"Muddy can't be on the wall?" I looked at her and smiled sadly, "Are you finally disappointed in me too?" ”

Mu Xichun trembled, and the tears in his eyes flowed down like a flood that broke the embankment.

"Your dad found me this morning, and you know what he said to me? He said that I am a rotten wood that cannot be carved, and I am a dou who cannot be supported! Hehe! You are really father and daughter, and even your thoughts are surprisingly consistent, and you finally think that I am a mud that can't be glued to the wall! It seems that this is what you all agree on about me! Good! That's nice! It's just great! ”

Speaking of this, I suddenly felt a heat in my throat, and an irrepressible wave of qi rushed up, and I spat out a mouthful of blood. I almost fell!

Mu Xichun hurriedly stepped forward to help me, I pushed her away violently, because my throat seemed to be blocked, I said a little angrily: "I don't want you to care, I don't want you to be pitiful!" I'm the mud that can't stick to the wall, don't get your hands dirty! ”

Mu Xichun stood in place in a daze, crying silently: "I'm sorry...... I'm sorry...... It's all my fault, I, I shouldn't have said that! ”

"You don't need to apologize, what's wrong with you? I love you, I can't help myself! It's that I didn't recognize myself, and now I finally know what I am! Sorry to interrupt! Hehe, hehehe! I smiled miserably, turned around, and walked forward step by step.

I just feel that every step is like using a thousand powers, and it seems that every step consumes all my life......

Mu Xichun caught up again and pulled my arm, and she was already crying into a tearful person!

"In this life, it's all my fault, it's all my fault, it's all my fault, can you forgive me?"

Her tone was almost pleading!

I stood still, indifferently and gently pulled out the arm she was holding, and took another step.

She still wanted to come forward to pull me, but was stopped by Ah Wei.

"Let him go, he hurts you so selfishly, why do you still beg him like this, he doesn't deserve you to treat him like this at all, let him go, let him go!" Ah Wei grabbed Mu Xichun, who was struggling to chase me, and yelled at Mu Xichun hysterically, as if he was venting his anger and seemed to be about to wake her up!

At this time, I saw a car coming eastward from a distance, and suddenly braked beside me. He had probably seen the scene in the car, which was evident from his actions.

He jumped out of the car and grabbed my clothes, and asked me with a sad expression: "Old Wei, what kind of nerves do you have, how can you treat Miss Xichun like this!" Do you know what she's been anxious about you these days......"

"Enough!" I yelled, interrupting his barrage of questions. He obviously just saw Mu Xichun's tear-stained and sad pleading with me, just saw my indifference and despair towards her, he didn't know what had happened before this, especially when he saw Mu Xichun who had come to Mu Xichun for days to find me almost exhausted, so he would preconceived that I treated Mu Xichun so indifferently and made him angry.

I was already emotionally broken at the moment, and how could I not be angry when I saw him come up and question me without asking.

I pushed him away and took my hand: "I'm nervous? You think I'm having a nerve too? Didn't you always feel like I was causing you trouble? Don't you want me as a friend? Well, I satisfy you, and from now on we will never be again

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Friend! I yelled at him hysterically.

I've lost my mind completely, like a fried fighting, and whoever touches me I'm going to peck his eyes off, and I don't care if you're good or bad.

"Are you crazy? Do you know what you're doing? "Xiangdong could hardly believe that I would say something like that. But apparently he was also angry at what I said, because he never thought that about what I said, and he knew that, and I knew it. But I said it anyway, since my life has rotted like this, why lose another friend.

"Yes, I'm crazy, I'm crazy, so stay away from me, don't infect you!"

Xiang Dong frowned and ignored me anymore, probably he felt that my current state was unreasonable. He turned around and supported Mu Xichun, who was already crying and couldn't straighten his waist, as if he wanted to say something, but he couldn't say anything. He and Ah Wei supported Mu Xichun left and right, and the three of them looked at me with different expressions and turned around, and then left step by step.

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It was late at night, the sky was still intermittently fluttering like a cow's hair, the autumn wind blew, bringing a hint of chill that could not be felt yet, the French plane trees on both sides of the road began to have yellow leaves falling, and the cicadas between the branches and leaves seemed to be noisy and noisy yesterday It seemed that they could no longer be heard after only one night.

I staggered through this gradually cold city, and my heart was as cold as iron.

