When I woke up again, it was already night, and I slept for several hours, probably because I was really tired of the tense state for days, and I didn't even have a dream in this sleep.

When I woke up, I felt a gurgling in my stomach, and a strong feeling of hunger made my body weak for a while. I don't think I've even eaten a bite of food this day, and if I hadn't woken up hungry, I would probably have been able to continue sleeping.

I went out and ate a bowl of beef offal vermicelli at a roadside stall, and it was so delicious that I poured not even a drop of soup into my stomach. Only then did I feel that I had strength in my body again.

I saw that it was still early, and I probably couldn't sleep when I went back now. When I walked down the street in a distracted mood, I somehow remembered the bar called Lover's Tears, and the woman who was like a clear tea, and suddenly I seemed to go to sit and sit, so I wanted to listen to her play piano music again, and I thought that my footsteps had unconsciously walked towards the bar street.

Coming to this bar called Lover's Tears, I couldn't help but feel gloomy when I looked at the eye-catching sign.

When I remembered that I had left here, I thought to myself that I would never come back again, because in my mind this is a haven of temporary refuge, and I will leave after the storm has passed, and it is not a place to live for a long time.

I originally wanted to admit my mistakes to Mu Xichun sincerely after I got out of here, to face life bravely, and to be a new person......

I didn't expect that I was back here in the blink of an eye, and the so-called providence made people just like that.

However, I was a little disappointed that Sister Hong was not at the bar, and did not come until midnight, and it seems that my wish to hear her play another song is about to be disappointed.

However, just as I was disappointed and left, I almost bumped into her at the door of the bar.

When she saw me, she couldn't help but laugh and said, "I knew you would come back!" ”

"For ...... Why? "I was a little stunned.

"I've seen everything that happened the night before, and it looks like you haven't figured out what to do with you! So I guess you'll be back! ”

"You...... Seen them all? I asked, surprised.

"Of course! I was in the crowd, but you didn't see me! ”

I was silent.

Sister Hong sat down on the steps at the door of the bar and made a gesture to me to sit, and I sat down next to her a meter away from her.

"That girl must not be an ordinary person, I have guessed your troubles, the so-called bystander clear, how? Would you like to hear what I think? She asked.

I bowed my head silently, as an outsider, I think her opinion must be objective, she has always given me the feeling of elegance and refinement, a kind of Zen detachment and the wisdom of seeing through everything. I'd love to hear what she had to say.

"I didn't intend to find out the identity of that girl, but looking at her extraordinary temperament, I'm really curious about what her identity is!"

"She is the president of Hongji Real Estate City Branch and my boss!"

"Oh!" She made a blank look.

"I see, it seems that your pressure is really not ordinary!"

"What? Do you also think that it is impossible for me to be with her at all? Her words made my heart beat a little chaotic, and Exit asked.

"Definitely! Whether or not you can be with her is entirely up to you! ”

"What do you mean?" I couldn't help but feel a stir in my heart.

"I don't know what you think, but I can see that girl has a deep affection for you, I'm afraid you really broke her heart this time!"

I sighed and said, "I know!" I had already told her I had broken up that night......"

"So have you figured it out? It's true

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Do you want to break up with her from the bottom of your heart? Sister Hong turned her head to look at me and asked.

"......" I was speechless again.

"Look at you, I'm afraid you haven't figured it out!"

“…… No one is optimistic about our relationship, her family is even more strongly opposed, and my competitor you probably see it, I really ...... I couldn't stand it...... "My heart began to ache again.

"Hey!" She sighed and continued: "So I said that whether you can be together or not depends entirely on you, her pressure in your situation is much greater than yours, she hasn't given up, you can't stand it first!" Do you really want to know the reason why you gave up before her? ”

I didn't understand what she meant, so I nodded and motioned for her to continue.

"The reason is actually very simple, but you feel that your status is low, and even you don't feel worthy of her, to put it bluntly, it's just that you are too inferior, so that too many conditions are attached to the original pure feelings, and your feelings become overwhelmed!"

"I know I have low self-esteem, but aren't all the feelings in the world like this? Will there really be pure feelings? ”

"Whether the relationship is pure or not depends entirely on whether you can see it or not, she still loves you and you can do anything, why can't you make a little sacrifice for her? Don't take the so-called dignity so seriously? It is precisely because of your low self-esteem that you become sensitive, and your sensitivity is precisely the blade that hurts the other party! If you were able to confidently face your identity from the beginning, why did you get into today's situation? ”

"As for your so-called competitor, why do you think he is your competitor? Do you think he's going to take away her love for you? Or do you think she's going to fall in love with two people at the same time? Isn't this behavior of yours a distrust of her? Isn't it a blasphemy of her feelings? ”

My heart slowly sank, and her barrage of rhetorical questions left me speechless. Now that I think about it, I was really selfish, and I didn't even think about the harm my actions did to her when I was so unscrupulous as I vented my emotions! Maybe I thought about it, but I probably only saw this behavior as a punishment for her, and I never put myself in her shoes at all.

