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An Qianqian hid in the sleeves of Jiugong's clothes, jumping up and down. Gradually, she was too tired to dodge, and she found that, in fact, she couldn't dodge at all. Although the so-called "real fire" is not like the ordinary fire, which can be seen by the naked eye, it is much more powerful than the intensity of ordinary fire.
The fire was too big, and the self-feeling that burned An Qianqian was like a reddish coal, and the invisible smoke choked her, and the snot and tears flowed down together, and it took a long time (of course, it was An Qianqian's own feelings.) She felt that her body should have been burned dry by this "real fire", no, it should have been roasted dry, there was no water at all, not only the water on her body, but even the snot and tears were gone, not only could she not make a sound, but she also couldn't move, she thought: Maybe she has been burned to ashes, and the little consciousness she has may be her own soul! Just thinking quietly with the only remaining consciousness in my brain.
When you are ready to give up on life, you are not afraid of everything, and you don't care about everything anymore! At this time, An Qianqian is like this, she feels that life is beginning to break away from herself. So, what pain, what sadness, it didn't matter to her. However, her consciousness still exists, she can still think, and she still feels, I don't know why, but she seems to have a little joy now, because she knows that she is going to the soul space, so that she can wait for her parents in the soul space-time and space to meet them there in a hundred years, which is much better than never seeing her parents and family in this demon world. Thinking about it this way, she felt that death had become a kind of beauty for herself. Since she thinks it's beautiful, she begins to look forward to her dying soon.
An Qianqian lay quietly in the sleeves of Jiugong's clothes, waiting, waiting, not the slightest sadness, but very happy! She seemed to remember that she had heard people say that waiting for death is a very cruel thing, so ordinary people, when they are seriously ill, do not dare to let them know, that is tantamount to the final sentence of this person's life. However, now that he is waiting for death, he is not sad. Rather, there is an inexplicable joy and joy. She was thinking, "I might be the one that people often call now, the time of the return to the light, right? I can think about something very clearly." I know that even if I live, I can only stay in the demon world forever, and there is absolutely no possibility of returning to the world! Every day, like a fool, in that big stone room, guarding a stone mother-in-law who is very similar to himself, without eating or drinking, he can't die. Thinking of this, An Qianqian suddenly felt that something was wrong, yes, I can't die in the demon world, so now, as they say, am I ruined? If I am really destroyed, then I don't even have a soul? Then how can I go to see my parents again? Originally, I fell from the human world to this damn demon world in such an unknown way, and my family still doesn't know how sad and sad it is! I lost my soul in such an unknown way. Isn't there no hope at all? What can I do? There is a soul and hope, and if even the soul is gone, then am I not completely out of play? No, I can't just die, no, it's gone! Even if I don't have my own body, I have to leave my soul behind! I can't completely destroy myself, in that case, God will be too unfair to me! I think I'm so young, I haven't experienced the good times of my life, it's just so inexplicably gone, is there any justice? I can't just be destroyed in such an unknown way. Absolutely not!
An Qianqian, who realized it later, just wanted to understand where she was, the only fighting spirit in her heart raised her head again, she had to find a way, not to save lives, but also to save the soul, with the support of this fighting spirit, she opened her eyes hard, only to be surprised to find that her eyes could not see anything, at this moment in her world, it was already dark, but it didn't matter, she only knew that the most important thing now was to keep her soul, but if you want to keep your soul, you can only rely on yourself. So, with all her strength, she sat up, and she touched her body with her hand, "No, no? Why hasn't my body burned to ashes? How could such a blazing real fire, with my little body, not burned out? Impossible! Ahem! I can't care so much! I must save my soul. Under the support of this belief, she wanted to stand up little by little, but no matter how hard she tried, it was useless, she hated this hateful demon world at the moment, she hated and scolded the demon world in her heart when she failed to succeed in several efforts, this hateful demon world, if I have an afterlife, I must destroy all of your demon world! I must, I must!
Just when An Qianqian couldn't survive and had no way to die, something unexpected happened. She only felt that her body seemed to be floating, because she couldn't see it, she thought to herself, maybe she was about to be destroyed, so even her body was out of her control! Just when she felt that she was about to be completely destroyed, she thought of the secret book, of the suffering she had suffered. Yes, doesn't it mean that if you become a demon, you won't die? I want to become a demon! I must become a demon! For a moment, An Qianqian is sincere and wants to become a demon from the bottom of his heart! There is no reluctance at all. This is the desire to survive, right? (I don't quite understand)
When An Qianqian wanted to become a demon from the bottom of her heart, she felt that her body was really floating. And floated very slowly, while floating, she also felt: her head began to explode again, this time it hurt more than the previous times, at the same time, she also felt a kind of tendon, like a blood, more like a stream of air, from the foot, straight up, everywhere she went, there was that cramps, bone ripping pain, and like the kind of itchy and unbearable bites of ten thousand insects, but the place that had been drilled was like a messy rotten wood, like a foam and a powdery rotten wood fragrance. This feeling is too uncomfortable, and it is unimaginable for ordinary people. At this time, An Qianqian was a combination of pain, itching, fear, nausea, and couldn't scream, unable to see the surrounding environment, wanting to move, hiding, and not having the slightest strength. It was just like that, and the air flow in her body slowly, a little bit, corroded her body inch by inch. After a long, long time, this thing finally rushed out of the top of her head, and at the moment when this air flow separated from her body, she suddenly felt that she was so refreshed, so high-spirited, and so energetic.
What surprised An Qianqian even more was that it was pitch black just now, but now she could see everything? What surprised her even more was that this clear gaze was not from her two eyes, but between the two eyes, it seemed that there was another eye. When she felt this way, she hurriedly stretched out her hand and touched the middle of her eyes, and she couldn't help but exclaim: "Mom! What's wrong with me? Why did I become a monster? Why did I have an extra eye?" It turned out that between An Qianqian's two eyes, there was an extra eye, just like Yang Erlang on TV. She exclaimed, and she realized that she could actually speak! "Mom! I'm not really dead, I must have become a soul." Otherwise, will I still be alive with such a burning method of real fire?" However, she thought to herself: Anyway: I have not been destroyed, and I will still have the opportunity to see my parents! That's it! Be content! How is it not much better than being destroyed! It's just my human form, this time I can say goodbye to it completely!
The thought to myself that I would never be able to be a human being again, and that I would never be able to return to the human world, was still sad! I thought to myself: Alas, I am going to the soul plane, and my physical body can no longer be with me, and in any case, because of it, I have been able to be praised by people all these years. Now that we're going to be separated, I have to say goodbye to it! Thinking of this, she looked back at the place where she had been lying just now, well, why is there no one? Where is the person? Why is she gone just now? Why is she gone now? Could it be that I have become a soul, it doesn't exist? It shouldn't be!