's really desperate, piracy is really terrible. It is so terrifying that it is like an invisible knife that can cut through all illusions and return people to the cruel reality.

I'm going to code now, and I hope that before 12 o'clock tonight, I can order from 55 to 60, just 5 people. It's really not too demanding. If it comes, I will insist on writing it, and I can endure the condemnation of my conscience and the blame of my parents. I'm okay. So, I hope you will support the genuine version. Added five more to the book, I'll be 3 more tonight. If I support more readers, I will add more, and every five subscriptions, I will add one more chapter. Alas, please everyone. Come and support me, give me the motivation to keep going, I really don't want to give up.