Early the next morning, when Mo Qing arrived at the operation room, he didn't expect Ye Chuxia to be there.

"Why do you wake up so early?"

"After lying in bed for so long, my limbs are going to degenerate." Ye Chuxia smiled, "Of course I'm going to come out for activities, and I'll make him breakfast by the way." She lowered her eyes, her eyes darkened, "After all, there will be no chance in the future." ”

Mo Qing glanced at the things on the table and asked, "You want to make seafood porridge?" ”

"Yes, the first meal I cooked for him was seafood porridge......" What she said later, Mo Qingqian didn't know, but suddenly seemed to know something terrible.

"The first meal I cooked for him was noodle ......," she said, stunned.

"It must be delicious, after all, shallow cooking skills are very good."

It was Jiang Yeli's birthday, and he had to ask Mo Qingqian to make him noodles to eat. It's also strange to say, people eat cakes in their lives, only the elderly will eat noodles, and the name of this noodles is so vivid, longevity noodles are referred to as longevity noodles. But he is different, he likes to eat noodles, and he has a lot of requirements.

"Ben Shao wants to roll the dough by hand, it must be rolled by your own hands, and I will keep an eye on you here. In addition, Ben should have two eggs, which must be very tender, not old but not yellow. There are also things like green onions, ginger and garlic, which are not good at all. ”

At that time, he was arrogant like a little rooster and a little arrogant, but his eyes were so clean and bright, and he was not annoying at all.

That was Mo Qingqian's first time making noodles, and she didn't understand why Jiang Yeli had to ask me to make it, but fortunately, the things made were still like that, at least the quality was okay, as for the taste? Although she didn't taste it, it shouldn't be bad to see that he ate it cleanly. She didn't ask him, and she was so proud for a long, long time.

Mo Qingqian carefully recalled the scene of that day, tears welled up in his eyes, and his smile was gone.

"I thought the same thing at the time, until one day when he was sick and burned in a daze, he said to me that it was the first and second best thing he had ever eaten in his life."

"Why do you say that?"

"I asked him the same thing, and he said that the first thing he had ever eaten was the egg noodles his mother made for him on his sixth birthday. He said that he doesn't think it is very delicious now, probably because it is only once, so it is extremely precious and delicious. ”

Tears slid down to the corners of her mouth, and Mo Qingqian reacted, but she didn't know why she was crying, and why was she so uncomfortable? Some pains are always so confusing.

Ye Chuxia called her name, her face full of apologies. Suddenly, everything became clear.

I see, that's the case......

"The first and only time he made me was seafood porridge, which was delicious. However, I am allergic to seafood. ”

She didn't know what she wanted to say, what she wanted to tell Ye Chuxia, but Ye Chuxia seemed to understand, crying so sadly, even a little more painful than her. But why? He's by her side, isn't he? He likes her, doesn't he? They're together now, aren't they? So why?

She asked Ye Chuxia why she was crying? Ye Chuxia didn't answer, but Jiang Li came in and blocked her in front of her, like a hen protecting her cubs.

"If you really miss him, instead of begging us, you might as well find a way to wake him up." He handed Mo Qingqian a notebook and said so.

There was still some warmth on that notebook, with his temperature. He was also entangled and hesitated for a long time.

Mo Qingqian heard him say to Ye Chuxia: "Don't worry, even if you don't have this life, there will definitely be the next life, you believe me." ”

He said it firmly, but where did he get his confidence? Next? I can't afford to make a promise in this life, how dare I promise to stay together in the next life? Isn't it ridiculous? But she believed, she said, I believe in you, I will wait for you.

He said that he did not love her, because love does not ask for anything in return, but he begged, so he did not love.

Mo Qingqian asked Ye Chuxia the same question, she was stunned for a moment, and then said with a smile: "I don't know and I've never thought about it, but if you really talk about it, I don't love him." ”

She replied without a little hesitation: "The word love, once you say it, you have to take responsibility, for him, for all the responsibilities for yourself, but I ...... now." I can't afford it. Love should be selfless and unreciprocated, but I ask, you say, how can this be love? She seemed to ask.

What is love? Mo Qingqian didn't know. She has seen young men and girls who have just fallen in love write love letters to each other, one by one, I love you, without stinginess; I have also seen young couples kissing passionately on the street expressing their love to each other, which is sincere and moving; I have also seen the old men snuggling up to each other on the benches, warm and sweet...... But she still couldn't tell.

Maybe it's that love is too far away from her, she hasn't seen it, how can she know what it looks like.

When Mo Qingqian was in a daze on the balcony, Jiang Li came over, his face haggard.