Is it finally coming to an end? Is the so-called beauty, the so-called hope just a dream? The happiness I longed for, the future I was looking forward to, was it all in vain?

It's over! It's over! I've long understood that there shouldn't be hope in life, right, why do I have to do those unnecessary challenges? Is it just because who said that if you do it, there is hope? Why didn't he tell me what to do with the cost of failure?

I walked on the dark street, the world was dark, only the street lamps were still struggling to carry the last glimmer of light in the world, and it was still letting my shadow follow me as much as possible, so that I would not seem too lonely.

The road in front of me finally became familiar in my uncoordinated steps, and the towering high-end residential unit buildings not far ahead were still standing there unclean.

I thought this was a path to my happiness, and I thought that there would be evidence of my happiness in one of the squares, but now, am I finally going to take all traces of me? Who knows what a dream I had here......

I opened the door softly, and it was quiet, pitch black. I wonder if the owner of this room is asleep or has not returned?

I didn't turn on the light, but I was still able to find my door in the darkness with great precision, and it was so familiar to me.

I closed the door and stood with my back against the door for a long time, breathing deeply every wisp of familiar air here, with a faint scent of lavender in the air, which she had placed on my windowsill with her own hands, and she looked at my dark circles that day and said to me that the scent of lavender is good for sleep......

The breeze blows, gently lifting the thin gauzy curtains, on which the beautiful galaxy is reflected, which looks mysterious and spectacular in the faint light in the distance.

This is the pattern she personally chose for me, and she said that this pattern will make her feel the depth of time and space, and she said that when she sees this picture, it feels as if time has stopped

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Turning, she said she loved the feeling, and she said that every time she saw the picture, she thought of eternity......

Her smile, her anger, her every move...... At this moment, it was like a sharp knife, cutting my heart deeply, and I almost couldn't control my convulsions in pain.

I struggled to contain my almost uncontrollable thoughts, but finally sighed, turned on the light, and began to pack my things.

I stuffed my clothes into my bag one by one, and when I saw those knee-length shorts, I couldn't help but think of the ten house rules she had listed. The thought of her explanation of the tenth article in order to make up the whole number made my soul feel as if it were burned with fire, and my spirit was in a trance.

I have memorized each one of them in my heart, and I have carefully followed each one, but from now on, I am finally no longer bound by those ten house rules, because I will no longer belong here.

Although I moved slowly, it didn't take much time for a few sets of clothes after all, and I finally found that all I could take away was just a few clothes and silks, and nothing else, after all, I came and went in a hurry as a passerby, leaving no traces, and I couldn't take away a trace of nostalgia......

Finally packed, everything was no more than the size of a bag. I looked around, and sure enough, I couldn't find a trace of my visit.

The quilt on the bed was a little messy, but I folded it! I've watered enough of the lavender on the windowsill to believe that even if they are forgotten for a while, they will live for a long time, and that's all I can do.

I looked out the window at the sky, it was still black, and it seemed like a heavy rain was still brewing, and I closed the window to make sure the rain didn't fall in with the wind. With all this done, I packed my bags, turned off the lights, and turned around and walked out of the room.

Just as I was out of the room and back in the living room, the door to the living room was suddenly opened, and the light in the living room was turned on.

As the lights turned on, I saw Mu Xichun standing at the door with red and swollen eyes, and the tired look on his face was distressing.

I realized that after not seeing her for a few days, she had lost weight visibly, and my heart was twisted into a ball like someone twisting a towel, as if she wanted to squeeze the blood out of it, which made me feel like I wanted to suffocate.

We both froze at the same time, and I was motionless in the center of the living room. She stared at me for a moment, then lowered her gaze at the bag in my hand, and she seemed to suddenly understand something!

"You...... Where are you going? Despite her efforts to keep her composure, I could hear a tremor in her voice!

"The world is so big, there should always be a place for me!" I replied in a hoarse voice.

She moved slowly, stopping two meters away from me, and at a distance I could clearly see the tears in her eyes.

"Can I not go?" Her voice finally trembled unconcealedly.

I looked at her silently, and I felt a tingling in my heart, if I could see my heart, I believe it would have been full of holes.

Seeing that she didn't speak, her tone suddenly became louder: "You're my boyfriend, I won't allow you to go!" ”

“…… If you really feel the need, I can say that...... Let's break up! After a long silence, I finally spoke.

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