Cen Lili's memory began to have problems in 1953.

She no longer remembers the divorce with Zhou Jiqing, nor does she remember that her homeland has changed to a new world, in her memory, Zhou Jiqing is still in prison and needs her help, she still sends money back to China every month to give her "husband in prison".

No one corrected her memory, and since 1953, the Cen family no longer buys newspapers, and Qiu Yulu feels suffocated every time he steps into the Cen family, which is a world of deception.

The rest of the Cen family didn't think so, Uncle Chen's father, Old Uncle Chen, who was Cen Lili's housekeeper and the nanny who took care of her growing up, said to Qiu Yulu in a calm tone: "As long as she feels happy, what is the truth, what's the matter?" ”

But this is self-deception.

At the end of 1954, Cen Lili's memory had problems for a whole year, Qiu Yulu finally broke out, that day he treated Cen Lili, Cen Lili was crooked in bed, and told Uncle Chen not to forget to send money to Ji Qing in the afternoon, Qiu Yulu suddenly spoke: "You are divorced." ”

Cen Lili widened her eyes without a trace of cobwebs, looked at her in surprise and amazement, and then turned her head to look at Old Uncle Chen, Old Uncle Chen was a little overwhelmed, Qiu Yulu spoke again: "Uncle Chen, don't help her deceive herself anymore, Cen Lili, you and Zhou Jiqing were divorced five years ago, Zhou Jiqing was acquitted by the new government five years ago, he divorced you, it is now 1954, Zhou Jiqing has remarried for three years, don't lie to yourself anymore, he doesn't need you anymore." ”

He took out a newspaper from his pocket that had been folded into four corners, unfolded it and showed her the time: "Look, 1954. ”

He came prepared, and there was a frightening silence in the room.

Then Cen Lili suddenly rounded her arm and slapped him hard, her Parkinson's hand kept shaking, like the leafy tree downstairs when she first rejected him.

Qiu Yulu stood up, pushed open the door and went downstairs without saying a word.

For half a month, he didn't go to Cen's house.

Half a month later, he went to Vietnam.

He came to Vietnam, Saigon, where Cen Lili spent her childhood and girlhood, he rented a house opposite the Cen family's old house, and every day he looked at the door of the Cen family's old house, imagining Cen Lili before the age of 16, she came out of the gate, she flew a kite outside the door...... It would be nice if I came to Vietnam earlier, before Cen Lili read Zhou Jiqing's poems, came to Vietnam, met her, fell in love with her, read poems to her, and let her fall in love with her own poems and her own people.

Gradually, when looking at the door of Cen's house, Qiu Yulu also hallucinated, he seemed to really be able to imagine that his childhood self, his teenage self, outside the door of Cen's house, played with Cen Lili of the same age, Lang rode a bamboo horse, went around the bed to make green plums, lived together in Changganli, and the two were not suspicious.

He wanted to go back, to the United States, and tell her that he understood her because he had the same disease as her.

The most difficult thing in the world is to ask for.

But he couldn't go back, and just as he was about to go back, the Vietnam War broke out.

The war was protracted and lasted for two hundred years.

For various reasons, Qiu Yulu was stranded in Vietnam, and when he finally returned to the United States in 1974, on the eve of the end of the Vietnam War, he was 57 years old, and Cen Lili was 54 years old.

More than half a century has passed, and most of his life has been ruined by war.

Standing outside the gate of Cen's house, Qiu Yulu felt like a big dream.

He was sitting on the sofa in the living room of Cen family, the stairs creaked, Cen Lili came downstairs, she stopped halfway up the stairs and did not continue down, a pair of baby eyes looked at him curiously: "Who are you?" ”

She forgot about him, forgot about him again.

The ghost sent the gods, Qiu Yulu replied to her: "I am Ji Qing, I was released, I came to you." ”

He was ready to be swept out of the house by another slap, but what he didn't expect was that Cen Lili's eyes softened, full of affection, which made people blush, and her face was also red, as if she was ashamed that she didn't recognize her husband just now, she walked down and grabbed his arm, her eyes were just like when she invited Zhou Jiqing to dance at the ball in 1938, she said: "You are here, I have been waiting for you for a long time." ”

In 1974, Cen Lili waited for half a life, and finally waited for a reunion with her "husband" and "Zhou Jiqing".

The whole Cen family quickly adapted to this, just like pretending that Zhou Jiqing had not divorced Cen Lili in the past 20 years, the people of the Cen family had experience and talent in disguise.

Cen Lili always pulled "Zhou Jiqing" to talk about the things in their short marriage, and she asked him, do you remember your father's yellow-billed parrot? You said you were going to give me one, but then you left.

"Zhou Jiqing" replied to her softly, remember, when he turned around, he went to the flower and bird market to buy a yellow-billed parrot.

He knows that what yellow-billed parrot brother and what promises are all memories woven by Cen Lili's own wishful thinking, it doesn't matter, he has accompanied her, lived for half a century, experienced war and chaos, as long as he lives, any dream is easy to weave. He accompanied Cen Lili and helped her weave a Du Shi Niang into Wang Baochuan.

Regarding why Cen Lili believed that she was Zhou Jiqing, Qiu Yulu thought, maybe it was because she had waited too long, she had waited for decades, almost half the world, like waiting for a ship, waiting too desperately, and she couldn't wait, if a small sampan passed by at this time, tell her that this is a ship, she will also believe it.

She doesn't believe in lies, but in her dreams.

As for herself, Qiu Yulu believes that Cen Lili has really forgotten herself, the admirer who read poetry downstairs to her, the admirer who followed her, and the doctor who was beaten out of the door by her, are all three irrelevant people in her cognition when she is still healthy, the only one she knows is the doctor, and in the twenty years since he left after her illness, she has forgotten the doctor.

Cen Lili loves Zhou Jiqing too much, and there is no one else in her own world.

Then Qiu Yulu doesn't mind, he doesn't mind loving Cen Lili, and he loves himself in his own world.