I thought of the message Anne had left for me when she was leaving, she had warned me to learn to empathize with my heart when I was in emotional difficulties, as smart as she had probably expected that I would be in today's predicament at that time, and had already advised me, but I did not understand it at all......

As for Ah Wei, what Sister Hong said is reasonable, I shouldn't treat him as a competitor at all, I got the concept of a competitor wrong from the beginning, the so-called competitor should also be on the same starting line to be called a competitor, and in this competition, obviously he has won before he starts, because Mu Xichun loves me, isn't this enough?

The reason why I regard him as a competitor is because of my inferiority complex, and I feel that I can't compare to Ah Wei, so I will regard him as a threat. Now that I think about it, what do the conditions I compare with Ah Wei have to do with love? Maybe for some women, these things are indeed additional conditions for love, but I know very well that Mu Xichun is definitely not that kind of woman.

As for Mu Zhongren's words, why should I take it to heart, the person I love also loves me, shouldn't this be the most beautiful thing in the world? Why did I make it so complicated?

I finally understood that the question of whether I loved her enough or not that I had wanted to calm down now seemed to have an answer.

Of course I love her, of course I love her enough, the reason why I do things that hurt her repeatedly is because of myself, because I think love is too complicated, because I attach those self-righteous conditions to myself to love her, I am like a traveler who carries a load, how can I experience the happiness of a naked runner?

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If you really decide to break up with her, I didn't say these words! If you're just on the spur of the moment, I advise you to think about it now! ”

"......" I still can't answer.

"I think if you change your mind and ask her for forgiveness at this moment, she will not hesitate to accept you again! But I think as a mature man, you shouldn't blindly make conclusions, you should think more about your future, even if she will forgive your impulse without any guilt, but what you will face in the future is what you should consider the most! ”

"You have to think about whether you have enough courage and determination to face difficulties! As a person who has come over, I might as well give you a piece of advice, if you are not prepared enough, it is not a cowardly choice for you to break up with her, after all, if it is destined to hurt, then it is better to end the relationship while the damage is not too great. But even if it's a breakup, you have to have a firm position, ask her to completely break off her thoughts, and if sadness is inevitable, then it's early! If you can do that, you're still a man! ”

Sister Hong patted me on the shoulder and said, "Think about it!" Think about what exactly you want! Actually, the answer is in your heart, isn't it? All you have to do is make a choice. Isn't it? With that, he got up and went into the bar.

I sat still motionless on the steps.

The question seems to be on the horizon, but so what! I've already broken up with her, and it seems too late to wake up.

Sister Hong is right, even if I go back to ask her for forgiveness at this moment, and then love her desperately, the problem is still the same old problem, and I have not changed anything except to confirm my love for her.

But the pressure she has to face is still on her, and it will not change because of my attitude, and if you want to say that the change is just no longer sad because of me. But isn't this another shackle imposed on her?

It is impossible for her to betray her relatives and leave me in order to love me, and it is impossible for her parents and family to accept me now. Such an extreme dilemma would probably make her even more miserable.

If the saying that long pain is better than short pain is really true, I think the breakup is my last care for her......

It is always better to let her suffer for a while, and in the end, she must make a break between family and love, if it really comes to that point, am I selfishly letting her be with me and thus break with her parents, or am I voluntarily giving up our love?

If it's the latter, how is it different from what I choose now? If it had been different, she would have probably only been more miserable by then......

So I still agreed with my immature decision in my heart, and I decided to break up with her......

The soft melody of Richard Clayderman's autumn whispers came from the bar, making me feel like a traveler who has come from the eternal wilderness and crossed the long tunnel of time and space, stepping on the metallic flying notes, not only purifying the rivers and lakes, the five mountains and the three mountains. More modern people living in materialistic desires, showing a great emotion, paving a deep wish.

I looked up at the crescent moon looming in the sky, and thought to myself that this piece was very appropriate, but I was no longer in the mood to listen to it.

I stood up and looked through the glass door at the back of Sister Hong, who was sitting at the piano and playing, and at the same time I felt grateful and at the same time felt a sense of insolvency, I bowed deeply to the lover's tear bar, which was my most humble gratitude to her.

Then I turned around and walked towards the bar to the east, and I had to apologize to the east anyway, and I couldn't help but feel ashamed of all the things he had done for me, and I was afraid that this friend was really broken by me.

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