I felt a little distressed when I saw her like this, thinking that an eldest lady like her would rarely shed tears in her life, but now I was provoked to cry like this, and I couldn't help but subconsciously stretch out my arm and hold her in my arms.

After being grabbed by me, she suddenly quieted down and stopped beating me, nor did she break free, and obediently put her face on my chest and let me hold her, her girlish unique body fragrance accompanied by the fragrance of the wreath on her head, which made me a little intoxicated.

In fact, I was just a subconscious action just now, and seeing that she was not struggling, I was overwhelmed, and slowly let go of my arms to hold her shoulders and separate her body from me.

"Why are you hugging me?" Mu Xichun stared at my eyes, with a crying hot spring, and a tear still hung on her wet eyelashes.

"Who...... Who told you to hit me? I stammered rhetorically.

"Who made you make me cry?" She asked rhetorically.

"Who...... Who made you cry, why are you crying when I talk to my mother? ”

"You're the one who provoked you, it's you......" she said and made a gesture to hit me.

"You're hitting me again? If you hit me again, I'll hug you! "I threaten.

She didn't eat it at all and still waved her arms at me, but I didn't have the courage to hug her again, but dodged away.

When she saw that she couldn't beat me, she pulled her legs and chased me, and the scene changed in an instant, and the original crying scene became a wilderness chase scene, and the two of them circled around my mother's grave, but where could she catch up with me, and after a while, she gave up chasing me out of breath.

Looking at a cliff not far from my mother's grave, I suddenly remembered one thing, Mu Xichun had asked me many times about this, but I never answered her.

I walked up to her and reached out to rub her hair, and she tried to hit me again, but I grabbed her hands.

"I'll tell you something, would you like to hear it?" I'm busy talking.

"What's the matter?" Mu Xichun probably pinched his hand and asked with a grin.

"Haven't you always wondered why I'm afraid of heights?"

Mu Xichun really didn't stop struggling when she heard what I said, and nodded with big eyes.

In fact, the fear of heights has always been my secret, I thought that I would not be discovered, and I never thought that after being with someone for a long time, it would inevitably reveal some clues.

A few months ago, Mu Xichun was going to the headquarters for a meeting and needed me to follow, and I hesitated when I learned that it was going by plane, knowing that it would be my nightmare, so I refused the trip on the grounds of pretending to be sick.

But soon the test came again, that time was an unfinished office building project, according to the usual safety supervision department to do the supervision work, Mu Xichun and I accompanied it.

Due to the suddenness of the incident, Mu Xichun did not come to the construction site directly with me for anything, I made a difficulty when entering the elevator, but a large group of leaders were there, I was holding a lot of materials in my hands, and it was obviously impossible to prevaricate at this time, so I had to walk into the elevator head-on.

The moment the elevator left the ground, my legs began to tremble, and when I reached the tenth floor, I almost didn't dare to open my eyes, only to feel the air flow in my ears continue to slide downward, and I silently thought in my heart to get to the top floor faster, faster...... Luckily, I was standing in the back corner and no one noticed my anomaly.

But when the elevator on the top floor opened, I realized that this was the beginning of the nightmare. I saw that everyone followed Mu Xichun into the building, I wanted to follow my feet in, but at this time I found that I couldn't lift my legs, my legs trembled like chaff, barely supporting my body without falling, but I didn't have the slightest strength to lift my feet and walk.

I tried to lift my legs, but to no avail, and I accidentally saw the ground dozens of meters away from my feet, and suddenly felt a wave of dizziness, and the heavens and the earth seemed to be spinning.

I suddenly lost my center of gravity, my feet were unstable, and I almost fell, but fortunately, I grabbed the barbed wire of the elevator in my hand in a hurry to prevent me from falling to the ground, but the stack of papers in my hand was scattered all over the ground with a loud bang.

At this time, everyone noticed my abnormal reaction, and a colleague quickly came to help me and asked me what was wrong.

However, I couldn't speak, and my colleague almost dragged me out of the elevator.

The leader looked at me and Mu Xichun in surprise, not knowing what was going on.

I didn't rest, I was puzzled, and I came over and asked, "What's wrong with you?" ”

I didn't have any strength at the moment, my whole body was sweating, and I didn't bother to find a reason to cover it up, so I panted and said to Mu Xichun and the leaders: "I'm sorry leaders, I ...... I'm afraid of heights......"

Hearing my words, everyone couldn't help but laugh, and a leader jokingly said to Mu Xichun: "I didn't expect the assistant to the president of the famous Hongji Real Estate in the country to be afraid of heights!" It seems that your building will have to be built a little shorter in the future! Everyone laughed.