Before she could speak, he took the lead: "Although I gave you the diary, that doesn't mean I will give up." ”

Mo Qingqian looked at him with a firm face, smiled slightly, and handed him a pair of scissors: "Help me cut my hair shorter." ”

He was surprised: "Why? ”

Mo Qingqian looked down at the waist-length hair, and smiled bitterly: "He once said to me that when my long hair reaches my waist, he will come to marry me, and I have to wait for him." ”

Jiang Li was silent, took the scissors from Mo Qingqian's hand and stood behind her, gently grabbed her long hair, but did not cut it immediately, but asked her, "What ring is hanging around your neck?" ”

Mo Qingqian subconsciously clenched the ring on his chest, thinking about it again and again, but he could only tell the truth: "Yes." ”

He didn't ask any more questions.

Strands of hair fell at Mo Qingqian's feet one by one, like the wisps of missing, but they were cut and scattered by something. The hair grew fast, the longing became more and more intense, but the waiting time was still so long, and there was no end to the light.

She heard Jiang Li say, "I won't delve into the matter of the ring, after all, I am not him." However, since you have already received Yun Peichen's ring, why don't you stay with him, although it may not be happy, but at least it is safe, it is better than waiting endlessly now. Aren't you tired? ”

Tired, really, really tired, so tired that she wants to fall asleep, and then she can't wake up, it's better to have a dream. In the dream, there is a lush locust tree, which is covered with bouquets of white and flawless locust flowers, take a deep breath, and even the air is sweet. High up in the trees sat three young men, all with smiles on their faces, and they looked more dazzling than the sun; There were two young girls standing under the tree, a red peony and a white rose, both so delicate and beautiful.

The afternoon sun is not dry, it is just the right youth.

Jiang Li saw that Mo Qing bowed his head and said nothing, and sighed helplessly: "A person who really likes you and loves you can't compare to a person who doesn't know when he will appear again?" ”

"Ye Chuxia asked me if I really like him? I didn't answer, and then she said that I didn't like him, but when I was at my worst, he just appeared, giving me a long-lost warmth, which made me mistakenly think that I liked him. She said that at that moment, anyone showed up, I would be like that, so there was nothing to hold onto. Mo Qing said in a shuffled voice, "But at that time, it was clear that anyone would appear, why was it him?" Isn't this providential? If it is really a misunderstanding, since I have been misunderstood for so many years, what does it matter if I have a few more years of misunderstanding? What if it's a mistake? I'm willing to make a mistake. ”

"What about Yun Peichen? What should he do? ”

“…… When I was a passerby, I started a new life. ”

Jiang Li snorted coldly: "Passerby? He and you have known that it has been 19 years now, you have long been integrated into his life, you are just a passerby, you have denied his efforts for so many years, do you think you are fair to him? ”

"There is no fairness in emotional matters." Mo Qing looked at the gloomy sky, and there was an extremely bitter smile on the corner of his mouth, "Just like you and Ye Chuxia, do you think it's fair to Li Yuchu?" Or is it fair to me? ”

Jiang Li was speechless.

"You should have read his diary, and you should know why he created you. Not only to avoid the harm of the real world to him, but also to let you protect me for him. He doesn't like sweet things, but why you're a pastry chef is because I like it. You were supposed to be on my side. ”

"You were supposed to be on my side." Mo Qingqian said, "Ye Chuxia treats you as a real person, but you tell me, what about the night?" He's been abandoned by this world once, how could I do it again"

Mo Qingqian looked back at Jiang Li and smiled bitterly: "I'm really not a person who is so generous that I can give away the person I like twice." What do you think I'm letting you stay with her? She looked up into the eyes of the man in front of her, as if she saw the figure of the fragile boy who had hidden herself.

"It's just that the coward who left the night to punish me for leaving him hid himself so that I couldn't find it, and when he had enough, he would definitely come out." She was steadfast.

"Don't think I'm sympathetic to you, what do you have to be sympathized with? Isn't it enough that you love each other, and even be able to be together? You have been with her for six years, and I have waited for him for six years, and I have not even been able to catch up with half of you for the time he has really been with him. You should be glad to know? ”

"Rejoice?" Jiang Li laughed, "I can't even call it a real person, and this world can't find a trace of my existence." And she, a person as good as her, was tortured like this by illness, you make me happy? ”

"Even so, isn't it worth thanking that you remember being together?" Mo Qingqian said, "What's so terrible about being sick? What is there to be afraid of death? At least there was someone else beside her, and there was no one around me......" She chuckled suddenly, not knowing what she was laughing at, looking infinitely sad in this empty place.

Her organs were failing, and at most she was in the last year, and the funny thing was that he didn't know it at all. He imprisoned himself in a place far away from all the harm of the world, but he forgot that there was still a woman in this world, who was also tortured by this world, and she needed him, really needed him.