"Don't you say that, okay? Do you know that I'm sad that you're like this, too. Don't you believe in my feelings for you? Mu Xichun's chin frowned slightly, tears flashing in her eyes, obviously trying her best to restrain her sadness.

I closed my eyes and looked up, took a deep breath, turned to her and said, "Go back, I want to be alone!" Don't worry, I'll be fine! ”

"How can I feel at ease when you're like this? Let's not say anything, will we come home with me? Mu Xichun's tone was almost pleading.

I looked at Mu Xichun's eyes full of tears, and my heart, which was full of resentment, suddenly softened, and I suddenly understood that my behavior was undoubtedly a kind of torture for her, and I knew very well that she was not at fault in this matter, and how innocent she was.

I reached out and stroked her cheek, and her tears rolled silently at this moment. I suddenly remembered what she had said to me before: "I never shed a tear before I met you, you always made me cry again and again." ”

Now I made her cry again. Is this the price of love? If it's not emotional, how can it hurt?

I wiped away her tears, nodded and said, "Okay, let's go home!" ”

Mu Xichun's tear-stained face finally showed a smile, nodded firmly, mumbled in her mouth, held my arm, and walked in the direction of her car.

Xiang Dong had been standing not far away and watching us, and when he saw that I was finally willing to obey and go back, it seemed that he had grown a mouthful.

As I approached him, he smiled at us and said, "That's right, go home and sleep, what to do tomorrow, I haven't seen a living person suffocated by urine!" ”

I glanced sideways at Xiang Dong and ignored him, and was helped into the car by Mu Xichun.

Mu Xichun thanked Xiang Dong and then got into the car.

Along the way, Mu Xichun turned his head from time to time to observe my expression, although I was almost drunk, but in fact, my brain was very clear, I knew that Mu Xichun was worried about my body, but I really didn't want to speak.

I looked at the bustling long street outside the window, and I knew that all the glitz and noise outside had nothing to do with me, although I lived in this city, nothing really belonged to me. If I hadn't gone to the bar to the east tonight, I'd be drunk and no one would have cared on the streets.

I thought I had found the purpose of life, found the meaning of life, and felt that happiness was not far ahead, but the funny thing was that just as I rolled up my sleeves and was about to fight for it, it suddenly came to an abrupt end.

How ironic it is that the so-called goal of life, the so-called meaning of life, and the so-called happiness should be completely denied by just a few words of one person!

I suddenly felt that the value of some people's lives in this world is really like ants, they can easily be swayed by others, and if they are not careful, they will be destroyed. What about the nobility of life? What is sacred about it?

Thinking about it, I actually smiled sadly, it turns out that everything has not changed, it turns out that everything is still the same as before, and some people's lives should not have any damn hope, hehe, hope! How many inspirational words, it seems to be not far in front of you all the time, but you can never catch it......

Mu Xichun saw my tears smiling and asked worriedly, "Are you okay?" ”

I ignored her question, and laughed a little uncontrollably.

Mu Xichun drove the car to a fork in the road where no one was around, and looked at me worriedly, probably because my appearance scared her.

As soon as she stopped the car, I suddenly felt an irrepressible urge of alcohol in my stomach, I pushed the car door violently and staggered to the side of the road and knelt on the ground and vomited

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I vomited all the food, and I almost didn't vomit the bile.

Mu Xichun was busy patting me on the back and running to the car to get me water, until I couldn't vomit anything after a long time.

I took the mineral water handed over by Mu Xichun and rinsed my mouth, turned around and sat on the concrete floor, leaning back and supporting the ground with my hands, only to feel that my stomach couldn't help twitching, and the strength of my whole body seemed to vomit out along with the filth in my stomach, and my body was as weak as collapse.

"How are you? Why do you drink so much? Mu Xichun's tone trembled, probably because he saw that I was uncomfortable, and he was too concerned about me, and there was a hint of reproach between his words.

"It's okay! Can't die! I said weakly.

Mu Xichun heard this, don't look away, and gently wiped her face with her hand, although I couldn't see her face, I knew that she was wiping her tears.

"I'm sorry! I've made you cry again and again, it's me who can't stand you! I couldn't hide my guilt.

"Don't say any more!" Mu Xichun finally couldn't hold back, turned his head to look at me and said loudly: "Do you know that I am more uncomfortable than you when you are like this?" Why do you care so much about other people's opinions, I love you, it's you, you know? Even if the whole world is against it! As long as I'm by your side, you shouldn't give up on yourself! ”

Her tears flowed again, but as soon as her tears flowed out, she wiped them away, she tilted her head slightly and looked at me with a stubborn expression, and a strand of hair fell from her bun, making her look a little sad!

"Girl...... Sorry ......"

"I'm sorry not to hear anything!" Mu Xichun interrupted me.

"You said you love me, but why do other people's words make you lose confidence, do you really love me?" Her words became intense.