Mu Xichun said apologetically to the leader: "Let the leader laugh, it is because the mental quality of our employees is too poor, let him rest here!" After speaking, he said to his colleague who had just packed up the documents: "Manager Zhang, let's continue!" After speaking, he didn't look at me and led a group of leaders away.

On the way back to the company, Mu Xichun's face was as cold as ice and she didn't say a word, obviously it was my performance that damaged her face and made her unhappy.

I knew I was ashamed, and I wanted to explain it to her, but I swallowed it back a few times.

When I arrived at the company, Mu Xichun called me to the office.

"If you're afraid of heights, why didn't you write about it?"

"This ...... Do you want to write about it too? ”

Mu Xichun smiled very angrily: "Isn't there a column for filling in the disease history on the entry information?" You think the company is boring and added this? ”

"I ...... I didn't think of this either...... It will affect the work...... "I can't argue with it."

"Then the last time you went to the headquarters, did you say that you were sick on purpose, and were you afraid of flying?" She immediately thought about it.

“……”

I was silent.

Mu Xichun saw that I acquiesced, and her chest rose and fell for a while.

"I will limit you to one month, go to the hospital to cure your illness, and I will personally assess it in a month! Get out. ”

I can't help but say something.

"Get out!" Mu Xichun yelled, obviously angry, and even said such vulgar words as rolling.

A month later, Mu Xichun took me to the unfinished building again, but I refused to go into the elevator again. Inevitably, Mu Xichun was hit by a nameless fire.

Actually, it's not that I haven't seen a doctor after that incident, but this is a mental illness, and there is no effective treatment so far, and if you want to recover, you have to treat your own psychological disorder, and external intervention treatment is not effective at all.

I told Mu Xichun the truth about the doctor's words, Mu Xichun didn't say a word, left me and drove away alone, I looked up at this tall building with an innocent face and sighed in my heart, thinking that I might not be able to live in such a tall building in my life, even if I was lucky enough to live, I didn't dare to step out of the balcony half a step.

Although my fear of heights was not cured, Mu Xichun didn't do anything to me, she probably knew that the pathology of this disease was not above the body, and there was no cure at all.

After that, she asked me several times why I was afraid of heights, but I didn't give her a definite answer. Now that we're both at the root of the disease, I want to tell her that it's okay.

"I can tell you, but you have to keep it a secret!" I said to Mu Xichun.

Mu Xichun nodded firmly.

I beckoned Mu Xichun to come over to my side.

"Do you see the cliff over there?" I pointed to a cliff not far from my mother's grave.

"What!" Mu Xichun asked.

"I wasn't afraid of height......s before I was ten years old," I told Mu Xichun about this past that had been sealed for a long time but would never be forgotten in this life and this life.

One summer when I was 10 years old, it coincided with the season when the red roses were in full bloom, and I didn't see my mother when I came home from school that evening, I thought my mother hadn't come back from work, so I did my homework at home alone, but my mother still didn't come back after the homework was done for a long time.

The sun was almost setting, and my mother would usually come back at this time, so I felt a little strange and went to the mountains to look for my mother.

When I found my mother, the sun had sunk into the cliff, and only the red sunset had not yet had time to dim. My mother sat on the cliff with her legs hanging down from the cliff, and her eyes were fixed on the sunset on the horizon and she didn't even notice my arrival.

She didn't look back at me until I called out to my mother, and at the age of ten, I didn't notice anything wrong with my mother. My mother smiled at me and motioned for me to come over, and she asked me to sit next to her.

"Dog baby, look at how beautiful the sunset is!" My mother called me by her nickname and pointed to the western sky.

I also followed my mother's example and watched the sunset with my legs hanging down from the cliff, but I didn't think that today's sunset was more beautiful than before.

"Dog, didn't you say last time that your classmates laughed at you for wearing clothes with patches?" Mother suddenly asked an irrelevant question.

"Yes, I fought with them that time, and I tore their clothes, Mom, I have promised you to come over, I will not fight again in the future." It's been a long time since my mother said this, and my mother was called by the school to criticize her for it.

Although my mother didn't beat me and scolded me, I saw my mother crying when my mother took me by the hand and walked home, and I was very sad at that moment, I knew that I had made my mother sad, so I promised my mother that I would never fight again.

"Do you feel aggrieved in your heart, why can't you have new clothes to wear?" Mother asked again.

"I know that our family conditions are not good, and we don't have the money to buy new clothes if my father doesn't come back. I don't feel aggrieved, my mother said that as long as the grades are better than theirs, it is the best victory! ”

The mother fell into a long silence.

After a long time, the mother spoke: "Dog, if your mother waits for you to leave here and go to another place, will you go?" ”

"Where to go?" I wondered.