"What do you mean?" Meng Ran's fingers seemed to have nowhere to put them, and he knocked on the tabletop dangdang: "I don't understand what it means, you just talk endlessly?" ”

"Nonsense?" Xu Anning still couldn't understand what Meng Ran wanted to say.

"yes, why do you want to fall in love? It's someone who confesses to you and you don't like him as an excuse for rejection. How many times have you rejected other people's rejections, and you have begun to believe in them, and now you have begun to self-hypnotize? ”

"But before I went to college, I really vowed not to fall in love during college." At that time, Lin Lang's matter had just been resolved, Xu Anning didn't have the heart to think about these at all, Xu Anran asked her if she planned to find a partner in college, and she said that she would definitely not fall in love.

"Did you know you would know Ke Lei before you went to college? Time shift is easy to understand, why did you mention the current thing? What's more, it's not that you don't have that idea about Ke Lei, otherwise you would definitely refuse directly, why do you have to sit here and think about it for so long, and you don't know when it's dark? ”

Meng Ran continued to knock on the table as he spoke, knocking Xu Anning upset: "Can you stop knocking?" ”

"What, you can't knock on the table?" said this, but Meng Ran still obediently withdrew his hand: "Are you upset when you listen to it?" Isn't it particularly tangled? Do you know what makes you so entangled? It's all you care about. ”

After speaking, Meng Ran stood up and stretched his waist: "Hey, don't get entangled, if you have this tangled time, you might as well go and talk to the person concerned, talk about what you are struggling with, and see if he can solve the problem that affects you, if this can't be solved, then talk about a P relationship." ”

Can it still be like this? She never thought about it.

But what Meng Ran said is not unreasonable, it is better to share her worries with him than to think about it alone, after all, it seems that this is not entirely her business now.

Just do what you say.

Ke Lei never expected that he received a call from Xu Anning not more than two hours after returning to the dormitory.

"Are you busy? I'd like to talk to you. ”

"Okay, then let's go to the border city."

The border city is the largest on-campus café, and Xu Anning, who heard this name for the first time, thought that the owner of the coffee shop was an IT man, "Programming? Isn't it too unliterary? ”

Later, I learned that it turned out to be a "border city", and the "Border City" written by Shen Congwen turned out to be a person who was not literary and artistic.

The decoration of the store is very stylish, the walls are covered with old photos in dark tones, all of which are real photos of some water towns, and the seats are not soft sofas like other coffee shops, but wooden low tables and benches, and there are hay-paved roofs on top of each seat, and the floor is dark marble, with the effect of light and shadow, the lights in the coffee shop are always dim, and from a distance, every customer seems to be sitting on a small boat floating on the water.

As soon as Ke Lei entered the café, he saw Xu Anning "floating" on the water alone.

The border town is a favorite place for student couples to come on a date, but it is now nearly ten o'clock, and there are not many people who choose to drink coffee at this time, and the store is empty.

Ke Lei sat down opposite Xu Anning, and Xu Anning pushed a glass of lemonade: "I'm afraid I won't be able to sleep, so I didn't dare to order coffee, is this okay?" ”

Ke Lei nodded: "Think about it so quickly?" Ke Lei's voice trembled slightly, and his nervousness could not be concealed.

"Are you nervous?" Xu Anning suddenly wanted to tease Ke Lei: "The first confession?" ”

"It's not~ super nervous, if you have any decisions, hurry up and give me a good time." At this time, Ke Lei didn't plan to hide his inner thoughts, after all, he didn't know what the result would be, maybe this would be the last time the two of them met alone.

"Actually, I haven't figured it out yet. I asked you out because I wanted to tell you my truest self, and I'm not sure if you would like me the same way. ”

The most authentic version of yourself? Ke Lei remembered that Xu Anran said: His sister has experienced more than others since she was a child.

To be honest, Ke Lei was once curious about what the so-called experience was, but he didn't plan to ask, after all, everyone has the right to have their own secrets, and he thought that even if they were really together, if she didn't want to say it, he wouldn't know what to do. But now Xu Anning is willing to tell him his story, and he feels that this is undoubtedly a recognition of him.

"Okay, I'll hear you." Ke Lei made a gesture of please.

"I was an orphan until I was six years old." Xu Anning ignored Ke Lei's surprised gaze and continued: "When I was in the orphanage, I was adopted several times, and then I was sent back for various reasons. Finally, a very special and kind family adopted me, and we lived together for ten years, and those ten years were the happiest ten years of my life. ”

"In my freshman year of high school, I met Xu Anran, the last time you met, my twin brother, I learned that my parents are alive and well. My grandmother sent me to an orphanage when I was born, saying that my life was very hard and would affect his family's fortunes. So my parents always thought I was dead and didn't look for me. ”

"Then a lot of bad things happened later, and I returned to my biological parents, but except for Xu Anran, I was not very close to my parents. It can be a bit pretentious to say it. Sometimes I really feel like a dandelion that has finally taken root in one place, but a random breeze can farther away, I don't have a sense of security and belonging, I'm not used to new things and new people around me. ”

"Xiao Ya and I were classmates in elementary school, and for so many years, I always felt that she was the only one who was my best friend. Teachers, classmates, and roommates are not something I can choose by myself, and they will not necessarily remain in my life, so I can accept these people coming and going. ”

"But boyfriend ......" Xu Anning glanced at Ke Lei, who was listening quietly with his eyes down: "I want to choose my boyfriend, you are very good, and I am also very ...... I like you, but I'm worried that one day I'll get used to your presence, and you'll leave again, and I'm worried that my relationship of gain and loss will put a lot of pressure on you, so I haven't been able to make up my mind. That's what I want to say, I'm done. Xu Anningyu breathed a sigh of relief, picked up the water cup and took a sip of hot water, feeling comfortable all over, she waited for Ke Lei's answer.

It was Ke Lei's turn to fall into deep thought, he lowered his head, silently looked at his fingers on the table, and raised his head after only a moment.

"You're done with your story?"

"Well, that's it." Xu Anning didn't know why.

"Then listen to my story. I'm from Beijing, my parents are in business, they are each other's first love, they have always been very affectionate, I grew up eating their dog food. I have been a gifted student since I was a child, and I have developed morally, intellectually, physically, aesthetically, and laboriously, and I have always been someone else's child. I have never suffered hardship, I have never suffered poverty, and the relatives around me who have left me have all died, and I have always been smooth sailing since I was a child. ”

"I don't think there's anyone who feels more secure and belonging than I am. The two of us grew up completely different, and to be honest, I can't really empathize. But I'm still glad you told me about it, and I'm even happier that you say you actually like me. I don't know how long the two of us can go, I don't want to say those nice words to make you happy for a while, I have confidence in myself, I am definitely more reliable than the other suitors around you, much more reliable. ”

"Where are the other suitors?" Xu Anning muttered: "Those people, I have long refused." ”

"What about me? What do you say?

Xu Anning suddenly became a little embarrassed: "I have to think about it again." ”

Ke Lei was as gentle as ever: "Okay, then you can continue to think about it." ”

"Then I'll go back at night and text to tell you~"