Zhang Yong'an and He Jialan have been in love for half a century, she has never been married for life, and so has Zhang Yong'an.

"But Zhang Yong'an actually proposed to me."

It was in 1987, He Jialan's 37th birthday, and Zhang Yongan accompanied her.

In fact, it is somewhat difficult to hide, more than a month ago, Zhang Yongan was questioned by reporters about having an affair with a new jade actress, and it happened that his new work was about to appear in a few months, and the protagonist was He Jialan. Many people are waiting to see a good show, and most of them guess that after enduring it for 20 years, how strong can she He Jialan endure? It's time to break out, hey, the lack of a heroine in the performance will be called lively.

However, to everyone's surprise, the performance was held as scheduled, and the heroine was still He Jialan, facing the media's questions about her love life, she still smiled decently and said, we are very good, thank you for your concern.

The reason why He Jialan spoke for Zhang Yong'an was just that on his birthday, the two of them were slightly drunk and lay on the carpet side by side, Zhang Yong'an suddenly said: "Otherwise, we will get married." ”

He fell asleep with that, and when he woke up the next day, he didn't mention it again.

What he didn't know was that He Jialan sat on the balcony that night and blew the wind all night, drank all night of wine, and shed all night of tears.

He Jialan is 37 years old, 37 years old, and the best years of a woman's life have been wasted. She and Zhang Yong'an have known each other for 20 years, and in these 20 years, Zhang Yong'an has been photographed by reporters walking with young women many times, and every time she is forced to ask by reporters, He Jialan has a decent smile and says, we are very good, thank you for your concern.

If it was the same person who was photographed every time, then He Jialan might have died a long time ago, but this is not the case.

He Jialan is sure that Zhang Yong'an has been in love with her for twenty years, and she still has this confidence.

The hardest love in the world is that you love him and he loves you, but you only love him, and he doesn't love only you.

When An Xi left the drama club, he told He Jialan that no flower can keep butterflies. She is smarter than He Jialan and sees Zhang Yong'an thoroughly.

But at least for a moment in his life, he wanted to grow old with her.

For this moment, He Jialan is willing to burn most of her life.

"By now, half of my life has finally burned out."

She picked up an hourglass and looked at the sun: "I broke up with him, officially after the last performance." ”

I was surprised: "Why? ”

But she avoided answering and asked me, "Do you know what I was quitting the stage?" ”

I don't hesitate: "After the performance in 1987. ”

She smiled: "Yes, I know that I am old, and it is better to get off the stage by myself than to be ousted from the stage by boos." After this performance, a reporter asked me, why don't you continue to dance? I didn't answer her, now I'm telling you, because the reason why farewell is precious is that there is only the last scene, if there is another scene, the audience will put away nostalgia and sympathy, and instead say, look at this woman, how uninteresting, the corners of her eyes are already full of wrinkles, why bother not admitting old age and not admitting defeat like this. ”

She said calmly: "I admit defeat, defeat on stage, and defeat for love." Before I hated him so much that I stabbed him in the chest, I pulled away so that I wouldn't become a murderer. ”

"When I was a child, I loved a novel in which veterans spent decades collecting dust, digging gold out of the dust and casting it into a golden rose for their little girl," she said. ”

"When I was seventeen years old in the Ivory Coast, I asked Zhang Yong'an, will there be gold in the sand of the Gold Coast?"

"Twenty years later, I returned to Ghana and spent twenty years digging for sand, but no golden roses is no golden roses, golden roses are just an ideal rumor, no flowers can bloom in the dust, let alone roses, let alone golden roses."

"Do you know how I spent these twenty years in Ghana? I was an alcoholic, because the only time in his life he proposed to me was after we were drunk, and sometimes I wondered if it was a hallucination that I was drunk, and maybe only when I was drunk could I hear his promises. ”

"I also have a cat, and when Weibo was on the rise, I registered a small account, and followed all the people he followed according to his attention list, just to experience what he was looking at now."

"Now I've quit drinking, given away the cat, and deleted the attention."

"Miss Ru, I don't have much to offer in my life, and the only thing I can tell you is that you don't have to force everything, and forcing it has never been a good result."

Finally, she said to me, "I'm writing a book, and if I have misfortune before this book is published, please help me get it published." ”