"If it were you, would you forgive?"

Seeing the message from the squirrel bear, Xu Ran thought distractedly.

If it were me, would I forgive?

Although he knew that it was impossible, Xu Ran had the illusion that Squirrel Bear was not talking about her friend's experience, but about his own, because Xu Ran knew that this was the case between him and Sun Chengwan.

Sun Chengwan once deceived himself, and he was naïve and angry that he would never meet her again.

It's just that the difference may be that Squirrel Bear has been looking forward to getting back together, and Sun Chengwan, who has become a big star... Maybe I've forgotten about myself completely.

Thinking about it, Xu Ran's mood became low, although five years have passed, but now after finishing those happy pasts with Sun Cheng, whenever he remembers it, his thoughts will hurt like a needle.

It's sad enough to lose something precious, let alone lose the person in your life who was once as bright as the stars, or push her away with your own hands.

What qualifications do you have to talk about forgiveness, it's really ridiculous, it's obvious that she should forgive herself, right? Forgive yourself for being impulsive and selfish.

But it wasn't that important anymore, because she didn't remember it anymore.

In the past, Xu Ran's mind was full of Sun Chengwan's no, but now he feels more and more that he is also one of the murderers who buried their feelings for each other.

"Hey, why don't you answer? What would you do if you were treated like this? ”

Sun Chengwan waited nervously for a while, and seeing that Xu Ran still hadn't replied to the message, he sent another message to urge.

Sun Chengwan really wants to know Xu Ran's answer, which is very important and important to her.

"It's hard..."

"Is it hard to forgive?" Looking at Xu Ran's reply, Sun Chengwan's heart suddenly sank to the bottom, "Yes, if you really do something that hurts other people's hearts, you won't be forgiven..."

"It's not." Xu Ran saw that Sun Chengwan had misunderstood what he meant, and hurriedly explained, "I mean, it's hard to answer. ”

"Hard to answer?"

Xu Ran smiled self-deprecatingly, there was no day when he and Sun Chengwan met again, so why should they assume these meaningless things, just add to their troubles.

Even if Sun Chengwan could stand in front of her, she wouldn't be the one begging for forgiveness.

All I can do now is wish her all well, not hope that she can come to me and reconcile with me.

"Well, because what shouldn't have happened, it's not going to happen anyway."

Looking at Xu Ran's plausible answer, Sun Chengwan was confused, and she couldn't figure out what Xu Ran's attitude was.

Is it not forgiving? Or have you completely forgotten about yourself?

If you had to choose one, Sun Chengwan would rather be the former, she would rather live in his memory for a long time because she was complained, and she would never have the character "Wendy" in his world again.

"I don't quite understand what you mean."

"All I can say is that sometimes losing and possessing is something that you can't do with yourself." Xu Ran felt very uncomfortable and didn't want to continue the topic.

"Well..."

Sun Chengwan sighed, unable to get a clear attitude from Xu Ran, so that her next move must be cautious, otherwise she will lose even the last hope.

"There's one more problem." Sun Chengwan was unwilling, and thought about it, and edited another message.

"Well, say."

"Do you have any regrets to this day?"

“...”

Xu Ran felt that this squirrel bear might be able to read minds, otherwise how could he know his current mood well across the screen, the first question was forgotten, and the second question was tantamount to revealing his old scars that had never healed well.

"In life, it is impossible to say that anyone does not have a regret."

Xu Ran's answer was still ambiguous, he really didn't want to mention his past with Sun Chengwan in front of outsiders, he just wanted to cherish this beautiful time that he couldn't help but relive from time to time although he felt sad when he thought about it.

"For example? Can you give an example? ”

"Isn't it early, aren't you resting?"

Sun Chengwan wanted to continue to ask, but she knew that she couldn't ask any more, and forcing others to say things she didn't want to say was too rude for her current identity to face Xu Ran.

"Well, I'm getting ready to rest, and I'm going to be coming over soon."

Saying that the cabbage and cabbage arrived, the door opened, and a lovely cabbage that had been washed clean jumped in happily.

"After accepting it, why don't you come to my room, it's time to go to bed with me~"

"Here comes Ernie!"

Sun Chengwan answered, and hurriedly sent a message to Xu Ran to say goodbye.

Looking at the white and tender Pei Zhuhyun beside him, Sun Chengwan rarely took the initiative to hug her waist and lean on her, which made Bae Zhuhyun very happy.

This lovely Ernie likes to cling to me even more than you did.

Sun Chengwan hugged Pei Zhuhyun's hand tightly, and his little head rubbed against her chest, as if it was not Pei Zhuhyun next to him at this time, but someone else.

It would be nice if the person I was leaning on at this moment was not Juxyun Oni, but you.

Have I ever regretted something?

Xu Ran lay on the bed with his head resting on his hands, staring at the ceiling blankly, and his cheerful mood was also low again because of the chat with the squirrel bear.

Look forward, Xu Ran, this kind of regret in your heart will only make your life confined to the past and unable to get out of trouble.

Since you can't spit it out, let's sing it out loud, isn't there a good stage?

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"Have you eaten it?"

After eating at Loen at noon, Xu Ran did not sleep on the table as he had done in previous weeks, but picked up his mobile phone and edited the messages.

The object is, of course, Zhou Ziyu, and he uses a very traditional way of greeting Huaguo.

Xu Ran's Kakao Talk message list has finally ushered in a third friend, in addition to Squirrel Bear and Park Chaeyoung, it is the latest addition of Zhou Ziyu.

Chatting with Zhou Ziyu made Xu Ran feel very enjoyable, perhaps because there were few opportunities to use Chinese in a foreign country, so it felt good to be able to speak Xu Ran in his native language.

Zhou Ziyu's very calm and soothing tone when she spoke gave Xu Ran a feeling like a spring breeze and made her feel very comfortable, and Xu Ran always inevitably made up for Zhou Ziyu's gentle tone.

"Well, you just ate it, have you eaten it?" Zhou Ziyu's message quickly replied.

"I just ate it, what did you eat?"

"Rice or something."

Xu Ran felt that his brain must be Watt, why couldn't he speak suddenly, and he could even ask such non-nutritious words.

"Seriously, even though it's been two or three days, I still have a feeling of unreality."

"What's wrong? Do you feel stressed because of who I am? ”