Chapter 52: It's Really Hard
Lin Lang took Xu Anran back to the bar, said hello to the manager, found a room where no one was and walked in, looking at Xu Anran, who had stood in the cold wind for too long, his hands and face were frozen, and Lin Lang kindly asked the waiter to bring some hot water in.
"What do you want to say?" Lin Lang picked up the kettle and poured a glass of water, and handed it to Xu Anran: "Why did Xu Anning leave?" “
"Because there are some things, Xu Anning doesn't know at all." Xu Anran took the water cup, the water was a little hot, and he couldn't drink it for a while, so he simply held it with both hands and covered his hands: "For example, Xiao Yi wants An An's custody, so he arranged for someone to supply you with expired food in the supermarket, found a group of ignorant people to make trouble, and called the Education Committee to report you, Xu Anning didn't know about these things." ”。
"So what? What does this mean? Lin Lang didn't understand.
"It shows that in Xu Anning's heart, Xiao Yi is not a bad person." The water finally cooled down, Xu Anran picked up the water cup and took a sip, the warm touch warmed his whole person: "Xiao Yi is not a bad person, she is still her own mother, she is unhappy at your house, and she wants to return to her biological parents, what's wrong?"
"What's wrong?" Lin Lang smiled: "Nothing is right, what kind of person Xiao Yi is in her heart for the time being, her biological parents didn't just appear, but she left at that time, is it right?" Also, unhappy in my house? How to understand this sentence? “
"Did you have a happy family in the days when she decided to leave? Isn't it a mess, and a bunch of things that I don't have a clue to deal with? Xu Anran looked at Lin Lang: "At that time, if Xu Anning didn't leave, if Xiao Yi made some other mess, it is estimated that you would not even have a home now." ”
Lin Lang had nothing to say, Xu Anran was right, no matter what reason Xu Anning chose to leave, he really helped them solve Xiao Yi's big trouble by mistake, but if Xu Anning didn't guess that all these accidents were from Xiao Yi's hands, how could she be so just, so resolutely choose to leave? He didn't seem to have really thought about these things.
"Do you remember, Xiao Yi said that my grandmother threw her in the orphanage because she was so stubborn?" As if he guessed Lin Lang's question, Xu Anran didn't plan to sell Guan Zi anymore.
"I remember, we all thought it was ridiculous." Suddenly, as if he thought of something, Lin Lang looked incredulous: "Did she believe these nonsense later?" ”
"Well, isn't it ridiculous that she did? When she came to me and said this, I immediately understood the word: care is chaos, a girl born in the new century, grew up in the sun, educated, just because these things happened to the people she cared about, she actually believed it. She also felt very guilty, she felt that all the bad things happened because of her. She came to ask me, I didn't know how to answer, so I asked her to ask Xiao Yi, Xiao Yi was the initiator of this matter, I think, it is most appropriate to ask her. “
"She didn't tell me what Xiao Yi said to her, it was nothing more than those words that made her more convinced that she would bring bad luck, and the day after talking to Xiao Yi, she ran back to tell you that she didn't want to stay in your house anymore, she wanted to go back to her biological parents." Xu Anran spread his hands: "No matter what you think, I don't think it's a bad thing, Xiao Yi is a person who doesn't like to fail, she must have thought of a lot of broken methods that can't be put on the table, maybe she also spreads everything out to threaten you or threaten An An." The matter ended at that time, everything was still under control, your family could still support it, An An was still stupidly kept in the dark, sad is sad, it's better than knowing the truth, and ...... by that time."
Xu Anran didn't say any more, but felt that the scene must be very ugly.
"In the past few months, An An has not been happy at all. Xiao Yi is a very good businessman, but she doesn't know how to be a mother, she is not at all different from your Sister Cuifen, she is not gentle or warm, except when she takes us to parties and banquets, she is willing to put on the appearance of a mother and a child. An An must not like this kind of life very much, I know that she is working very hard to adapt, but it is really difficult, I still remember the freshman year of high school, An An was still a very cheerful girl, but now she rarely smiles. Only in this month or so did she know that she was going to come to Beijing and know that she was going to see you, that she had hope for her life and began to smile a little more. “
"Actually, I really don't like you, if it weren't for her, I wouldn't want to come to you at all. An An and I haven't known each other for a long time, but I know that she is not a person who will abandon her family because she is troublesome, if I were you, I will definitely ask the reason, even if she doesn't say it, I will not vent that kind of incomprehension and anger on her. ”
"I don't care what you think, if you really can't understand people's words and are still unwilling to deal with Xu Anning, then you can simply ask for leave in the next few days, don't let her find you, out of sight. If you can think clearly, I don't want you to tell her what I have been here today, you should think that you have figured it out for yourself these days, and we will come to you tomorrow, I hope you can accompany her well, she has brought you a lot of gifts. ”
Because Lin Lang didn't speak, Xu Anran quickly finished saying everything he wanted to say and what he should say: "Think about it again, An An is alone in the hotel, I'm not very relieved, I'll go back first." “
After saying that, he stood up, except for the room, and left.
Only Lin Lang was left to sit alone, there was a dull pain in his heart, every word Xu Anran said was like hitting his heart with a small hammer, it didn't bleed, but it really hurt.
It's not that I didn't think that Xu Anning would have her own hardships, but at that time, I was always impatient, and I was angry and wanted to find an outlet to vent my emotions, Lin Xiao couldn't, Wang Cuifen couldn't, only Xu Anning could.
But why could she? Because they're cooked? Because he knew she wouldn't really blame him? Or is it because deep down he really thinks that all those bad luck were brought by her?
Lin Lang didn't remember, but now that he thinks of what has happened in the past six months, he still feels a little unacceptable.
He admits that he is a weak person, not only does he not have the ability to help his family solve problems, but he also does not have the ability to control his emotions.
Good failure, good failure......