Jiang Yan was actually afraid of both, he already had a premonition that his future life would be incomplete without Gu Silan, Gu Silan and Nannan were two indispensable people in his life.

Without them, or having the opportunity to gain and losing it, it will be more painful than death.

Gu Silan didn't look at him, just lowered his eyes, and said in a hurry: "You go first, let me be alone, okay?" ”

Jiang Yan frowned, he knew that she was under a lot of psychological pressure, and he should be considerate of her.

But he was afraid that once he stepped out of this door today, he would have no chance.

Tomorrow, Gu Silan will treat him as a stranger.

"Not good."

He refused.

Seeing her hurt, he hurt even more.

"Silan, I know you're in a bad mood right now, any grievances and grievances you have are directed at me, don't hold it in your heart. The way you are, I won't leave you. ”

He approached step by step, and Gu Silan retreated again and again, unable to look directly into the other party's eyes.

"Jiang Yan, I'm in a mess now, you let me think about it, I'm afraid that I will do something impulsive, or hurt you, so, please, don't stay here, leave me alone, I can ......do it myself" Gu Silan tried his best to persuade the other party and try to stay sober, but his heart was really uncomfortable. I thought I was used to it, and I tried hard to convince myself and let go.

However, no.

This matter has always been on her mind.

Even if Siyuan doesn't appear, she and Jiang Yan won't be able to enter the next stage smoothly, it is a hurdle they have to pass.

If you can pass it, if you can't pass it, you will separate.

It's just that the arrival of Siyuan intensified the contradictions in her heart.

"Nope."

This time Jiang Yan was very firm, he directly opened his arms and easily hugged her, in his arms, Gu Silan was only a small lump.

There was no struggle. Her resistance was negligible.

Her expression was painful and distorted.

Jiang Yan's heart ached: "Silan, no matter what you say, I will never leave you." I regret everything I have done to you, even if it is to cut me with a thousand cuts, and I atone for your sins. But, Silan, I love you, no matter how you punish me, but only one thing, don't want me, okay? ”

At the moment, he is like an abandoned little animal.

Pleading with her.

So humble.

How not to move.

Gu Silan actually didn't have the slightest relief in her heart, she had already passed that impulsive age, she didn't want to see Jiang Yan repent and hurt, even if he atoned for his sins, it would be useless.

He was really scared, very frightened.

Gu Silan is fully aware of this.

"Jiang Yan, I said, I don't want to hurt you. Your continued stay here will only make me uncomfortable. You go right now. Her next words were cold and decisive.

In Jiang Yan's opinion, it seems that he has changed a person, and he has become the same as cold as before, rejecting others thousands of miles away, and disgusted with himself.

Jiang Yan's heart felt like he had been stung by something, he was numb at first, but then the pain spread all over his body, and his limbs were hundreds.

"Okay." He found that he couldn't win against Gu Silan in the end.

In the relationship between the two, he is always the one who loses.

He often thinks that if he first met Gu Silan, he would have accepted the other party's pursuit, fell in love without scruples, and then got married smoothly, would it be particularly beautiful. But if it weren't for Gu Silan's sudden disobsession with himself, how could he fall in love with her later because of interest.

Jiang Yan dragged his extremely heavy arm and let go of her.

He walked to the door.

I once experienced the feeling of torment and despair.

It seems that as long as he steps out, there is no future, which represents death.

"Jiang Yan, you're back!"

Suddenly, Gu Silan's shout came from behind him.

Jiang Yan's figure paused, and turned back, she was ...... What's wrong?

I've never seen so many contradictory and complicated expressions on her face.

I don't know who started first.

Maybe it's Jiang Yan.

Without hesitation, he kissed the lip flap of his memory.

At this moment, because he had cried, the whole thing was full of salty and astringent taste, but no matter what the taste, he was damn nostalgic, infatuated, pious longing, moved.

Gu Silan also responded to him deeply and circled his neck.

Jiang Yan bent down and supported her back, which was deeply imprinted on it, and the green tendons on her arms were always tight.

After the kiss, both of them burst into tears, and there was no way to stop it.

Sucked into each other's mouths, all were salty and crying tears, which kept flowing, some rolling down the skin and jaws and directly into the neckline.

They lick~ lick each other's wounds, soothe those painful things, and comfort each other.

Don't run away, don't back down, face everything.

Gu Silan has never been so moved for a moment, shocked from the deepest part of her heart, this is the first time that she and Jiang Yan have been so distracted, going all out to complete an intimacy, and it is also the purest, not mixed with anything, just because she wants.

No prejudice, no misunderstanding, no forgiveness.

They cherish each other very much.

Jiang Yan's tears fell fiercer than hers, she knew that over the years, his heart was very bitter, perhaps much more bitter than herself.

What follows is both uncontrollable and logical. They—

Did.

More than once.

Each other is fully engaged.

In his eyes, there is no room for anyone or anything.

……

Following.

Gu Silan's eyes were very painful, and he had already felt the summer sun shining in, but he couldn't open them.

Her consciousness quickly returned, and she remembered everything she had done last night.

I didn't regret it, or I was shy.

It's a revelation of her true feelings.

The man behind her, suddenly a soft kiss, fell on her eyelids.

This wet feeling made Gu Silan unable to continue pretending to sleep, in addition to his eyes, his body was also extremely painful, he hadn't experienced this for a long time.

"Where's Nannan?" She suddenly remembered something, and her face changed drastically.

Propped up to get up, he was pressed back by Jiang Yan, and he said in a low voice: "Nannan stayed at Zhang Yu's house last night, and he already went to kindergarten early in the morning, don't worry." ”

That's good.

Jiang Yan should have told me.

Gu Silan's heart, which had just been relieved, suddenly mentioned again: "I have surgery today, like?" Why didn't my alarm go off and what's going on? ”

This time, he directly surrounded her from behind, and the warm air was accompanied by a refreshing and comfortable smell, "Don't worry, I helped you ask for leave." ”

Gu Silan actually wanted to struggle for a while, or blame the other party for making his own decisions. But her physical condition is really unable to work well.

Therefore, she herself doesn't understand how to go from almost breaking up to rolling together inexplicably.

The only thing that is certain is that she has no regrets.