"But he's your father......"

"So what?" Again, she interrupted me.

"Do you think that my love should also be arranged by him? Do you think I will love whoever he asks me to love? I still have the determination to fight to the end, but what about you? Your performance really makes me wonder if I'm still struggling, only to find that you're gone! How can you give me the confidence to fight for our love? Mu Xichun finally couldn't hold it anymore, and hid her face with her hands and cried bitterly.

My heart was stabbed hard by her words, I wanted to vent because of the depression in my heart, but I never thought that my negative behavior would have any impact on Mu Xichun's heart.

She's right, if I can't be a reason for her to fight, then what's the point of her efforts?

I struggled to sit up and put my hands around her shoulders, but she pushed her away, and I reached for her again, this time with some force and my hands around her shoulders.

She struggled a few times and didn't break free, then suddenly she quieted down and stopped struggling, but she still covered her face with her hands, and her shoulders trembled uncontrollably.

I took her into my arms and hugged her tightly, and at the moment when I took her into my arms, she let go of her hands and hugged me at the same time, and finally no longer controlled her grievances and cried, while crying and beating my back with my hands, I looked down at her, only to see that she was already in tears......

When it was close to the early hours of the morning, Mu Xichun finally sent me back to my residence, poured me a glass of milk, forced me to drink it, helped me into the bedroom, put me down on the bed, and poured me a glass of boiled water and put it on the bedside table.

In my dazed consciousness, I seemed to hear her sigh softly, and then I turned to close the door and leave.

It was noon when I woke up the next day, and I wondered why the alarm didn't go off

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After passing the phone, I found that the alarm was turned off, and I thought that Mu Xichun, who was careful, wanted me to rest for a while and deliberately turned off my alarm.

Thinking of this, I can't help but hate myself a little, thinking that she is probably only a lot more stressed than me in this matter, I am just forced by Mu Zhongren's pressure, and she not only has to bear the pressure of her parents, but also take care of my feelings, besides, she is only a weak woman......

I remembered some of the unkind things I said to Xiang Dong at Xiang Dong's bar last night, and although I knew that Xiang Dong would not blame me, I was still a little ashamed.

So I picked up my phone and called Xiangdong.

"Sobered up?" Don't wait for me to open my mouth and go east.

"Hmm...... I'm sorry about last night's incident, buddy! I muttered.

"I know I'm sorry, it seems that you have come to your senses, and probably you won't be like a little girl asking me for comfort anymore! Take care of your own business! Don't move like a resentful woman, if you want to get drunk in the future, you'd better not come to me! Xiang Dong said half-sarcastically, half-teasingly.

My old face was red, I didn't say a word for a long time, and I hesitated for a long time before I spoke: "Your son is full moon, right, are mother and son okay?" I'm sorry I've been too busy for this time, and I didn't even say hello to you! ”

"It's a full moon, but it's not that good to say!" Xiang Dong sighed.

I was surprised: "What's wrong?" What does this mean? ”

"That kid was born with a very severe jaundice, and there is fluid accumulation in the inner house, the situation can be described as quite bad, and my wife is also guilty of postpartum depression because of this, what a evil, I haven't even heard of this disease!"

"And how are they doing now?" I asked eagerly.

"That kid to the south has lived in the intensive care unit for a month, and this month my house and hospital have been running from place to place, but I have been busy, which is why I didn't go to talk to you about Anne in the first place, and I'm ashamed to think about it."

"But fortunately, Xiangnan's kid is fine, he was discharged from the hospital a few days ago, what I didn't expect was that my wife's depression was miraculously cured after Xiangnan was discharged from the hospital, it's really!" Xiang Dong couldn't help but laugh as he spoke.

Hearing his words, I was relieved, and then I felt a little guilty, thinking that as a friend, such a big thing happened to Xiangdong, not only did I not take the initiative to care, but I didn't even know about it, I was really ashamed of the word friend.

"Dude, I'm so sorry, I didn't even know that something so big happened to you! I'm sorry! I said apologetically.

"Come on, you're too busy to take care of yourself, and you have the leisure to take care of other things? Besides, tell you, how can you help? It's not just the rush that follows! "Xiang Dong didn't care about the road.

"Speaking of which, Xiang Nandu has been born for more than a month, I haven't seen the child yet, and you haven't invited the child's full moon wine yet, I think it's better to take the time to make up for it!"

Xiang Dong laughed and said, "This is natural, I will arrange it when everyone has time." There is also a buddy to advise you, emotional matters are important, but as a man, you can't be trapped by feelings, you must do your best to fight for what you can, even if you can't win it, you can't give up on yourself, you still have to have the responsibility! ”

I listened to Xiangdong in silence, as a friend I knew what he meant, and after a while, he said slowly: "I know, thank you buddy!" ”

Xiang Dong didn't say anything and hung up the phone.

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